Jaim91 and Calcium: Because girlz do it better...and harder.

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I guess I'll start things off :)

I was/am training for a bodybuilding comp. It depends whether I reach my goal of an ABSOLUTELY SHREDDED 117-125. My time limit is November 8th. I don't know whether I'm definitely going to do it or not, but I'm preparing like I'm going to do it. From the time I was 12-19 I was anorexic. Hardcore. Hospitalized twice. 5"7, 95-100 lbs. Being scrawny was all I ever knew. Once I started first year university, I knew I needed to make a change. So I embarked on a two year long bulk. I put my heart, soul and body into it. I went up to 175lbs between September 2006 and June 2008. It was a dirty bulk though folks. D-I-R-T-Y. Like, "I-haven't-showered-or-brushed-my-teeth-in-a-week" dirty.

It registered on the scale before it registered in my head. But once it registered in my head, damn. It hurt. I didn't recognize myself in the mirror. Everyone was commenting. I hated it I know this is body image dysmorphia, I understand that. But you have to appreciate that I was happy with who I was before, and both myself and the medical professionals knew that I wasn't ill. Anyway, I hated who I was on the outside. I'm a personal trainer, spinning instructor and certified "nutritionist" (Can-Fit-Pro). I would like to look the part.

Now, I'm sitting at 158 or so, with about 15-17% bodyfat. Not bad, I know; but also not where I want to be. To tell you the truth, I want to start it again. Back at 117-125, and clean, C-L-E-A-N, slow, S-L-O-W, bulk.

Input is invited and appreciated. I see how all you guys support and care for each other, and I want to be part of that
 
Good luck with the journal, should be interesting since your training for a competition.

One thing I noticed though. Why would you want to get back to 125 lbs, when your 158 and already 15-17% BF which in female terms is very athletic.

if your goal is to gain muscle, you definetly shouldn't be cutting down that much.
 
Phate89 said:
Good luck with the journal, should be interesting since your training for a competition.

One thing I noticed though. Why would you want to get back to 125 lbs, when your 158 and already 15-17% BF which in female terms is very athletic.

if your goal is to gain muscle, you definetly shouldn't be cutting down that much.
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The athletic look is great, don't get me wrong. But I'm aiming more for freaky (but feminine) bodybuilder type, which is more in the 6-8% range.

My goal (at this stage) isn't to gain muscle. I'd say I've put anywhere from 20 to 30 pounds of lean mass on since my 95lb days.

Typhon said:
Where were you at when your avatar picture was taken?

Also, as women naturally has high BF percentages, what kind of % do female bodybuilders aim to cut down to?
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I was around 145 when the avi was taken, not too long ago.

Female bodybuilders get around 6-9% (if they're good)
 
[Focus] said:
You broke my heart, kid. :bncry:
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Derwyddon said:
I say this with the kindest and best intentions possible, but you're on the unhealthy side of thin. I think you've probably changed quite a bit since then, but the pictures I have seen show someone who needs to gain weight to be healthy. This is NOT criticism or negative in anyway. I just have seen many people with eating disorders (which you admit to having had in the past, not an accusation) translate their obsession into body building.
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Right now, I'm not on the unhealthy side of thin; 5"7 - 158lbs.

I agree with you Der, and appreciate your concern. I have seen it (the translation) first hand with friends and fellow-competitors. However, I have been to the dark side, and come back. NEVER AGAIN will that happen to me. The obsession to to stay HEALTHY and LEAN. It's possible, I know it.

Thank you again for watching out for me (serious!) :)
 
I personally think you need more mass, I don't see the point of competing at low BF when you don't have much muscle to show.
 
YESTERDAY'S WORKOUT!

I'm reaaly into metabolic resistance training. Great for cardio, strength an fatloss :)

50 Prisoner Squats

50 Pushups

25 Jumps

25 Stability Ball Leg Curls

50 Stability Ball Jackknifes

50 Step-ups (25 reps per side)

25 Pull-ups (assisted)

50 Forward Lunges (25 reps per side)

50 Close-grip Pushups

50 Inverted Rows

50 Squats

25 Chin-ups (Assisted)

Saweeeeeeeeeeet!


Derwyddon said:
I will admit, I was looking at your bb.com profile when I made these thoughts, and you said you have gained quite a bit of weight since then. Any recent photos to share? (if you so wish, i mean)

And thanks for being able to hear my words and understand my kind intentions.
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I was about 100-110 in those pics. So i've put on 50-60 lbs since then

I appreciate you following along this journal :)

[Focus] said:
Oh, I don't care about your health. I'm just worried about meeting my eye candy quota. ;)
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Tell you what, stick with me for the next little while, and if you don't like teh changes you see...well...umm...you can leave?

Phate89 said:
I personally think you need more mass, I don't see the point of competing at low BF when you don't have much muscle to show.
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I will have an extra 20-30 lbs of LEAN MUSCLE from the last time I competed.

But I hear what you're saying in terms of making improvements.
 

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Typhon said:
Cool, looking much stronger
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BigTomW said:
Yea MUCH more mass there. Looking more like a BB ;)
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Thanks guys.

It's definitely a mental struggle for me everyday. I know it wasn't healthy, but it's just hard to accept that I'm not waking up at 4% bodyfat everyday anymore. There's still some body dysmorphia there which I'm working through, and I have a boyfriend and mom who care for me unconditionally - so that makes things easier too.

