What modivates you to get out and go running, cycling or whatever you do?
For me, initially it is stress relief. After I get going I see everybody else out there exercising, sweating and generally enjoying it makes me want it more.
Knowing I am "in-charge" of my own "self-controlled" destiny.
I PISS "persistence and consistency" and Crap a "self-controlled" bad @ss!
I wrote this before, but a large portion of my passion and desire "within" is seeing the fire within another human being that has "all the reasons" to falter and render herself helpless. Instead it builds a strength within unmatched by many and few are able to reach:
"When the night comes, I will pick up the pieces."
This statement is imbedded in my heart every day. The reason I began my quest for health and fitness is a long story, but it begins with a warning from my body and ends with the love for my wife.
About 5 years ago, my wife was diagnosed with Lupus, and also has a bone condition called: Fiber Dysplasia of the front left facial bone (has had this all her life), she can carry an extra 15 pounds of water in her legs, get skin rashes, seizures, swelling of various tissues, bone pain, muscle aches and pains, severe migraines, severe sweating, to name only a few.
She has had several operations on her face where they literally shaved her front cheek bone and sinus area that continually gets blocked from the bone growth. She had one about 6 months ago, and this one was rather serious and needed to be done or she faced certain death due to the placement of the bone growth. (brief synopsis)
She never complains, and is not ashamed of herself, always puts herself last and her family first. She is always persistent: She is my idol.
Doctors say she won’t live past the age of 60. I say she will because of her heart. Whatever happens, when the night comes, I will pick up the pieces.
If you ever wondered what drives me, it’s my wife. I keep myself physically conditioned to be able one day to: cloth her, bath her, feed her, and put her to bed. I love her: She is my idol. When the night comes, I will pick up the pieces.
I must be prepared so I must keep my aging body fit for the task and not let her down or myself down.
What she lacks in beauty she makes up with her heart and soul: I love her.
I have cried and I have bled in the gym. I know the journey.
However, there is nothing I can’t bare when I look at her, that she hasn’t felt.
She is the one that boils in my heart of desire. I would do anything for her.
This one of the reasons I am who I am and act the way I do. I know I can make her life as happy with her medical condition, and want to set out to do similar things for other people. I know it can be done because I see it every day.
I hope this makes sense. And, I hope one can understand me more for what it’s worth.
Sometimes, I get criticized for my posting methods, this is to be expected; however, never doubt my sincere intentions.
I see everyday what having a determined heart and soul can do to a person.
With all of her medical problems, the fire burns within. She leaves no doubt that we have it in all of us to spark the fire and overcome anything in our path of life. She doesnt "allow" small petty things stand in way. She doesnt allow what "seems to be an obstacle hinder her life or path she chooses.
Most of my posts of the past, and the future, are built on the "premise" that persons have more ability and personal power within them then they actually "think" they do.
So I Chill mentally in this respect, thus my screen name.
Best wishes,
Chillen