Misty's Diary

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somesaymisty

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Hi Everyone!

Well, I've joined this forum a few days ago and now I'm finally ready to start my diary. After reading various threads, I found everyone to be so postive and supportive that I'm now brave enough to even put my actual weight in my signature. That's a huge step for me. I weigh myself, but it never seems like reality if I don't write it down or share it with someone else. Now that I know I won't have to worry about being judged (most of that was always in my head, I'm sure), I recorded my weight and I know that seeing the number (and knowing everyone else sees it too!) will be such a motivator for me.

I'll give a quick summary of my background. Now that I've been out of college for three years and working office jobs, I've put on about 20 pounds. That, of course, is on top of the already 10-15 I needed to lose. I was married 4 months ago, and I guess it was when I got my wedding pictures back that really made me take a look at myself. I am so disappointed in myself. They aren't pictures of the woman I thought I'd be on my wedding day. It's depressing to know that I couldn't even motivate myself enough to look good on my wedding day! That was my wake up call. I need to do this before it gets even harder. I'm ready to battle this. I might want to start having kids in a couple of years, but before that happens, I need to be healthy and fit. If I'm carrying all of this extra weight now, what will happen to me during/after a pregnancy? Also, I'm a vegetarian that doesn't watch her nutrients. I want to make sure my body is getting every thing it needs so that I can have healthy children.

Anyway, I'm not in this just for the weight loss. I'm in this for the lifestyle change. I'm hoping this will be the difference in whether or not I can stick to a healthy diet and exercise routine. I started this adventure about a month ago, and from the time I started to now, I gained weight... That is, until this morning. I lost 1.8 lbs! That doesn't seem like a lot, but it is to me because my hardwork is finally starting to kick in. That was what made me feel ready to start this diary.

I don't know how good I'll be about posting what I eat, but I am calorie counting and exercising regularly. I hope to post a little bit about that but it'll probably be more about my mental journey. I'm looking forward to making new friends and motivators. I just hope that I might inspire someone the way you've all inspired me in the last 3 days.

Cheers!
Misty
 
Hi!! Glad to see you started a diary! I'm here for you !!
 
Day 2

Ok, here are my stats at the beginning of all of this.

Height: 5'4"
Starting Weight: 184.6 lbs
Current Weight: 182.8 lbs
Goal Weight: 145 lbs

I have been weighing myself every other day, but I'm going to try to limit myself to a weigh-in once a week so I don't drive myself crazy. I'm on a 1200 calorie vegetarian diet, but it's not really a change from what I have always eaten. Therefore, I think most of my weight loss will result from exercise. I'm hoping to lose 2 lbs a week, but my more realistic goal is to lose 20 pounds by June 10th. (That's when wedding season starts for me.) I don't feel like it's possible, but I'm trying to stay positive and motivated. If this is unrealistic, please tell me because I'm discouraged easy.

I was at the gym this morning and for the first time, noticed that I was getting stronger in some of my weight exercises. That's encouraging. If it wasn't for my husband though, I wouldn't have half of the motivation I have now. He calls my BS when I'm being lazy and claiming I'm too tired or something like that. I wanted to sleep in this morning in the worst way, but he made me get up. I'm glad for that because my workout was really good.

We started talking and we want to train for a 5K race on Memorial Day. It's an annual race in the town he grew up in. He used to participate in it when he was younger and some of his siblings still do. The course is uphill about 2/3 of the way and downhill the rest. I've never been good at running so this is going to be a challange. It feels good to have a fitness goal. I've always set my goal at "get into shape". But what does that mean?? I don't have any idea how to go about training for this. Since we don't live in the town of the race, we can't practice on the course and our town is not pedestrian friendly so it's hard to run outside. We're stuck with running on a track and on treadmills. If anyone has any suggestions for me, I'd love to hear them. I'm going to need all the help I can get!

Thanks for reading!
 
