Lily's Diary

Hmmmm, I screwed up. I was doing so well. I knew this would happen sooner or later. I had a total binge. I'm so so sooo mad at myself right now. Although being mad at myself will not change anything. I guess the most positive thing to do is reflect. Alright, I was totally craving junk, so I had a brownie. Then I felt bad cause I ate a brownie so I ate another one and adding frosting to it...because that is always smart:confused: And then I felt bad about that a little later so a had a huge sandwich...and basically it just kept snowballing from there. So....do i feel good now? NO! I feel upset that I completely ruined all the hard work I have been doing the past two weeks, I'm mad because I need to help my sisters out taking OFF the pounds, not putting them on, and now my stomach hurts...big surprise. Now what I need to take from this first off....it's over and done with. Tomorrow is another day. I need to stop feeling bad cause I'll just do this all over again tomorrow. So, no more worries about today. I should just remember how unsatisfying it feels after eating so much junk.

I always seem to do this though. I need to get past this point of keeping good eating habits for only a week or two. I want to lose weight and be healthy sooo bad, yet I always seem to lose sight of that some how.
 
it's over and done with. Tomorrow is another day.
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There are always steps back. just try not to do too many in a row. It happens. I dont think you will gain 20 pounds in one night. just try and remember what triggered it and dont do that. for me it was the sugar, now I just dont use it. as for hurting your sisters. most of them have been there once or twice. just relax and move forward. Now if you really feel you must be punished hmmm. ok go to you living room and walk from wall to wall 100 times.......

like someone said hey wait it was you.....Tomorrow is another day......
 
Lee's right, we've all been there...many times!!! But one binge is not going to undo all the progress you've made. It would only be totally detrimental if you did it again today, and then again tomorrow, and so on and so on. So pick yourself up, brush yourself off and have a good day!!! You're doing great!
 
The Saucy Sisterhood will survive your one day binge -- :D Dont be mad at yourself...

Hang in there... today will be a better day
 
I suddenly started thinking of that song "I will survive" after reading Mal's post! ;) But she is right, the sisterhood will survive cause we are saucy and nothing can get us down! :D

Like our other smart saucy sister said, we've all been there. Just remember how bad your stomach hurts afterward and don't let it happen again! Lol! ;)
 
Hey everyone! Sorry I haven't been around, my net was not working...so frustrating. But, I'm back now, YEAH! I'll be back tonight to post how the day went. I think I might started listing out my exercises and pretty much planning out my whole day, similar to Miss Kallie. I think the structure will help me not to slack off.
 
You net was not working.......SACRE BLEU WOMAN!!!! That's like not having a working toilet!!!!

Look forward to hearing how your day went.
 
Being without the internet wasn't so bad..since it's not school time. But once the end of August comes, if I don't have it for even an our or to, I flip out!!! Anyway, just got back from work. My bf got off from work early today, yeah. We are going to go for a bike ride together along the Delaware :). I'm hoping the rain holds out at least until tonight. I'm going to try to do a lot of extra activities this weekend so I will lose some pounds for the final weigh in on Monday. I'm not going to be home for the weekend again, but I'll be back some point Monday to check in. :)
 
hope your bike ride and weekend are wonderful. And look forward to checking in with you on Monday. Monday, the day we WIN THE CHALLENGE!!!!!!!
 
Hey lily blossom, just wanted to stop by your diary and say WAY TO GO on the weight loss challenge!!!! You did wonderful!!! I was proud to be on the same team as you!!!!

Keep up the great work!!!!
 
Well, after the challenge I went a little crazy. I ate a lot at a party yesterday. I got on the scale this morning and YIKES it said 166????? Is it possible to gain 5.5 pounds in one day!?!? I dunno, maybe I gained like 2 pounds and TOM is adding 3 more or something....he's on the way..Joy of all joys. Oh well, whatever my weight is, I'm setting myself back on healthy food today. This morning I woke up early and made a list of things to do for the day. I went to an 8am yoga class. Although it was hard getting up at 6:30am I'm going to try to do it everyday. I think that is the only way I'll stick to a plan. Doing some type of exercise early makes it easier for me to stick to my diet the rest of the day. It also forces me to go to bed early...I'm going to shot for 9pm. That way I won't have any late night fridge attacks. This afternoon I'm going to go for a hike.

Breakfast
bran muffin
1/2 blue berry yogurt
1 tablespoon almonds

lunch
large salad
chicken
light Italian dressing ......


I'll be gone again tonight. I should be home Wednesday night to find out about the teams. I'm going to try EXTRA EXTRA hard with this next challenge because school is starting in a month for me and I would really like to head back 10lbs lighter!!!
 
Alright, so I weight myself again today and now I'm 163. Maybe I should only weigh myself once a week. I don't think that will happen though. Who knows, maybe tomorrow I'll be back at 160.5??? That would be nice. My bf just got a grill. I'm excited to learn how to grill foods on it. Does anyone have any good recipes for grilled veggies??? Or grilled anything for that matter. I LOVE grilled foods!!!
 
Hey Lily,

Great job in the challange.

I try not to pay too much attention to the scale except for on fridays. The same thing happened to me. One week I weighed and I was 314.5 then two days later I was 315.5 and then I had to get a new scale and it said 318 and then at the end of the challange it said 321. It is also getting to be TOM but it's soooo weird how much your body weight fluncuates(sp??). Don't worry too much about that.
 
Alright, so after spending this afternoon browsing journals I was inspired by Miss Kallie. She lists out what she will accomplish each day and makes up daily goals. I think this is GREAT, so I am going to give it a try.

......Well after not sleeping at all last night, when the alarm went off at 7am I figured it was just silly to get up because I wouldn't last through all my working out today. So, I'm up now and I need to edit my plan of action for the day.

10:00 wake-up
10:30 breakfast
11:00 go for a walk by the Delaware
1:00 Home (snack)/relax, read some journals, email, watch a tv show.....something relaxing
1:30 Cook Chicken
2:30 Lunch
3:30 Study for the art praxis
4:30 Have a dance party
5:30 Dinner
6:00 leave for the gym
6:30 Body Flow
7:30 walk the track
8:30 home/light snack
11:00 bed


Goal Time
1. Drink water with every meal
2. Actually wake up at 7am and get my butt to the gym (Opps that didn't happen)
3. No cake that is sitting in my fridge
4. Do not get on the scale
5. Remember that I can do anything as long as I try hard enough


On another subject....LONG LIVE THE SAUCY SISTERHOOD!! What are the odds of us all being picked at random?? Are you sure about that Mal? If it really happened that way, I would have loved to see those names being drawn out one after another...it must have been so funny.
 
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Lily16...still looking for a buddy? E-mail me, PM me, or MSN messenger any time...even if you already have a buddy, extra supports are always great. :)
 
well my edited schedule is a little off now, cause I walked a lot longer than I thought I would. I ended up walking for an hour and 45 minutes...WOW! I burned 929 calories....Woo-hooo! I must say, it is so pretty walking on the path along the Delaware River. I saw so many different kinds of butterflies. The scenery was so pretty, it has inspired me to start drawing again. I used to draw all the time until college. Since then I just kind of forgot it was a talent I have. So at some point this week or next I'm going to head out with my sketch pad and a pencil :)

This morning I had some Cheerios for breakfast. I thought about Scarlett and how she talked about the importance of not rushing through a meal. So after every spoonful, chewing very slowly, I put my spoon down and when I was done chewing I took a sip of water. Well by doing this I finished a bottle of water in no time. It was actually pretty nice eating slowly.
 
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