alligatorob
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Hey Jela, welcome back.
I am looking forward to reading about your progress!
I am looking forward to reading about your progress!
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Thank you all so much for the support! It means the world knowing I'm not alone in this.
And thanks for reminding me of my typical error of not eating enough proteins and feeling very hungry shortly after a meal. I will add some feta cheese to my ajvar breakfast.
Yesterday I had an argument with my sister and it escalated beyond normal. I was feeling so low and sad after that. Cried a lot. Made plans with a lot of friends to help me feel better. And it kind of helped during the day. I was so exhausted around 10 pm, but as soon as I tried to fall asleep, the sadness woke me up. And it kept me awake till 3 am
So I had only 5 hours of sleep which is so not good for trying to lose weight. The more I sleep the better I feel, and everything is easier.
For breakfast I ate some Chinese leftovers from yesterday's dinner.
And thanks for reminding me of my typical error of not eating enough proteins and feeling very hungry shortly after a meal. I will add some feta cheese to my ajvar breakfast.
Yesterday I had an argument with my sister and it escalated beyond normal. I was feeling so low and sad after that. Cried a lot. Made plans with a lot of friends to help me feel better. And it kind of helped during the day. I was so exhausted around 10 pm, but as soon as I tried to fall asleep, the sadness woke me up. And it kept me awake till 3 am
So I had only 5 hours of sleep which is so not good for trying to lose weight. The more I sleep the better I feel, and everything is easier.For breakfast I ate some Chinese leftovers from yesterday's dinner.
alligatorob
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Hello and thanks for the support! It sure means a lot!
FIRST RULE: checked!
As far as second rule goes, I won't be expecting to follow it today and here is why. I had a lot of stress yesterday. I went into an argument with a friend of mine. He is beyond toxic for me. I tried to be calm, but it escalated into both of us yelling and saying unpleasant things. After the stress with my sister the day before this was just too much for me. I fell asleep at 5 am and woke up at 7 am. I will try to go trough this day, but cannot follow the second rule, because sleeping is a priority.
I already took some steps into improving the situation. Since I love my sister more than I can say, I don't hold any grudge, actually I feel very sorry for her. But, I won't call or say anything, before she apologizes to me, because not only she said very hurtful thing she also physically attacked me. But I strongly believe everything will be ok. I will try to work on myself and be a better sister for her.
When it comes to a friend, on the other hand, I've decided to break this friendship for now, and very possibly forever. That was long time coming. I don't see how it can be approved.
I called my therapist and will be seeing him on Monday, because all of this was too much for me. He was very reassuring which felt pleasant and calmed me.
Also during the night I had a conversation with a good friend of mine who lives in the US, so we are in a different time zones, and I can talk to her when everybody else is asleep here She was like a glass of warm milk to my soul, so thankful for that!
This was a lot to share. Hope things will clear out and I will have more energy to put into this goal. But I'm proud of myself I followed the first rule, no matter the circumstances. It is simple and small, but it gives me the sense of control, and the feeling that if I keep trying day by day, I will succeed.
FIRST RULE: checked!
As far as second rule goes, I won't be expecting to follow it today and here is why. I had a lot of stress yesterday. I went into an argument with a friend of mine. He is beyond toxic for me. I tried to be calm, but it escalated into both of us yelling and saying unpleasant things. After the stress with my sister the day before this was just too much for me. I fell asleep at 5 am and woke up at 7 am. I will try to go trough this day, but cannot follow the second rule, because sleeping is a priority.
I already took some steps into improving the situation. Since I love my sister more than I can say, I don't hold any grudge, actually I feel very sorry for her. But, I won't call or say anything, before she apologizes to me, because not only she said very hurtful thing she also physically attacked me. But I strongly believe everything will be ok. I will try to work on myself and be a better sister for her.
When it comes to a friend, on the other hand, I've decided to break this friendship for now, and very possibly forever. That was long time coming. I don't see how it can be approved.
I called my therapist and will be seeing him on Monday, because all of this was too much for me. He was very reassuring which felt pleasant and calmed me.
Also during the night I had a conversation with a good friend of mine who lives in the US, so we are in a different time zones, and I can talk to her when everybody else is asleep here
She was like a glass of warm milk to my soul, so thankful for that!This was a lot to share. Hope things will clear out and I will have more energy to put into this goal. But I'm proud of myself I followed the first rule, no matter the circumstances. It is simple and small, but it gives me the sense of control, and the feeling that if I keep trying day by day, I will succeed.
Hello everybody!
I'm toasting bread right now, for my ajvar breakfast.
Yesterday was ok. Met with a father's friend, who was a computer science professor at a University, now he is retired. Extremely uplifting man. Simple, with a lot of positive energy, down to earth, diligent, practical. He inspired me.
And also went for a walk and a coffee with a friend and her little daughter, a bundle of pure joy.
Food was ok. I ate my breakfast meanwhile. Two pieces of bread with ajvar and feta cheese. So I probably won't be hungry at noon. So I will have to use my brain and decide how much I have to eat for breakfast to have the right amount of hunger for lunch fixed at noon. Of course the best option would be for me to wake up at the same time and eat always the same, but for now sleeping is a priority and I want to sleep as much as possible since it helps me fight the stress.
THIRD RULE: write down everything I eat and why in a notebook, and look at it once a week to think of improvements. I know it would be better to write it here, but I am still ashamed (and should't be) since I eat a lot.