March 27:

Well, my weekend was a complete waste. My husband had alot of school work to get done, so that left me really bored. Instead of doing something constructive with my free time, I chose to do nothing. I'm disappointed in myself. I read a book, cleaned and did the laundry, but that's not such a huge feat considering my apartment is tiny. There are only two of us so we don't generate too much mess, and I clean and do laundry once a week so it's never a hard job. I wish I wouldn't have been so lazy. At least I didn't mess up my diet. I got back on track this morning though. I went to the gym and ran on the treadmill. I didn't do as well as I usually do. I tired out so much faster today than I usually do. I'm suprised that missing two days of exercise could have such an adverse effect on me. I did, however, push myself really hard. That's something I never used to have the will power to do. I'm learning to enjoy indoor exercise more now. I think I used to hate sweating in front of people, but I'm accepting the fact that nobody cares. Also, I always hate being the overweight girl at the gym. I go to the University's gym so there are usually only thin college girls or fit guys working out. But more than any of those things, I never used to be able to push myself at the gym because there was no reward in it. It's not the same as going hiking. When you hike 12 or 14 miles in a few hours, you really feel like you've accomplished something. Your whole body is exhausted but it feels great. The scenery provides instant gratification along the way. Plus, you can't just quit whenever you want because no matter what, you still have to turn around and hike back to your car. Boy, I can't wait for warmer weather!

Oh, I also lost 0.6 pounds over the weekend. That's impressive considering I was practically dormant the whole time. I will be going out to lunch today because one of my coworkers is leaving. This is the first time I'll be eating out since I started dieting a month ago. I think it'll be ok though because I never have a problem opting for a salad over everything else. I love veggies!

Sorry this was a long entry! I hope everyone enjoyed reading.
 
Hi and welcome to the forum!!! I am sure you will find tons of support and motivation here!

We have very similiar starting weights and a similiar goal weight. We can be good encouragement for one another.

Look forward to reading your journal entries! Congrats on the weight you have lost so far. Its a great start! Every pound counts! :)
 
Well, I'm happy to say that I did well at the lunch outing today. I stuck with salad and a little bit of hummus. It was so hard to pass up the deep fried falafel, but I stayed strong and I feel really good about myself for doing so! Plus, I watched the movie Super Size Me again last night. What a great motivator! It helps you make the decision to pass over the fattening foods when you see how damaging it can be to your body. Since I've started my weight loss battle, I'm so suprised where I've started to find motivation and encouragement. Even though I don't really have anything to show for my efforts yet, this has been a positive experience so far.
 
March 28:

I did some weight training today. I even moved up in weight on some of the exercises. I wrote before that I'm worried about bulking up, and I know everyone told me I won't. I just can't help but worry about it. I just wish I could see through the fat on my arms to make sure my muscles aren't getting too big. I have no problem with having definition. I want that, but I don't want to look like I'm ready to kick someone's butt either! :rolleyes: I just need to stop being paranoid. I know my exercises would probably go better if I wasn't so self conscious. (My spelling is horrific lately. Every time I type a word like that it looks so wrong.)

I think it's going to be one of those days where I'm so bored at work that all I do is think about lunch. That's never a good thing. Every time this happens I start to obsess over my diet and then make myself feel deprived. It's only at those moments when I get cravings for bad foods. Thank god I never have cash for the vending machines! I usually take walks during my break to keep me focused, but it's kind of rainy today so I don't know if I'll be able to. There's nothing like exercise to make you feel good about what you're doing.

This is completely off topic, but I'm just so excited that I have to talk about it! I bought my first digital camera online the other day and it just shipped this morning. I can't wait to get it! I want to master the camera before my summer vacation. I'm so excited about the potential of actually taking quality pictures!

I hope everyone is having a great day! :)
 
Hey there

Girlie
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Let me say this you are taking the first step and that is posting your diary. I too recieved a wake up call by looking at my wedding photos, too bad for me it came a year too late. I was at my heaviest than and let me tell you being a 200 lb bride didnt' phase me but it sure is phasing me now. I am down to 182.4lbs and am going to keep going. I am here to support you the entire way, and we will both reach our goals. Good luck girl, and keep up the good work....
 
