Misty's Diary

congrads on your weightloss you can do this and i know you can!!
 
Thanks RNW! I need the encouragement!

April 3:

Ok, I made it through the weekend. I haven't weighed myself so I don't know how well I did. Eating wasn't as big of a challenge until Sunday dinner. Friday I got to eat at home. Saturday, I had a late breakfast which ended up being my lunch too because my husband played in a hockey game from 9-10, and I never miss one of those games so we didn't get back until around 11. I ate a bagel, which was probably around 500 calories. It was a pretty big bagel. We ended up meeting a friend to go see a lecture and then we went out to dinner. I convinced them to go to Applebee's because they have the weight watchers menu. I got the WW onion soup and a salad (with no meat) with only vinegar for dressing. I also had a small snack later in the evening. On Sunday, I went for a 5 mile hike that i completed in about an hour and a half. Pretty good, I think! It was a gorgeous day, so I'm glad I got to enjoy it. I was good at dinner. Though nothing was exactly low cal, I only ate a small sample of things. I ate slow so I felt full by the end of my meal even with a small amout of food. So, I think I did pretty good. I'm sure I didn't lose anything, but I'm confident I didn't gain either. I'll weigh in tomorrow.

I have one question for everyone. Since I've started exercising, eating healthy, and losing weight, I actually feel so much worse about the way I look. I feel worse about myself. I'm even more self-conscious now. I just want to melt into the background so no one can see me. Has anyone else gone through this?? If so, how did you get through this? I'm sick of feeling so down!

Ok, I promise my posts will start getting shorter. I know it's probably a pain to read so much, but thank you for the support so far!
 
April 4:

I didn't go to the gym this morning. I'm feeling super guilty about this. I can't go after work because I have to do grocery shopping. We have no real food in my house right now. It's quite sad. I just hate to go grocery shopping. It's so expensive!! Anyway, I haven't had a problem sticking to my diet, but missing my workout really upsets me because the diet alone has done nothing for me. That actually makes me wonder if 1200 calories is too much for me. I know they say you shouldn't eat less, but if that's the case, then why am I not losing much?? 5 pounds in a month is pathetic. My clothes are fitting the same so all of the lifting and cardio I'm doing isn't changing my body shape either. I think those 5 pounds were just water weight. This is why I'm feeling so crappy about myself. I just don't understand what's going on. I'm only 24 so I shouldn't be having this much trouble losing. My mom hired a personal trainer and in one month she looked like a completely different person. She lost a good bit of weight and toned up alot. She's post-menopausal too. I'm doing the same things her trainer has her do. What's wrong with me?? I'm thinking this is a lost cause. I've been stressed out lately and stress has been known to make me gain weight. Maybe that's my problem. Regardless, I'm frustrated with this whole thing.
 
Ok, tomorrow I'm going try something new for this diary. I think I'm going to start posting what I eat. It'll force me to make sure I'm getting enough/not eating too many calories. I bought a jump rope over the weekend. i think I'm going to try that out soon. It might make me feel like a kid again. What is it about jumping that's so fun?? :) When I jump on a trampoline, I can't help but giggle. Maybe jump roping will have a similar effect.

I need a hobby so that I can keep myself occupied while my husband is doing his work at night. Any ideas? I used to sew, but my sewing machine is out of commission right now. I also make jewelry, but that gets to be too expensive to buy the supplies. It's going to have to be something easy to learn, though, because I have the attention span of a gnat!
 
somesaymisty said:
I need a hobby so that I can keep myself occupied while my husband is doing his work at night. Any ideas? I used to sew, but my sewing machine is out of commission right now. I also make jewelry, but that gets to be too expensive to buy the supplies. It's going to have to be something easy to learn, though, because I have the attention span of a gnat!
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I found sleep is a good hobby. When I sleep. I'm not eating and thats a good thing.:D

DO you like art? I do a lot of artwork on my computer. thats always fun. I throw a DVD in and just start drawing, or writing, or traceing, or hey how about geography? I try and use google images to look up all those places I see Regis and Kelly giveing away trips for on their show. yesterady winner went to Antigua. :cool:

I also try and post on other messages boards that have absolutly nothing to do with weight loss. like But it helps to be a football fan.
 
Thanks for the suggestions, BARabbit! I have tried my hand at the art thing. My brother is an incredible artist, so I thought that, surely, I have to have some talent, right? Wrong!! I suck! I used to play the piano, but I live in a tiny apartment, so I can't have a piano. (Don't suggest a keyboard. I hate fake pianos! :) ) I don't want to do anything computer related because I work on a computer all day for my job. So I just found a school in this town that has really cheap classes I can take. They have a ceramics class. I think that's what I'll be doing as soon as the class starts up!

