deliah_plain
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Hi everyone I am a very emotional eater and addicted to sweets, my big passion = ice creams, do not like sweet beverages though 
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I am a 1.63 m, 29 years old female and 78,1 kg. This is the largest I have ever been. I was always struggling with my weight even in primary school. No I was not dieting back them, I was just in the plus normal range of the BMI chart and very unhappy and self-conscious about my weight and shape (probably because I was looking up to my younger sister who was a swimming athlete and very thin).
I started dieting around 17 years old and yoyo diet ever since. From my 18 to 22 I have managed to maintain a healthy weight of 54kg, I was happy and very active at that time. During that time I enrolled in caving and scuba diving groups. After 22 I started gaining weight again, I felt a bit bored and dissatisfied with my life. I have shifted my focus away from my studies during the previous years and I felt it was time for me to finish my uni, which I did by the end of 2011 where once more I have climbed to 62kg (which was once again in the plus normal range of the BMI chart). At 2012 I left my home country for Sweden to study a masters program. During my first three months in Sweden I managed to drop back to 53kg which I kept of for the rest six months I stayed at the country. I was living alone for the first time with my longtime boyfriend. I felt in control during my stay in Sweden. I was responsible for cooking and shopping (when I was living with my parents my mother did all the above). I had the control of what comes in my drawers and in my stomach. I lost those pounds without trying hard and without even realizing it. I have decided to walk everyday from my house to the uni (quite expensive bus tickets and did not want to spend a lot of my parents money - they were the ones paying for my stay in Sweden after all) which was a total of 3 hours walk a day (the snow was never a problem) and eat healthy but still enjoyed an ice-cream or two during the week. When I came back to my home country I started working in the family business (I still am) and started living with my boyfriend and sister in my parents home, who have moved out into their newly build house 25 minutes away from us. I lost control, I got depressed and still have great time of dissatisfaction with some glimpses of joy.
From March 2013 up until know I have gained a total of 25kg and I am the biggest I have ever been. I have tried unsuccessfully to loose weight ever since. When I reached 62kg I vowed to stop eating, the same happened when I got to 72kg now I am 78,1kg. I decided to write my story to the forum today because after a week and a half of successful diet, today I binged on a chocolate pudding that my mother brought over (four full tablespoons). I wanted to cry for eating but still wanted to eat the whole bowl. So instead of eating the bowl I decided to write to the forum.
I wrote to the club because I always turn to food when I am feeling bored, lonely, emotional, unhappy. And when I start I cannot stop until I am actually exploding & feeling sick afterwards. I did not post that in the newcomers because I am an inactive member of the forum since 2010 I think.
.I am a 1.63 m, 29 years old female and 78,1 kg. This is the largest I have ever been. I was always struggling with my weight even in primary school. No I was not dieting back them, I was just in the plus normal range of the BMI chart and very unhappy and self-conscious about my weight and shape (probably because I was looking up to my younger sister who was a swimming athlete and very thin).
I started dieting around 17 years old and yoyo diet ever since. From my 18 to 22 I have managed to maintain a healthy weight of 54kg, I was happy and very active at that time. During that time I enrolled in caving and scuba diving groups. After 22 I started gaining weight again, I felt a bit bored and dissatisfied with my life. I have shifted my focus away from my studies during the previous years and I felt it was time for me to finish my uni, which I did by the end of 2011 where once more I have climbed to 62kg (which was once again in the plus normal range of the BMI chart). At 2012 I left my home country for Sweden to study a masters program. During my first three months in Sweden I managed to drop back to 53kg which I kept of for the rest six months I stayed at the country. I was living alone for the first time with my longtime boyfriend. I felt in control during my stay in Sweden. I was responsible for cooking and shopping (when I was living with my parents my mother did all the above). I had the control of what comes in my drawers and in my stomach. I lost those pounds without trying hard and without even realizing it. I have decided to walk everyday from my house to the uni (quite expensive bus tickets and did not want to spend a lot of my parents money - they were the ones paying for my stay in Sweden after all) which was a total of 3 hours walk a day (the snow was never a problem
) and eat healthy but still enjoyed an ice-cream or two during the week. When I came back to my home country I started working in the family business (I still am) and started living with my boyfriend and sister in my parents home, who have moved out into their newly build house 25 minutes away from us. I lost control, I got depressed and still have great time of dissatisfaction with some glimpses of joy.From March 2013 up until know I have gained a total of 25kg and I am the biggest I have ever been. I have tried unsuccessfully to loose weight ever since. When I reached 62kg I vowed to stop eating, the same happened when I got to 72kg now I am 78,1kg. I decided to write my story to the forum today because after a week and a half of successful diet, today I binged on a chocolate pudding that my mother brought over (four full tablespoons). I wanted to cry for eating but still wanted to eat the whole bowl. So instead of eating the bowl I decided to write to the forum.
I wrote to the club because I always turn to food when I am feeling bored, lonely, emotional, unhappy. And when I start I cannot stop until I am actually exploding & feeling sick afterwards. I did not post that in the newcomers because I am an inactive member of the forum since 2010 I think.
