Emma's Fresh Start :)
- Thread starter Emma21
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I have exactly ONE month to reach my mini goal and that is pretty big ... almost 20 lbs. So I have to kick into HIGH gear from now on ... and school starts up again tomorrow so I will be able to keep busy which will end up being good for me. I am going to start going to work out before class everyday and then hopfully again in the evening I will make it to aerobics class.
Monday and Wednesday: workout @ 8 a.m. (class is at 11)
Tuesday and Thursday: workout @ 6 a.m. (class is at 9)
Then I will just shower and get ready at the gym and go to class right from there.
Monday and Wednesday: workout @ 8 a.m. (class is at 11)
Tuesday and Thursday: workout @ 6 a.m. (class is at 9)
Then I will just shower and get ready at the gym and go to class right from there.
Vitamins (Fish Oil Capsules, St. John's Wart, Multi Vit.) & Total Lean
I have a sore throat today
Ughh ... just in time for school to start!
B - 1 Slim Fast
S - pickle
L- turkey/tomato/lettuce/grey pupon/miracle whip on wrap
S- grapes
D- lean pocket
steak & broccoli / cauliflower --> "he" made me dinner ... aww
I have a sore throat today
Ughh ... just in time for school to start!B - 1 Slim Fast
S - pickle
L- turkey/tomato/lettuce/grey pupon/miracle whip on wrap
S- grapes
D- lean pocket
steak & broccoli / cauliflower
--> "he" made me dinner ... aww
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Fuunkymonk
New member
Emma! I'm so sorry for your boy problems but I'm so glad someone else is in my boat! Lets just sail away to Fat Island and be fat and not worry about boys. No, I'm joking. If there was a Fat Island I'd be the reigning queen though.
So, your story is quite interesting. He obviously seems like he likes you a lot-I had a "friends with benefits" back when I was a freshman and he didn't give a crap about me. Of course, I was too stupid to realize it then, but now I know that a real friend wouldn't have treated me that way-only called late at night so I could come over, ignored me in front of his friends, slept with other girls and TOLD ME ABOUT IT! Your situation is clearly different though. He obviously cares about you. I think that you should have a serious talk with your boy about what your relationship really is. How far away will you be when you both go to school? How long have you been friends and how long have you been "seeing" each other? It sounds to me like you have yourself a boyfriend. Dinners, meeting your parents, presents--those aren't "friends with benefits" things to do. I mean, come on! He likes you! And that's great! Do you think you could do a long distance thing? Lots of questions! But you'll find the answers.
Oh, and just in case you didn't know, St. Johns Wort counteracts birth control and makes it less effective, so make sure you're using condoms when you're banging Boy. What's his name by the way?
So, your story is quite interesting. He obviously seems like he likes you a lot-I had a "friends with benefits" back when I was a freshman and he didn't give a crap about me. Of course, I was too stupid to realize it then, but now I know that a real friend wouldn't have treated me that way-only called late at night so I could come over, ignored me in front of his friends, slept with other girls and TOLD ME ABOUT IT! Your situation is clearly different though. He obviously cares about you. I think that you should have a serious talk with your boy about what your relationship really is. How far away will you be when you both go to school? How long have you been friends and how long have you been "seeing" each other? It sounds to me like you have yourself a boyfriend. Dinners, meeting your parents, presents--those aren't "friends with benefits" things to do. I mean, come on! He likes you! And that's great! Do you think you could do a long distance thing? Lots of questions! But you'll find the answers.
Oh, and just in case you didn't know, St. Johns Wort counteracts birth control and makes it less effective, so make sure you're using condoms when you're banging Boy. What's his name by the way?
HAhahahah Funky - I have never laughed so hard ... "make sure you're using condoms when youre banging Boy" hahahha oooh you are too cute.
We are actually both in the same town and going to the same university right now ... and we are from the same town as well. I think you are right - I mean I know he cares about me and whatnot but I don't know if he is ready to totally commit to me ... but I know he is not sleeping witha nyone else or even hanging out for that matter. I'm sorry to hear about your "friends with benefits" situation your freshmen year ... I think we all have had somehting like that ... and just don't realize it or dont' want to until it's over. Ughh ... BOYS! haha*
Wow ... I NEVER knew about the st. Johns Wart though ... thank you so much for that info. You might have just saved me from popping out a baby sometime soon! haha*
BTW his name is Jason.
haha Fat Island ... well if you ever find such a place, let me know and we can run away together and rule it Wouldn't that be nice if fat was hot haha ... I would be hot hot hot!!! Smokin! lol*
Thanks New Leaf - I appreciate the "second" hehe*
We are actually both in the same town and going to the same university right now ... and we are from the same town as well. I think you are right - I mean I know he cares about me and whatnot but I don't know if he is ready to totally commit to me ... but I know he is not sleeping witha nyone else or even hanging out for that matter. I'm sorry to hear about your "friends with benefits" situation your freshmen year ... I think we all have had somehting like that ... and just don't realize it or dont' want to until it's over. Ughh ... BOYS! haha*
Wow ... I NEVER knew about the st. Johns Wart though ... thank you so much for that info. You might have just saved me from popping out a baby sometime soon! haha*
BTW his name is Jason.
