Jaclyn's diary

dOING GREAT GIRL HAVE A GREAT DAY!
 
Hey girl - I hear ya about not eing super strict .. it's so hard to get back in that frame of mind! But we can do it!!! =)
And the semester is almost done!!!! FINALLY!!!!! Ooooohhh it will be SO nice for a break =)
Oh I feel ya on the UTI ... not fun at all. I've had one before and now that I think about it I was using condoms at the time also ... I bet it is from that. Soo anoiying though! But keep on drinkin ...
Later =)
 
its almost there just keep up the good work and the semester will be over before ya know it!
 
Ohh, thank you all for your support. I hate myself for my absenses. I did quite well with eating today and it was a busy day-work then I got tutored for that damn math test I can't fail. And I better pass this time, because it's $25 an hour and I'll be meeting with her at least five times, two hours each time. Ouch.

My weekend was insane. Dan and I went to Gainesville for his work's Christmas party. Now, a few days before the party, my very close friend, Eric, who lives in Fort Lauderdale where I'm from was having a fight with his ex girlfriend was asking me for advice. In the midst of the conversation he let it spill that apparently he's been in love with me for years and wants us to be together. Okay, big surprise, except--I've always felt the same way and thought he didn't. So now I have a dilemma. All of a sudden I wanted to take a break from Dan, just to clear my head, but that was impossible because we were spending the whole weekend together for his parties. So we went to Gainesville on Friday and to top off my weird relationship feelings I was also physically ill (I went to a urologist about the UTIs and it turns out I have an e coli infection in my bladder. How gross is that? So I'm on antibiotics that make me dizzy and give me stomachaches, not to mention we can't have sex while I'm on the meds.) So, not feeling good+confused=weirdness. I tried so hard to be normal and have a good time, but I just needed a little space. Dan is a sweet guy and thought that my strange behavior meant that I needed MORE attention from him, which was the last thing I wanted. Long story short, I was very distant all weekend, he was very upset about it, we had some words, he ends up telling me he's falling in love with me, I don't feel the same way, I feel really guilty (never told him about Eric) and right now we've kind of decided to be together but to take a few days apart to evaluate our feelings.

I don't want to lose Dan. I've really enjoyed the last two months with him. He has become important to me and I'm comfortable with him (for the most part, this weekend excluded.) He's been nothing but good to me.

I just feel so confused and weird.

I went through a huge change this year, physically and mentally with the weight loss. It's very strange for me to suddenly have the attention of men. I know that Eric loved me before I lost all the weight. I know Dan just thinks he loves me, but is being overly dramatic and is also confused about his feelings, but he doesn't know the before me, which is an important part of who I am. Eric and I could never have a relationship now. We have distance against us, among other things, like his recent bad breakup, school, ect. Who knows what will happen eventually. Right now though, I'm with Dan, and I like Dan, but I feel so strangely about him after this Eric thing. I don't know why. And then some of the things he said to me this weekend rubbed me the wrong way. He tries to talk as if we have a future together, when I think "hey, it's only been two freakin months! back off, pal!" he's thinking "what if we move in together?" Is he insane? Am I insane for not thinking that's sweet. Because I don't. I think it's weird.

The good news is that he got a haircut. Haha.

I also looked good in my dress.

Anyway, final tomorrow, final Wednesday and I'm done.

Food Today:

Breakfast:
Hard Boiled Egg (70)
1/2 Grapefruit with sprinkle of sugar (50)
Cranberry Juice (50)

Snack:
Light Fat Free Strawberry Banana Yogurt (100)

Snack:
Fat Free Pudding (120)

Lunch:
1 slice mushroom and onion pizza (I know, I know. It's a wonderful and horrible thing 150)
Salad (100)

Dinner:
Cup of Tomato and Pepper Soup (250)
Veggie Sandwich with cucumbers, tomatoes, gargonzola, lettuce, and red onion (200)

Desert:
Breyers Light Ice Cream Bar (170)

Thanks for letting me bitch. You guys rule.
 