This is what I ate yesterday (4/4):

Breakfast: yogurt (110 calories); coffee
Mid morning snack: nothing (hey, I had no food to pack!)
Lunch: Tuna in a whole wheat wrap (not sure, maybe 200-ish calories?)
Mid afternoon snack: 100 calorie pack of cookie thingys
Dinner: 2 Veggie pizzas on whole wheat pitas (390 calories)
Snack: Skinny cow ice cream sandwhich (150 calories)
Water: 96 oz.
Total calories: 1000-ish

So yeah, I could've done way better, but oh well! It's another day, right? I think it's not so bad because I didn't exercise yesterday.

I'm doing crappy with breakfast today. It's after 11 and I've only eaten a banana. I'll get myself together here. I promise!

Have a good day everyone! :)
 
Here's what I ate yesterday (4/5):

Breakfast: Banana - 105 calories
Snack: Orange - 63 calories
Lunch: Cheese, Lettuce, Onion Sandwich on 7 grain light bread - 210 calories
Snack: 100 calorie pack
Dinner: Spinach and Tomato Tortellini soup - 300 calories
Snack: Skinny Cow ice cream sandwich (I'm pms-ing) - 150 calories
Water: 64 oz.
Total calories: 928

Even worse than Tuesday!! I wasn't hungry at all either. This is getting ridiculous. I think I need to beef up my caloric intake. Maybe I've put on this weight because I haven't been eating enough. This has always been a typical day for me with the exception of eating out (which I don't do anymore). I'm thinking I could add most of the calories at breakfast (that pains me though).

I am planning on weighing myself tomorrow. We'll see how this goes. :eek:

Have a good day! :)
 
What I've eaten so far today:

Breakfast: banana - 105
Snack: celery - 34
Lunch: sandwich (see above) - 210
orange - 63
Snack: 90 calorie pack (in 2 hours-ish)
 
April 6:

I'm not even going to post what I ate the rest of the day. I screwed up big time!! I had a ton of crackers with peanut butter after dinner. Oh well, it's a new day! Here are the foods I'll be eating up until dinner, which I have not planned yet.

Breakfast: oatmeal, banana, and coffee - 205
Snack: almonds - 170
Lunch: tortellin soup - 160
Snack: strawberries - 49

Have a good day and stay positive!! :)
 
You're right, Today is a new day and have a good one.. Just throw all them crackers away :D You can't eat what's not there right!! Have a good day and drink your WATER!!!!
 
Ok Misty Thanx For Stopping By My Diary And Pushing Me I Am Back On Track And Ready To Get You Back Also! Today Is A New Day Fresh Start For Both Of Us Lets Go For It I Know We Can I Am Here And Going To Push You Can And Will Do This!
 
Thanks for the encouragement girls! I really, really need it!

I have a confession. I haven't exercised once this week. I could give you my "reason" but I'm trying to stop justifying my laziness!! So, now I'm completely scared to weight myself tomorrow! My husband told me it's not the end of the world if I gained. That's a good point, but that's not going to get me anywhere when I'm still this fat come June.

Here's something kind of strange. I eat 5-6 planned, small meals a day to get in my calories. Apparently, that's how it's supposed to be. But, for the first time ever in my life, I'm sick of eating! I think this is because all I do is think about eating and food. If I'm not eating, I'm planning what and when to eat next. Does anyone else feel this way? How can I stop thinking of eating as a chore?
 
You, poor thing:( . I know just how you feel and I am sorry you have to go through such a hard time. ((((Huggies to you!)))):)
Ok, about exercise - you are right, there should be no excuses as to why you didn't exercise unless you din't feel good. If I do not feel like exercising, here is what I do, I say to myself that I will do it for just 20 minutes. 20 minutes seam to be much easier goal and once I start your 20 minute workout, I really want to keep going for more than 20. I call it "second wind" - never fails me. Also, I always work out during "Oprah" show - I do not know why, but she inspires me so very much + a lot of her shows are dedicated to weight loss:) .
I would advice not to weigh yourself every week. Do it once a month, ditch the damn scale! Do you know how much 1 gallon of water weghts? 8 pounds!!! If you retain some water (which is ok) it means your weight will reflect it. I always suggest to measure yourself once a week and weigh yoursef once a month. It is hard to find the perfect way, comfortable way to loose weight. Adjustments have to be made and lots of things has to be changed, but once you find yourself in the place where you are comfortable with you routine - life becomes much easier. My conslusion is: the hardest part of the diet is not the diet itself, the hardest part is this adjustment period.:) So it is OK to spend time figuring out what works best for you and it is OK to fail here and there.:)
 
somesaymisty said:
I have a confession. I haven't exercised once this week. I could give you my "reason" but I'm trying to stop justifying my laziness!! So, now I'm completely scared to weight myself tomorrow!
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Your laziness isn't becouse you don't want to work out. YOU my dear, need a "carrer makeover"

