New Years Resolution/Maew's Diary 2006

Hi maew I find that the weekends are the hardest as well. We have started going for walks on Sundays(days out) to exercise (have fun) as a family , it works well.
 
Hey! Thanks for the words of encouragement. You are exactly right - I shouldn't care what others think of me. Its a problem I have had for a long time, and one I really hope to get over. I would love to join a gym someday, just to have access to all that equipment I could never have at home. Thanks again -- Keep up the great work! :)
 
Hello All!!!

Thank you so much for all your kind words. You know its weird... you come here looking for support then someone tells you how how inspirational you are to them and it helps lift your spirits and you have even more support -- thank you emma21 for reading this.

Emma21 I used to dread getting dressed and going outside, I was too fat. I used to hide from the world, and that was all right for a little while. We all go through our periods of depression, I had been through a very hard, life changing situation and didn't want to see anybody. That didn't help my weight problem, staying home and just eating.

I don't dread going in to the gym anymore, I dread when I can't go. I look forward to working out now. The feeling of accomplishment after an hour of working out and sweating is awesome!!!:p I am attacking the fat on my body. I am not willing to let it control my life anymore!!!! Although I will warn you, my trainer worked me out so hard today I got nauseous and threw up. But I tend to push myself to the limit and not give in - I don't want to ever seem weak. But today, I pushed too hard. She is going to back off just a litte. And I only see the trainer 1/wk or two.

RoseRed- my husband, son and I went for a bike ride early sunday morning and I felt so wonderful afterward. My son couldn't keep up with me:D

Sara06: my gym is in Santa Monica, CA where all the "beautiful people" live. I am the biggest girl there, but someday I won't be.

Oh yeah, Emma have you started a diary of your progress? We could do this together, just you, me and all the rest of the girls on this forum.

This past weekend I talked my son and husband out of getting pizza and we got healthy chinese instead (they steam or stir fry w/water only). I could and almost did give in, but I am not ready to face the tempation of pizza yet. Besides, I don't know that Dominoes has anything I could order that would be at least semi-heathly.

Well, once again I have written waaaayyyy to much!!!!!:eek:

See you girls tomorrow and I will stop in at some of your posts and put in my two cents :)

Maew
 
Hey there :)
I was excited to see that you had posted ... for some reason you just literally get up off my butt and keep me going. Your diary really just sticks with me ... I worked out today and when I wanted to quit, I just kept going and by time I left , I had been on the tredmill for 45 minutes and the elliptical for 30! I felt wonderful. You're right - sweating does feel good after an hour of exericise! I did start a diary of my own and it does keep me on trakc ... but it holds me accoutable for what I ezat so that s good :)
I hope you have a great evening - I look forward to tomorrows post! Keep up the hard work ... and AWESOMMEEEEEEEEEEEEE job on the no pizza :)
 
maew
congratulations on 11 pounds gone FOREVER! That is just tooooo cool! Sounds like you have the attitude and the want to. THe losses are sure to follow!
 
Hey Emma,

Thanks for coming back and posting. Ya know, when I started this whole lose weight for New Years thing I didn't even know about all these forums. I did a search one day and came across another one and read all through it and even cried at the struggles and successes I was reading about. Then I came across this one, and I loved the idea of keeping a weight loss diary, where everyone in the world could read and I could get encouragement from women - it seems sometimes that I am surrounded by men in my life - father, husband, son- and I don't have any close female friends to lean on.

This has been a wonderful thing for me to come and expound upon my day and the struggles I have gone through and to get the comments from everyone has been sooooooo helpful. And when I read your post saying I had been an inspiration, just made me cry - but in a good way. Now I have even more reason to push forward and say no thank you when someone offers me a soda. Or chips - like my evil father did yesterday :eek:

Thank You for your comments and I look forward to reading your diary :)

Maew
(wow! this was a short one!!! :p )
 
I hafta make a comment on the earlier skinny v. non-skinny in the gym thing- When I first started workingout at 24 Hour fitness, I went to the locker room to grab my stuff and there were a few skinny things in there, and seriously, this is what one of them said: We need to stop coming here. Theres to many ugly people. !! Yeah, well, now I work there, definately the biggest person there, but guess what- I actually sweat. I don't sit around in my pink power suit and dab at my face while secretly trying to get a date. :) so there. lol...
anyways, yeah, just thought I would drop that in lol

your doing great, by the way !! :)
 
Happy Tuesday All!!

Well today has been a relatively good day. I got up at 5:15am and did cardio for 1hour and arms for 15 and sauna for 15.