Loved to hear you looked great in your dress:D
About the guy problems....I am sooo happy to not have to go through that again.....my advice is....take a breather. Tell Dan you feel things are moving way to fast....that you really like him..but ya need to take it slow ( or a break from each other)....as for Eric...remember he told you this in the midst of a fight with his girlfriend....( or were they breaking up)....Even if its true about him always have been in love with you....he was with someone else and wasnt being completely honest with her.....plus it could be a comfortable "rebound" admition.....Just be careful hun....Your a smart girl I know you will know what to do:)
 
WHOA GIRL! You got alot on your plate!
Going from dying to get a man to having one too many to deal with! LOL
Well, hopefully it will all work out. I am a strong believer of COMMUNICATION!
You gotta tell him your feelings.... Everything Kimbo said is 100% right...
Take it easy babe.... you'll get it....
 
hEY GIRL YOU SHOULD FEEL GREAT IN A WAY YOU HAVE TWO MEN OBVIOUSLY CRAZY ABOUT YOU! DON"T LET IT STRESS YOU THOUGH JUST HAVE FUN AND TAKE IT DAY BY DAY! SORRY ABOUT YOUR INFECTION BUT GLAD YOUR GETTING BETTER! HOPE IT ALL WORKS OUT WITH THE GUYS!
 
hey sweet thang... ugh about the boy problem - but i'm glad that in the midst of everything you are still taking care of yourself!!!

how old is he? i have alot of guy friends who are in the 25-30 year old range... and for some reason they get to this point where they are ready for relationship to progress fast! My friend says that they have the "marriage light" on... some guys - it takes them forever to get to that point... others - suddenly they find someone, they are ready, and so - why not?

i'm not saying that he's thinking about marriage, but that it is totally possible that you are both in really different places and he might be ready to move faster than you are... just talk about it and work through it =)

GOOD LUCK!!!!
 
Sounds like your a busy girl!

Just make sure you get enough rest and eat right, thats important!

Everything will work out! ((hugs))
 
You guys are so great. I'm definitely not going to jump into anything. I told Dan to slow it down, and he's been very good about it. I also realize Eric was in a vulnerable state, and I'm not giving what he said any more thought, because no matter what, he and I can't start something right now and I really like Dan and don't want to jeopardize that. Thanks for all of your advice!

Last night I made the mistake of eating Mexican food and I regretted it today. Today was my last final!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOO! I feel so relieved. Food today:

Breakfast:
Honeycomb in skim (150)
Cranberry Juice (50)

Snack:
Apple (70)

Lunch:
Lean Cuisine Mac and Cheese (300)
Fat Free Tapioca Pudding (100)

Dinner:
Veggie Riblet (80)
Cranbery Sauce (100)
Asian Veggies (150)

Snack:
Rice Krispie Treat (100)

Dessert:
Breyers Light Ice Cream Bar (170)
 
Ugh, so yesterday at work there was a chocolate fountain company there giving out free treats for the holidays. And I so had some. And it was so so good. Man, oh, man. I did pretty good otherwise though-

Breakfast:
Egg Beaters (60)
2 Slices Veggie Bacon (60)
Juice (50)

Snack:
Chocolate!

Lunch:
1 Slice Mushroom and Onion Pizza (250)
Salad with Balsamic (150)

Dinner:
Veggie Salami with a slice of White American on Wheat (300)
 
Oh the chocolate...

:)

Worked all day, then studied for my math test with my tutor. Sigh.

Breakfast:
Apple Jacks in skim (150)

Snack:
Light Fat Free Yogurt (100)

Lunch:
Slice of Veggie Pizza (250)
Salad with Balsamic (150)
Garlic Knots (200)

Dinner:
Bowl of Broccoli Cheddar Soup (500)

Snack:
Sugar Cookie (200)

Dessert:
Breyers Light Rocky Road Bar (180)
 
mmmmm soup,,,, lol
 
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