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LaMa, sorry to hear that, what do you think triggered it? What matters now it that you don't binge today, can you do that? One binge won't kill, its just a set back to be moved on from.

I watched your video and it really hit home all of the symptoms and characteristics of BED fit me pretty well, I have not heard that acronym before seeing it on this forum, and had not done much research on it. I just did some web searching and the results were interesting. No question I have BED, and have had it all my life.

Vic and Petal, good for you, keep up the good work.

No binge here, and no strong cravings. I ate some of those fritos this afternoon, but it was different than the last time, I did it as a semi-planned snack to quell some hunger pangs. I knew going in it was not the start of a binge, and it did not lead to any more urge to keep eating than I normally have. An apple would probably have been a better snack, maybe I will try to do that tomorrow.

Lets not purge again today or tomorrow, depending on what part of the world you are in.
 
Something with fat and protein may be better sgainst those hunger pangs. Apple with a smear of nut butter seems popular. Or, to make it less binge-worthy: a piece of fruit with some nuts?
I binged because I'm frustrated with my skin to the point of desperation. If it wouldn't hurt so much I'd burst into tears every 15 minutes or so.
 
I had a binge dream last night. I was at a funeral (don't know who's) and they had set up a banquet smorgasbord board, I tried to resist but ended up filling my plate with mostly meat. I was feeling guilty as I made my way to the table, thinking that maybe I could just eat a few bites of it, but worrying that might be embarrassing. Then I woke up, don't know what I would have done in the end. Binge dreams don't bring many calories, but it did not feel very good.
 
Lama hope you don’t feel like binging today . Except on Star Trek of course .
Well done Vic and Rob the Frito’s are ok on occasions . I think with 5 months in we miss certain little snacks . I do anyway .
I actually ate 2 marshmallows last night . It was not a binge . I think I just felt I fancied something to get energy levels up maybe . I don’t know really . I stopped after 2 because they are 60 cals each I think ! The pack has been there for a while which is good and I won’t go near them again .
I will watch that video later Lama .
 
No b/p here today, it was a good day.

Vic and Petal, good for you. Petal 2 marshmallows are not a bad thing, so long as its not done too often. I guess my fritos are my the little snack I miss and still have from time to time.

LaMa, how did your day go?

Let's do it again tomorrow.
 
Did well today . No urge to binge but ate a good proper dinner and I’m all prepped for the next few days .
Well done Vic and Rob .
Lama I reckon I definitely have BED . No doubt about it .
i think I would benefit from counselling just not sure how to go about it really .
I know if I wasn’t getting weighed at class every week I would be binging or overindulging .
 
No binge here today! It was good.

I did have another binge dream, this time it was chocolate brownies that were tempting me. I don't recall the details as well as yesterday, but I am pretty sure I didn't actually (in the dream) eat any. Are binge nightmares a thing?

Good for you Petal and Vic, that is great!

Petal, me too, I have no doubt that I have BED, I just didn't know the name for it until now. Do you think some kind of counseling would help? Like you I'd have no idea where to start.

Hey LaMa, how are you doing?

Lets do it again tomorrow.
 
Well I ended up getting up and ate a late meal. I had 2 cheese stick, 2 tortilla, and chicken breast.

so that was my binge after craving the cheese. Both the cheese and tortillas are done and not buying any more.

no purging!
 
Vic as binges go that sounds more like just maybe overeating late at night .

Rob I know I have issues I think maybe yes although I deal with things pretty well . My food problems started at a young age though . I can probably pinpoint why too.
 
Hey Vic, I am not sure I would call a late meal of tortillas, cheese and a chicken breast a binge, but you know what it was feeling like. No purge is good news indeed!

Petal are you able to say what you think the why is?

I think I was born with my eating problem. My mother used to tell me that on our first doctors visit after I was born that the doctor was amazed at how much weight I had put on in my first weeks of life, and I am fat in all my baby pictures. Its always been there.
 
I may have mentioned it before early in the diaries I can’t recall but as a child I was forced to eat food I did not like . I would have to sit at the table for hours until eventually I would give in or they would give in . Cold stew nothing like it !!! I resorted to hiding food I didn’t want and then secret eating food I did . Father was alcoholic so life was not always easy . I was considered the responsibile child too and the eldest so I probably grew up a bit quick . When things would be upsetting at home I ate . Don’t get me wrong on the whole I had a good childhood but things have stuck . As a teen I was called fat and my weight was always made an issue but looking back on photos I was actually fine .
 
I was an awful eater as a kid. I liked... baked potatoes, fries, sweet peas, sausages, meatballs, pancakes, and basically all snacks, but nothing else. Every meal was a fight and I´d end up throwing up once a day on average for years until I was at least 10. I´d freak out so much over having to eat stuff I couldn´t get down it made me cry, then cough, then throw up. Then when I got to be a little more independent I started secretly eating the stuff I did like in way-too-large quantities. My dad would predict explosive weight gain whenever he saw me eating chocolate (he meant well, but... let´s just say he wasn´t a child psychologist). Then when I got old enough to diet (started at 16) the calorie restriction saw my casual overeating-on-snacks grow into full-blown binges.

I ate whatever I wanted for the past couple of days. Took sick leave (and the skin protection of the steroids) as an excuse and went all out. Which is another reason I want to go back to work tomorrow.
 
No binge here today, I feel good.

Petal, thanks for sharing your story, it must help to understand the underlying cause, but something learned at such a young age can be pretty hard to unlearn later in life. Interesting that you story and LaMa's are so similar. My memories of food and parents in childhood are very different, my parents were always concerned about my weight and eating, and trying to control my intake. I guess that's when I learned to hide my eating, and I was pretty good at it. I can't blame my parents for this problem.

I mentioned this on my diary but my feelings of hunger are getting less and less. If I only eat when hungry I don't eat enough. This is a new experience for me, not something I can ever remember happening before. I do still have cravings, not too bad today, but they were there. What I have learned is how to know the difference between hunger and craving, and so far I have been able to ignore the cravings.

Petal, I am sorry to hear about your father, I have been around too many people and families with alcoholism, and drug addition. I know that has to have been hard on you and the rest of your family. To your credit you seem to have turned out fine despite it, that doesn't always happen.

LaMa, I don't know if modern child-rearing is doing much better. In the US we currently have the highest childhood obesity rates in history. Something is wrong.

Let's not binge tomorrow!
 
Rob thank you for your lovely words . I don’t blame my parents or anyone else really . I think all the triggers are just there and it’s how I coped I guess . I think all things considered I’m pretty good .

Rob there is so much wrong in the world I wouldn’t know where to start for the younger generation .
it’s scary stuff .

Have a good day everyone , let’s not binge .
 
I don't blame my parents either. They did the best they could with the knowledge they had. The current childhood obesity epidemic seems mostly a clusterfuck of poverty and heavy subsidies for the building blocks of unhealthy food to me. Children of educated, affluent parents don't typically get obese, do they?
 
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