Oatmeal and fresh blueberries for breakfast
Wheat puffs w/ nonfat milk for snack
Ham and potatoes - small amounts of both - for lunch
1 apple w/ 1tbsp peanut butter for 2nd snack.
Dinner will be: chicken breast grilled on Formeman grill w/ salad and spinach

And 3 liters + of water throughout the day

I am having some very harsh thoughts about my teenage son though. I just don't understand where the attitude comes from. Although I can look back and remember my own attitude ( but MY mom was mean and horrible!!!) :rolleyes: Maybe I should just calm down and let it go. But he just seems so disrespectful sometimes. Although he's not out doing drugs, or having sex with girls, or failing out of school. I am thankful that I know where he is at all times and who he is with. ;)

Thanks for listening, I will check in tomorrow.

Maew
 
hello

Hi Maew:

Your doing great!!! Keep going!!! Don't worry about your son. They have stages where they start to behave like that. Don't worry but be around hearing and watching. They get to this age where the parents don't know anything and they know everything. Just try to have a friendship with your son but ask him some respect. They all do the same thing.

I hope you are doing fine!!!!

chimistar;)
 
Hey Maew! Way to go on your early rising and exercising! You're doing great.

As for the teenage son.. well as an older sibling to MANY teenagers, I know what you're talking about. Although its not fun, it is a phase, and like you said you're thankful he's not out doing worse and you know where he is most of the time! That's a much better start than like 60% of parents out there now adays! So you ARE ahead of the game. Keep that as a positive reinforcement for you. :)

My only suggestion would be to, suck it up and try talking to your son, on a one-on-one basis, as an adult to adult type of setting. Even though he may not quite BE an adult yet, they sure think they are or should have all those rights. So if you talk to him calmly and rationally, he may be like wow, I CAN talk to my mom, and if thats the case, then you can in turn say, Hey isn't this a lot easier when we talk respectfully to eachother? I dunno. it is JUSt a thought. Some kids respond greatly to that, because tehy feel they're parents are just yelling at them all the time, and giving criticism. And with teenagers, that sall they hear or focus on, is the bad. They don't see all the good you do for them. They're bound to cling to negative.. but he WILL get through that stage. :) And so will you!! :) And if it you want some comfort, take it frmo my parents who are still surviving and they have 6 teenagers in their house at once now. Well ranging from 15-21. And NONE of them get along!!! So it could be worse. ;)
 
Hey Maew. Keep up the good work! Looks like you're doing a great job wtih your eating and exercising.

Don't fret too much about your teenage son. I think its a challenging time for all parents who have children that age. I have one that will be a teenager next year, and already she has become more emotional and prone to mood swings. I heard a quote once by Mark Twain that I found humorous and fitting to life with teenagers I think. He said, "When I was a boy of fourteen, my father was so ignorant I could hardly stand to have the old man around. But when I got to be twenty-one, I was astonished at how much the old man had learned in seven years." Just reminds me that teenagers just are the way they are sometimes, and this too shall pass. Just my two cents. :)

Keep up the great work!!
 
hi ya'll!!!

Once again I have to start off by thanking you all :p Your words of encouragment and advice have really helped. Tonight, when I get home I will sit down and talk with him, softly and calmly and with respect. Maybe I should give respect and then I (hopefully) can get some in return. I wouldn't want someone to yell at me all the time. *sigh* I know it's a phase, and it will end and he'll be a great adult. I couldn't imagine having 6 teens in my house!! Or even having a girl teen! I have heard that can be much worse.

My diet is going really well, I figured out I am eating 1650 calories per day, here is my usual food for the day:

Breakfast: 2 slices Turkey Bacon - 122 Cal
1 pkt oatmeal - 170 Cal
1/2 C Blueberries- 42 Cal

Snack: 1C puffed wheat- 60 Cal
1/2 Non-fat Milk - 86 Cal

Lunch: Chicken Breast - 284 Cal
1/2 Snow peas - 41 Cal

Snack: Apple - 65 Cal
1 tbsp peanut butter 94 Cal

Dinner: 660 Cal (it varies, but I try to keep it around 660-700 Cal max)

I have not missed any of my M-F days at the gym. I am drinking 3+ liters of water a day. I have increased the intensity of my elliptical workout. I wrote earlier that I would try to keep my heart rate around 70% of my Max Heart Rate. But I found that my workout was too easy :eek: . I wasn't sweating enough and I wasn't losing any weight :( . I kinda stalled out, so I decided to just keep it at 120 strides/min whether I am at 8 resistance or 3. Before, I would slow down to 95-100 to keep my heart rate low enough to stay at the 70%.