But it was just as hard for me emotionally to take two years off from competing as it was to take the two years off to bulk. I am YEARNING to get back on the stage, and I want to come back better than ever this time! :)
 
thanks for the new pics there, that puts alot of us, weight watching, at ease with you and your health.

"assisted pullups"

great workout!

Sweat Daily
FF
 
jaim91 said:
YESTERDAY'S WORKOUT!

Tell you what, stick with me for the next little while, and if you don't like teh changes you see...well...umm...you can leave?
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Or...um....you can just leave NOW Focus.

The first day on our journal and I'm already pissed.


Here is a recap of my goals:

Name: Nicole
Age: 22
Sex: F
Height: 5’6’’
Weight: 152
Bodyfat %: Do not know but it’s too high!

Current Program: I workout with weights 3x a week. No cardio right now other than riding my horse.

Drafter, Draftee, Doesn’t Matter – DM

Partner sex preference – I don’t care.

Short term goal: (within 3 months) – I steadily gained weight for the past year but in the last 2 months I gained over 10 pounds through complete lack of care in what I ate. My pants don’t fit well anymore and I’m not spending money for another pair! I’m going to eat better and STEADILY (not drastically) lose body fat. Within 3 months I want my hiking pants to fit comfortably again. So that’s my goal.

Long term goal: (within 6 months) – I want to be fit and leaner. I know that’s vague but I’m thinking weighing around 135 again will be good. I also want to improve my cardio. I don’t have any numbers for this plan since I’ve never really kept track but I’m going to start biking to help me (not into running). By the time it’s winter I want to continue with my snowboarding and have better stamina going down the slopes. I also need to improve my flexibility. My right hip has serious mobility issues and I need to balance out my body.
Why are you looking to join? – I think it’s to provide and be provided with motivation but I am still confused on the definition of the whole drafter/draftee thing.

What can you contribute? – I know a thing or two about nutrition and won’t give up or give whiny excuses for failure.

What do you hope to receive? – I hope to receive someone who is trying as hard as me to reach their goals. It really does help me to know that someone is busting their ass and going through the same crap as me.
 
I also want to add that I am into backpacking and in the next few months I will be taking backpacking trips here and there. I want the ability to walk forever with a pack on my back while tackling mountains, raging rivers and slippery slopes :D

Jaime I will respond to your email today!
 
CALCIUM!!!! that question answer section is fantastic!! very nicely said.

i also like the add on "walk forever with a pack" - that is the sorta thing i like, an want too. The ability to do stuff.
 
Here are some articles I wrote that were JUST posted on bodybuilding.com :)

Bodybuilding.com - Jaime Filer - 2008 NPC USA Super-Heavyweight Todd Jewell Speaks About Upcoming Competition!

Bodybuilding.com - Jaime Filer - 10 Healthy Recipes To Spice Up Your Diet & Get More Protein!

Lemme know what you guys think!

And of course...what you've all been waiting for (not)...my first REAL workout in this journal! :D

Day 1 - Week 6
Chest and Back - Boobies and Barn door

* I don't know HOW, but today's workout lasted 2.5 hours including the 30 min pre-workout cardio (mini Spin class). I had a training partner which was awesome. I guess it was the talking between supersets. Oh well...SUPER FUN! And we did the get job done. Good thing I had Xtend!!

Deadlifts
  • 135 x 10
  • 135 x 8
  • 135 x 6

Superset: (Assisted) Pull-ups behind the neck + Bench press WITH ELBOWS TUCKED IN!!!!
  • 15 + 95 x 15
  • 12 + 95 x 12
  • 12 + 95 x 8
  • 12 + 95 x 6

Superset: (Assisted) Chin-ups + Incline Bench press
  • 15 + 100 x 15
  • 12 + 95 x 12 <-- Decreased weight to focus on form.
  • 11 + 95 x 8
  • 10 + 95 x 6

Superset: Pec Deck + Wide-grip machine row
  • 87 x 15 + 60 x 12
  • 100 x 15 + 70 x 12
  • 112 x 15 + 70 x 12
  • 100 x 15 + 70 x 12 --> 50 x 12

Tri-set: Dumbell pullovers (w/ drop set) + (assisted) Dips + Cable flys
  • 30 x 15 + 12 + 30 x 15
  • 30 x 15 + 12 + 40 x 15
  • 30 x 15 + 12 + 30 x 15
  • 30 x 15 --> 25 x 10 + 12 + 30 x 15

Tri-set: Seated cable rows (w/ drop set) + 1-arm cable rows + cable pullovers
  • 80 x 15 + 30 x 12 + 45 x 15
  • 70 x 15 + 40 x 12 + 45 x 15
  • 80 x 15 + 50 x 12 + 55 x 15 <-- PRs for 1-arm cable row weight + cable pullovers!!
  • 70 x 15 --> 50 x 10 + 50 x 12 + 55 x 15

PRE workout cardio: 30 min bike


Derwyddon said:
I will talk to you in PMs off these girls' personal journal.
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Thanks for watching our back babe!

[Focus] said:
I thought it was pretty clear that everything "negative" I say is a joke. But fair enough, it's your house.

Best wishes to both of you.
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No, Focus, I knew it was a joke. And I appreciate your presence. I promise I will let you know when you've crossed the line. Please stick around!

stingo said:
*subscribed*, because girlz also do it hotter too. Good luck. :)
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Thanks hun! Should be a fun journey for both calcium and I.
 
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