And, I will now write here using my cellphone, because I am more concise that way, and I can image reading a lot of text is probably boring to most of people (myself included).
I'm toasting bread right now, for my ajvar breakfast.
Yesterday was ok. Met with a father's friend, who was a computer science professor at a University, now he is retired. Extremely uplifting man. Simple, with a lot of positive energy, down to earth, diligent, practical. He inspired me.
And also went for a walk and a coffee with a friend and her little daughter, a bundle of pure joy.
Food was ok. I ate my breakfast meanwhile. Two pieces of bread with ajvar and feta cheese. So I probably won't be hungry at noon. So I will have to use my brain and decide how much I have to eat for breakfast to have the right amount of hunger for lunch fixed at noon. Of course the best option would be for me to wake up at the same time and eat always the same, but for now sleeping is a priority and I want to sleep as much as possible since it helps me fight the stress.
THIRD RULE: write down everything I eat and why in a notebook, and look at it once a week to think of improvements. I know it would be better to write it here, but I am still ashamed (and should't be) since I eat a lot.
And, I will now write here using my cellphone, because I am more concise that way, and I can image reading a lot of text is probably boring to most of people (myself included).
alligatorob
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Hey Jela, never worry about you posts being too long, and they are not boring. Its good for you to write it, and we appreciate reading it.
I think writing down everything you eat is a really good idea, I do and I post it here. It has really helped me to stay focused on eating right.
like Amy, I had to look ajvar up, it does sound good.
Keep on posting!
I think writing down everything you eat is a really good idea, I do and I post it here. It has really helped me to stay focused on eating right.
like Amy, I had to look ajvar up, it does sound good.
Keep on posting!
Rob, Amy thanks so much for the support! It means more than you can imagine. I was about to eat a 1000 kcal pancake, then I read your posts and went with ajvar
Yesterday was a boring day. I was at home all day, doing nothing, worrying mostly, which I guess happens to a lot of people doing nothing. There is a saying here: Leisure mind is a devil's playground. So, I will try to meditate (I have no idea how it should be done for real, I just made up something that works for me), although it would be easier for me to find some simple job, but more about that some other time. Also a job would probably help me with my sleeping cycles.
As for the eating plan, it goes well. I follow everything I said I will, which is not a lot But, since it goes well, I will add another rule.
THIRD RULE: oatmeal for dinner (with greek yogurt and some nut butter for protein).
Yesterday was a boring day. I was at home all day, doing nothing, worrying mostly, which I guess happens to a lot of people doing nothing. There is a saying here: Leisure mind is a devil's playground. So, I will try to meditate (I have no idea how it should be done for real, I just made up something that works for me), although it would be easier for me to find some simple job, but more about that some other time. Also a job would probably help me with my sleeping cycles.
As for the eating plan, it goes well. I follow everything I said I will, which is not a lot
But, since it goes well, I will add another rule.THIRD RULE: oatmeal for dinner (with greek yogurt and some nut butter for protein).
Cate
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Thank you Cate!
I'm so happy I can see the ticker. That is my first goal: 79 kg. And I would be happy to achieve it until the NYE. Will be weighting myself on Mondays.
So to summarize my plan:
BREAKFAST: made at home, for now ajvar ---> when I wake up
LUNCH: bought, some vegetables with meat, and cornbread ---> at 12 am
DINNER: oatmeal with greek yogurt, some fruit, honey and nut butter ---> at 7 pm
+ one extra meal after dinner if I feel like it.
To explain the need for an extra meal.
1. I don't have consistent sleeping cycles, so sometimes I go to bed at 3 am. I have to eat something till then, but my breakfast at the morning will be smaller.
2. I don't do well when I restrict myself completely, because I use food to deal with some emotional things in my life. I'm not yet ready to let that go, but will be working on that.
3. Still haven't found the right amounts I should be eating, neither how much of protein should I be putting in my meals. Until I figure that out, I will probably eat less than I should, and be hungry later in the evening. I will in time try to make my breakfast and lunch optimal, and I won't be craving one extra meal.
I'm so happy I can see the ticker. That is my first goal: 79 kg. And I would be happy to achieve it until the NYE. Will be weighting myself on Mondays.
So to summarize my plan:
BREAKFAST: made at home, for now ajvar ---> when I wake up
LUNCH: bought, some vegetables with meat, and cornbread ---> at 12 am
DINNER: oatmeal with greek yogurt, some fruit, honey and nut butter ---> at 7 pm
+ one extra meal after dinner if I feel like it.
To explain the need for an extra meal.
1. I don't have consistent sleeping cycles, so sometimes I go to bed at 3 am. I have to eat something till then, but my breakfast at the morning will be smaller.
2. I don't do well when I restrict myself completely, because I use food to deal with some emotional things in my life. I'm not yet ready to let that go, but will be working on that.
3. Still haven't found the right amounts I should be eating, neither how much of protein should I be putting in my meals. Until I figure that out, I will probably eat less than I should, and be hungry later in the evening. I will in time try to make my breakfast and lunch optimal, and I won't be craving one extra meal.
Cate
Long term member
Hi, Jela. I add some almond meal to my oats/yoghurt mix for extra protein, but your tahini would probably be as good. If you want to see how your nutrition looks you could try one of the free apps. I use My Fitness Pal & it gets easier the more you use it. Tru uses Cronometer. I need to keep an eye on how much protein I consume too as it's almost always a lot less than recommended. Your goal weight is about my perfect weight too. Let's do this
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