Hi Girls!
Thank you for the very warm and much appreciated welcome. I am no stronger than any of you, trust me. We must decide what we want first and then go for our goals, no matter what they may be-emotional, physically, spiritual etc. And we are all whole and complete, perfect the way God made us.
On that note, I am so very happy I am not alone in my struggle. I have been watching my diet, getting out of the house and doing things with my friends to keep my mind off food. I even leave all of my money at home so I don't buy any candy or silly snacks when I am out. I also met 2 guys, one on thursday and one on friday. They both asked me out so I'm going to have a busy schedule next week
I found this really awesome picture I want to show you girls but I don't know how to post them. If you do, please msg me and tell me how (lol).
OH and, I just smoked a j, it's 3am, here you go:
RE: ME mememem ME!
1. What is your current height and weight? 5'8 and let's say 178lbs.
2. If you were at an ideal weight now, what would that weight be? 135lbs and a bit toned.
3. At what weight would you like to be at four months from now? Realistically if I put my heart and soul into this I can reach my goal weight by then.
4. Why do you want to lose weight? I honestly think that I won't be able to be happy until I like myself, and to get there I need to have a body that I'm comfortable with. I know that I have to learn to love myself (have to work on my self-esteem) cos otherwise no matter what the scale says, it'll never be enough... but I’m working on it.
5. Do you want to lose weight for a specific life event such as wedding or reunion? Yes, my mother's best friend is getting married in January and I need to look hot in a dress for my date.
6. What obstacles could get between you and your weight loss goals? Nutella, ice cream, olive bread, sushi, cereal, candy, reality tv shows, birthday cakes, buffets, binge drinking (but not really), miss vicky's salt and vinegar chips, watching the food network and helping my brother cook = diet failure.
7. Why do you think that you now have a weight problem? Because I use food to avoid dealing with my emotions, and that's not what it's for.
8. What lifestyle changes do you think would help you lose weight? I need to let go of sugars and stop staying up late at night.
9. Have you lost weight in the past? If so, what has worked in the past to help you lose weight? I have been up and down twice before, I lose the most amount of weight by cutting out sugar and working out regularly in the morning.
10. Why do you believe that you did not lose weight or you gained the weight back? A big breakup, surgery and then a back problem. Plus smoking weed and pigging out at night before I go to bed.
11. What, if anything, has not worked for you in the past in helping you to lose weight? Why do you think it did not work? All of my diets have worked, I have sabotaged myself, I take complete blame.
12. Would you try writing down all food and drink consumed for a given period of time? No way, I do better if I don't pay attention to what I am eating and I just stick by what I feel is best.
13. Do you cook at home often? If so, what do you cook?I cook 99% of my meals, all vegetarian and I am pretty creative with what I make, I am always told I should be a chef.
14. How often do you go out to eat? Where do you go? Maybe once every 2 weeks, I don't go very often but I always order salads.
15. What are your three favorite foods? OMgomgoggmgomg.. oh man. nonna-made gnocci, nutella crepes,olive bread.
16. What are your three favorite restaurants? Fusion Sushi in Manhatten Beach, ca. The 9 at the Palms in Vegas, Rosas Mexcian Food
17. What are three things you can do differently when it comes to food?
1. Stop obsessing over how awesome food can taste
2. Stop giving into my chocolate fixation
3. Eat only during the day
18. If you woke up tomorrow and your body was exactly the way you want it, what would be different? Everything! My whole body must transform!
19. Do you eat when you are not hungry? If I am home, sure.
20. Do you binge eat (large amounts at a time)? Until I'm in pain, and I have a high pain threshold.
21. Do you hide your food or eat in secret? Yes but I leave all of my plates haha
22. Do you eat when you are sad, nervous, or depressed? Yes, no and yes.
23. Do you eat as a reward? YES!!!
24. Do you eat while watching TV or using the computer? Tv yes, computer no.
25. What do you normally eat for a meal? Vegetables, whatever I can throw together that will taste good. I also eat a lot of fruit, cottage cheese and salmon.
26. What type of snacks do you eat? I don't snack, I either eat a full meal or I don't.
27. In terms of exercise, what, if anything, are you currently doing? Haven't been to the gym in a whole month, due to a sciatic nerve problem but usually I go 3-4 times per week (hoping to up to to 5 when I get back) and I do 45 mins of cardio and strength training twice a week.
28. Where do you go for exercise? Fitness club, expensive one too.
29. What, if anything, are your three favorite types of exercise? Kickboxing, jogging and skipping.
30. What is your daily/weekly/monthly/yearly motivation to move towards your goals? I got picked up by an ex model- now millionaire last night and he's taking me to get my nails done on monday. I need to lose weight so he can buy me nice clothes too
31. Do you have rewards for certain goals? I'm going to do my tattoo once I get back to my normal weight and I am getting a boob job once I reach my goal.