Thank you for the encouragement Littlefoot! I'm here for you too! I'm trying to put this into perspective. I wish I was skinny on my wedding day, but that can't be changed now. They're just pictures. They aren't the marriage, so they really don't mean as much in the big picture! And besides, it's better late than never, right?? We can do this!:D
 
Ugh. We are having a rainy day here too. I guess we need the rain, but it means my kids are stuck indoors all day. I may need to take a few aspirin before the day is out. lol.

Congrats on the digital camera! I love love love mine. Mostly because I dont take such great pictures all the time, and with my digital camera I can take all the pictures I want, and I am not wasting film! And...I can see the pictures I took right away, so I know if I need to take another. Its really great. The only problem I have now is that I am a bit lazy about actually having my pictures printed out. I have tons and tons of pictures stored on my computer, but I really should get prints of them.

I am sure you will get the hang of it before your trip!

Hope the rest of your day goes well! :)
 
March 29, 2006:

Another rainy day....

This day is going to be crappy. I feel fat and disgusting. I hate fat days. I don't know what the heck my problem is today. I woke up feeling full from dinner last night. That could be part of it. I had tofu and couscous. It was alot of food and 510 calories. That's more than I usually eat for dinner, but I'm on a 1200 calorie diet and I was light on calories yesterday. I'm going to try to learn how to even out my calorie intake throughout the day. I know breakfast should be the biggest meal I have, but I really hate eating breakfast. It's just too early for food, and by the time I get done with my workout, the last thing on my mind is eating. My cup of coffee fills me up, and if I eat a big breakfast, I'm not hungry for lunch. I do eat either a little bit of oatmeal or yogurt. Sometimes, if I'm feeling ambitious, I'll throw in a piece of fruit. I try to take tips from my mom who has a personal trainer with lots of useful information. I just hate following some of it! I just need to get it together here. I'd love to hear what the other calorie counters do. I could use tips on how to get the most out of this diet!

So I'm starting to get really bored working out at the gym these days. The machines I do cardio on are facing a climbing wall, but it's 6 AM so there's no one climbing. That wall is really starting to bore me. Daylight savings is coming up this weekend. Hopefully, I'll be able to start going for short hikes in the evenings to spice things up a bit. Also, I've been thinking about buying a jump rope. It seems like fun exercise. Does anyone use that as part of their current routine? I don't really know how effective it would be, but it seems hard. Besides, boxers jump rope and they're in shape!

Ok, sorry this was really whiny! :eek: I'm just having one of those days. Hopefully I'll be out of this funk before long!
 
You arent the only one

I woke up in a not so chipper mood today too. You need to try really hard to eat breakfast, I am not a vegitarian so I don't know what to tell you to eat ,but I know it will help with energy. I usually eat something light 30 mins before my workout or if I can't than I make myself eat something after my workout. I was never a breakfast person either, but once I figured out that it would help my energy levels I have been making myself eat breakfast. Well hope you get out of your funk and good luck ....you will be fine.
 
Thanks for posting! I'm glad to see I'm not the only one having a bad day. My mood has gone from depressing to stress out. I don't know which is worse! Anyway, I think I'll be going for a walk/hike this evening. It'll be nice to get outside for a change. That always seems to cheer me up and in the process I'll be getting exercise which always makes me feel better!

On a side note, I bought the new Snack Bites by Kellogs. They come in little pouches and are 90 calories a pouch. I figured it would be a nice mid-afternoon snack. They are really tasty! They are pretty sweet, but I think it will make a nice alternative when I'm having a sugar craving. Just thought I'd share in case anyone's interested in snack ideas.
 
I Hope Your Day Gets Better You Can Do This I Know You Can!!
 
