Another hard week at work but I think I am getting somewhere with it and hopefully it will calm down soon.
Went to the doctor who made two contradictory claims - firstly that the only safe weight loss long term is 2% of body weight per year and that the recommended amount to lose is 10-15kg per year. That assumes most people weigh 750kg - as a Maths teacher I am aware of the shocking lack of numerical understanding in the broader community as I read and see it every day, but coming from a medical doctor who prescribes medication it's a bit terrifying. I guess I went to her for sensible help and she seemed more helpless than I was. She did talk about doing a mental health plan but recommended going to a nutritionist first. I explained the program but she obviously thought it was unhealthy and I am getting blood tests, which I think will show I am healthy. Certainly, I am much healthier than I was when I weighed 25kg more. She said she could get me the referral to psych. if we did a mental health plan and I found a psych. who specialised in this area. For this she earned $85 and the government paid about $70. I am pretty annoyed. On top of all this she told me about her attempts to lose weight, which is friendly I suppose but again not very reassuring. I conclude I have to help myself to find help.
I am now going to the market every Saturday to buy fruit and veg rather than the supermarket and buying really lovely flowers. I am trying to find ways to replace my use of food as reward.
The clothes situation is getting dire - not for work but casual clothes - but I object to spending lots of money on clothes that I may only wear for 2-3 months. I also have some kind of block about shopping in stores for normal sizes. I remember a conversation with a friend of mine who got to goal weight with WW last year and she said she still feels fat and thinks of herself as big. And while I still have lots of weight to lose, I can't bring myself to embrace the idea that I fit into normal sized clothes. It will take time I suppose.
Enjoying the teaching this year which is good. The rest of the job is huge, my workload has more than doubled with no time allowance. We will see what happens.
eloise
Went to the doctor who made two contradictory claims - firstly that the only safe weight loss long term is 2% of body weight per year and that the recommended amount to lose is 10-15kg per year. That assumes most people weigh 750kg - as a Maths teacher I am aware of the shocking lack of numerical understanding in the broader community as I read and see it every day, but coming from a medical doctor who prescribes medication it's a bit terrifying. I guess I went to her for sensible help and she seemed more helpless than I was. She did talk about doing a mental health plan but recommended going to a nutritionist first. I explained the program but she obviously thought it was unhealthy and I am getting blood tests, which I think will show I am healthy. Certainly, I am much healthier than I was when I weighed 25kg more. She said she could get me the referral to psych. if we did a mental health plan and I found a psych. who specialised in this area. For this she earned $85 and the government paid about $70. I am pretty annoyed. On top of all this she told me about her attempts to lose weight, which is friendly I suppose but again not very reassuring. I conclude I have to help myself to find help.
I am now going to the market every Saturday to buy fruit and veg rather than the supermarket and buying really lovely flowers. I am trying to find ways to replace my use of food as reward.
The clothes situation is getting dire - not for work but casual clothes - but I object to spending lots of money on clothes that I may only wear for 2-3 months. I also have some kind of block about shopping in stores for normal sizes. I remember a conversation with a friend of mine who got to goal weight with WW last year and she said she still feels fat and thinks of herself as big. And while I still have lots of weight to lose, I can't bring myself to embrace the idea that I fit into normal sized clothes. It will take time I suppose.
Enjoying the teaching this year which is good. The rest of the job is huge, my workload has more than doubled with no time allowance. We will see what happens.
eloise