Try varing your routine. Inevibtly, we become bored without our workouts, and our bodys become used to it, our brains know what to expect so they take precautions. When dieting, Learn to defeat your own mind and your body will reap the benifits.

Say your walking or jogging, You walk the same path, (maybe around the block) SOmetimes you do it twice aday. You've figured out how long it takes you each time. When its safe. What house the little hoodlums live in. You know where the fire hydrents are. YOU KNOW TO MUCH!!!!

(this is one of the reasons why I hate home Gyms. No variaty. )

Its time to take a different path. Walk around a different block. Learn the in's and out's of that route. Keep your mind working. thats the key.

Don't count out your mind while working on your body. it needs to be fed also.
 
Thanks for the pep talks! I know what I need to do, and I'm making sure I'm going to stay on track this week.

Coco, you're advice is great! I'm trying so hard not to weigh myself often, but the temptation is always there! I do find that when I'm working out, I start to reason myself to work harder or longer. The hard part is waking up at 5:30. :)

BA Rabbit, I am going to take your advice too. I don't do enough outdoor activities because I don't live in a pedestrian friendly area. However, now that it's nicer out, I have been going hiking on the weekends. That really helps motivate me because I love hiking. When I go to the gym, I've been trying to vary my routines through interval training. I'm trying to get ready to run in a race on Memorial Day. Any suggestions on how to get fast results would be great!

So I haven't written this weekend because I've kept myself pretty busy. It was a good weekend though. I ate right and exercised. I did weigh myself this morning and I lost 0.4 lbs. I'm just glad I didn't gain. I'm also finally starting to notice a change in my body, even though it's in a place I could give a crap about losing (i.e. my chest). Too bad my butt isn't disappearing! :)

It's a new week and I think I'm back on track. I was actually excited to get up and hit the gym this morning. I hope everyone has a great day!! :)
 
somesaymisty said:
. I'm trying to get ready to run in a race on Memorial Day. Any suggestions on how to get fast results would be great!
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There are two ways that I use to increase speed and distance

wind Sprints If your running outdoors than measure a distancce about 50 yards. Use a marker. Two differnt trees if its a city street. A curb. a trash can. dosen't matter. Then run as fast as you can between the two five to ten times. You'll gasp for breath, thus increasing your lung capasity. And sho knows, it may help with your other chest issues, I'm not sure though...bad joke i know...

If your using a treadmill for your jogging then try ratching up the per hour speed. Say you normally do 4 miles an hour. and your doing it very comfortabley. In the middle of your jog, you can pump up the speed to 6 or 7 miles per hour for like a fifth of a mile and get the same affect as running the wind spints on the street or sidewalk.

Stairs trying running up stairs. like three flights at a time. three or four times in a row. once again you'll find yourself winded at the top. but the benefit is increasing your lung capisity which will help you runn longer.


Good luck and let us know when you start losing weight in your butt... :eek: Er... I mean, let us know how your keeping up. :p
 
Thanks for the tips! I skipped the gym this morning because it's a very nice temperature this afternoon. I'm going to go for a run outside after work. I figure this will let me see how hard it is to adjust to changing inclines. I think it'll be alot harder than using one set incline throughout a run on the treadmill. I'm also going to try those sprints. I had heard before that people have gotten into great shape doing those. Here's hoping for the best, right? If I don't die after the sprints, I might break in my new jump rope. I just joined a weekly challenge and today it's 1 hour of cardio. I hope I can manage that!

I'll definately keep everyone updated on the shrinking of my butt. HA! I just can't wait for that to happen!! :)

Hope everyone is having a good day!
 
somesaymisty said:
I skipped the gym this morning because it's a very nice temperature this afternoon. I'm going to go for a run outside after work. I figure this will let me see how hard it is to adjust to changing inclines. I think it'll be alot harder than using one set incline throughout a run on the treadmill.
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Well, how'd it go? hows those inclines?
 
good morning!!! Hope you have a great day!!
 
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