Nope misty, i've had a bad week! lol But we have to get back at it! We owe it to ourselves :D

I'll check on you later, hope tommorrows a good day :D

There is power w/ postive thinking!
 
Hi Misty! Sorry to hear you have had a couple of bad days. Believe me. I can relate! Lets keep our hopes up that tomorrow we feel great (and skinny! lol ).

Good idea buying the snack packs for those afternoon cravings. I have been buying the 100 calories packs, the Oreo ones, and I really like them. I get a terrible craving to eat right around 3 pm when the kids come home from school. They are all having snacks, and darn it, I want one too. The calorie packs are great for me, because they are sweet ( I seriously need sweet) and I dont feel like I am indulging in too many calories.

Hope the gym work outs get less boring. Don't know what to suggest for that. I do know that when I get bored on my treadmill, every minute ticks by like an eternity. I started watching tv, and that really helps. If I can just keep my mind off my exercise, then i am ok.

Hope you have a great day tomorrow. Keep up the great work! :)
 
March 30:

It's warm and sunny! :D

Thanks for the encouragement, everyone! I'm officially out of my funk today. I had a good workout this morning. I pushed myself really hard, but it's worth it. And today, there was someone using the climbing wall, so I got to watch him play around while I was running. Saturday I'm going for a long hike (I love hiking!) and I get to use my new camera!

I stepped on the scale at the gym this morning and I am now under 180 by 0.2 lbs! It's not alot but I'LL TAKE IT!!! :D My goal of 2 pounds a week or 20 pounds by June 10th is actually working out so far. I hope I can keep up the pace. I really want to be able to buy a cute dress for that wedding. I also hope my hair grows out more, but that's another story all together.

I'm finally getting to the point with my diet (sorry, lifestyle change) where I no longer feel deprived and my appetite has gotten smaller. I usually always have a snack at night, but I have been able to skip it this past week because I knew I wasn't hungry and didn't need it. This is good news. I can't remember the last time I ate when I was hungry and stopped when I was full. I feel like I'm starting to take control again. This is how I felt when I was my thinnest (size 10, but it was a perfect size for my body). Coincidentally, I was happiest at this time too. Now that I'm losing weight again, I'm happier. I'm happier and I'm not over-eating. I'm pretty sure there's a correlation here! :)

My husband and I are going to his mother's house for the weekend. This is always a challenge to my diet. First of all, she's so tiny and can eat whatever she wants! She still has 13, 17, 20, and 22 year olds (mostly boys) living in the house, which means she has lots of junk food for lunches and whatnot. That's not always a big problem for me, but she definately doesn't cook as healthy as I do! Since she already feels like she has to accomidate my vegetarianism, I don't want her to go the extra mile to cook low cal foods too. I guess it'll be a portion control weekend to the max! I know I won't be leaving until tomorrow, but I'm trying to get myself mentally prepared!

Ok, I hope everyone is having a great day! (I think I over-punctuated this entry.)
 
Good job

:p Good job dear. I am really proud of you. I wish I could get the scale to move past 182lbs but right now it is stuck but I know it takes time, and as long as I keep doing what I am doing I should be fine. Good luck this weekend, you will do great.....:p
 
It took a month of busting my butt before I saw a change on the scale. My weight loss has only occurred in the last 2 weeks. I've decided to take measurements of my body to track progress that way also. The number on the scale doesn't mean much to me. I just want there to be less of me!

I had some good news at work today. Sometime during April, I'll be going out on a drilling project. I love field work! The days go so much faster and I don't feel like a waste of space because I've sat and stared at a computer screen all day!
 
March 31:

I'm not looking forward to this weekend. It's going to be so hard! I'm just praying the weather holds up so I can go hiking on Saturday. I'll need to counteract my caloric intake somehow! My husband is playing in a hockey game that morning, so I might be flying solo on my hike. That's ok, though. Maybe it'll lead to some spiritual cleansing.

I hope everyone has a good weekend!
 
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