So I will see you all later, and thank you for the help with my teenage son. :)

Maew
 
Hey Maew-- sounds like you are doing awesome with your diet, exercise and water! You are a real inspiration. I really really really need to get that whole drinking water thing down. I am drinking more, just not nearly enough though.

How are things going with your son? Better I hope. Just hang in there. It really is true when they say parenting is the hardest job on earth. :)
 
Hi ya'll

I have to give you an update on my son. At 1:00pm yesterday I got a call from my son, but didn't get to it in time. My husband calls me 1 minute later my son had been "jumped" and he was on his way to pick him up. Apparently a group of boys, 1 in particular had been fighting with John (my son) at least twice previously, this time 3 boys attacked him at once. he got a black eye with a nice bump under it but otherwise he's okay. This was the reason he was being surly towards my husband and me. He didn't want to seem weak, but didn't know how to handle it. My son is not a fighter, although he is 6' and 180lbs. He could take care of himself, he just doesn't like violence or fighting.

Luckily my ex (son's father) is LAPD, I called him immediately and he called the school police officer and informed him what had happened and asked him to look into it. They pulled all the kids out of class - the ones that were still in school as some had ditched right after the incident apparently. And will be suspending/expelling them all. And not just the ones that actuall attacked my son, but their friends who were watching and cheering them on.

My son's attitude last night was the best I have seen in a year!! I think a big weight was off his shoulders and he realized that he could count on us in a time of crisis. He was smiling and laughing with us at dinner, and when I asked him a question I did not get a big sigh before he decided he would answer. We talked about his attitude in the prior days and how he was taking this stress out on us.

But things are good now, thank you

Maew
 
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Hey Maew....glad your son is ok. What a scary thing to have happen! Sounds like he is really opening up now. Thats wonderful! Hope everything continues to work out well. Take best of care. :)
 
Hello All!!

Sorry I haven't posted in a couple of days, but I have found an awesome website for helping people to lose weight. It is totally free :D and they have a food diary that is easy and great to use. They calculate how many calories I should eat a day (low-high) and fat, carb, protein and cholesteral I should be getting. I have high cholesteral, so this is a great way for me to make sure I stay on a low cholesteral/fat diet. They track my nutrition, fitness, weight, and goals I have set (daily goals, short term goals, and long term goals). And it is totally free!!! It is called SparkPeople.com. I have signed both my husband and son up. And the first time they put in their food they ate just for breakfast, they couldn't believe they had consumed that many calories - my husbands breakfast was 1350 calories, half of his what his daily calories should be. He couldn't believe it :eek:

Anyway, I have been keeping up with the diet and have not missed going to the gym. My family and I even rode our bikes to have breakfast Saturday morning instead of driving. And then my son walked to the Mall with me to shop. Sunday, we just stayed at home and took the day off of excersising.

Maew
 
Another boring journal entry. I didn't sleep well, woke up at 4am and just kinda laid there til I figured out I might as well get up and go into the gym early.

I did my cardio for 63 minutes. I do 2 of the weight loss routines back to back. It seems like in the second set I feel much better, like I could keep on going for a long, long time. Then it ends. I worked out my arms after that for 20 minutes and 45 crunches. Then the sauna for 10 minutes.

My food doesn't seem to vary much. I eat the same breakfast every morning: oatmeal w/fresh berries and 2 strips of turkey bacon. Snacks the same: 1C All-Bran or Puffed Wheat, 1 packet of sugar and 1/2C Non-fat milk (morning) then Apple, 1 tbsp peanut butter or 1C granola w/ 1C non-fat milk (afternoon). Dinner, we always have a simple salad, meat, another veggie and sometimes some kind of potatoe or rice.

Seems kind of boring. But I am a lover of stability and knowing what I am eating everyday is comfortable to me. And this way I am able to control my calories, fat, carbs, protein. But is it okay?

I am losing my weight

Maew
 
Hey Maew, your workout sounded pretty intense. Good for you! I think if you are happy with what you are eating, and you think it helps you to stay on track with your diet, then its ok. I will eat like the same lunch for maybe a week, even two. Then all of a sudden I will stop eating it, and change to something else. I dont know why I do that. Its like yum! tuna, yum! tuna, yum! tuna and then all of a sudden its more like i hate tuna! i hate tuna! i hate tuna! Oh well.


Hope you get a better nights sleep tonight. Keep up the great work!! :)
 
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