haha Fat Island ... well if you ever find such a place, let me know and we can run away together and rule it
Wouldn't that be nice if fat was hot haha ... I would be hot hot hot!!! Smokin! lol*Thanks New Leaf - I appreciate the "second" hehe*
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well ... i know my answer. last night i called jason and we chatted and somehow i brought our "status" up and nothing really got settled but we talked about how he he thought i'd be the first one to date someone other than him and i told him i didnt want to get hurt in the end ... but we didnt really discuss what we we were ... well today we talked and he knew something was bothering me and i called him back and i just said ... "i need to stop thinking about this .. so you just need to answer one question for me" and he's like ... "no .. I don't want to ... " and then i said "ok well then i already kno wmy answer if you won't answer ... i get it" and then of course he was all " nooo ill answer !!! i didnt mean it like that .." so i asked him if we were ever going to be more than what we were now ... he said "i don't know" and I exaplined to him that yes he does know, and that saying i dont know if just a nice way of saying no without hurtng me too badly ... but he was like no, honestly i don't know. everyone keeps asking me why i dont just ask you out ... i don't know. it's not you, i've been dicked over before (which i knew ... and understand!!) and it's not you, i just can't have a "girlfriend" ... I knew this already and told him that I don't expect to be his girlfriend, i just need to know if we will ever be more. But by the end, i just said ... well thats all i need to know. and hung up. so I don't think we will be talking much more ... hanging out will be akward. i don't know. i am soo sad though ... i mean i'm good enogh to hang out with, have sex with, kiss, cook dinner for, meet the fam.m talk on the phone every day, bla bla bla ... but not good enough to date. or not even to just tlel me ... hey i like you. i'm not ready for a gf but i like you and i want you to know this.
i like him soo much .. and i'm just heartbroken. but at least i know.
well ... i know my answer. last night i called jason and we chatted and somehow i brought our "status" up and nothing really got settled but we talked about how he he thought i'd be the first one to date someone other than him and i told him i didnt want to get hurt in the end ... but we didnt really discuss what we we were ... well today we talked and he knew something was bothering me and i called him back and i just said ... "i need to stop thinking about this .. so you just need to answer one question for me" and he's like ... "no .. I don't want to ... " and then i said "ok well then i already kno wmy answer if you won't answer ... i get it" and then of course he was all " nooo ill answer !!! i didnt mean it like that .." so i asked him if we were ever going to be more than what we were now ... he said "i don't know" and I exaplined to him that yes he does know, and that saying i dont know if just a nice way of saying no without hurtng me too badly ... but he was like no, honestly i don't know. everyone keeps asking me why i dont just ask you out ... i don't know. it's not you, i've been dicked over before (which i knew ... and understand!!) and it's not you, i just can't have a "girlfriend" ... I knew this already and told him that I don't expect to be his girlfriend, i just need to know if we will ever be more. But by the end, i just said ... well thats all i need to know. and hung up. so I don't think we will be talking much more ... hanging out will be akward. i don't know. i am soo sad though ... i mean i'm good enogh to hang out with, have sex with, kiss, cook dinner for, meet the fam.m talk on the phone every day, bla bla bla ... but not good enough to date. or not even to just tlel me ... hey i like you. i'm not ready for a gf but i like you and i want you to know this.
i like him soo much .. and i'm just heartbroken. but at least i know.
the sad thing is ... now i worry if i messed up our friendship and wonder if i should have just let things go on as they were ... but no. i mean, i need to know ... right? and if it is messed up, well i guess we're not meant to be friends or anything more than that. ughhh. i hate this feeling
Emma, sorry for the guy situation.... they think so backwards that they nearly think forwards (nearly...)
Sounds like you're determined with the healthy eating and exercising tho, which is great, cos i know how hard it is sometimes when u feel a bit urgggg with stuff just to grab that huge bar of choc (my bad, i have to say!)
i've not had quite the situation you've had, but similar. i sent the guy a text telling him how i felt, he ignored it, and i then proceeded i never sent it! things were weird for a while, and i still feel a bit weird sometimes as he has a girlfriend yet i spend more time with him than she does, go to his family parties, and have met his entire family. i stay with him chatting til 3am, yet we're just 'friends' still....this thing must be so hard on you, im sorry you're going through it!
hope things improve or level out with this for you soon. like classes and weightloss aren't hard enough, then they invented BOYS!
lerato.x
Sounds like you're determined with the healthy eating and exercising tho, which is great, cos i know how hard it is sometimes when u feel a bit urgggg with stuff just to grab that huge bar of choc (my bad, i have to say!)
i've not had quite the situation you've had, but similar. i sent the guy a text telling him how i felt, he ignored it, and i then proceeded i never sent it! things were weird for a while, and i still feel a bit weird sometimes as he has a girlfriend yet i spend more time with him than she does, go to his family parties, and have met his entire family. i stay with him chatting til 3am, yet we're just 'friends' still....this thing must be so hard on you, im sorry you're going through it!
hope things improve or level out with this for you soon. like classes and weightloss aren't hard enough, then they invented BOYS!
lerato.x
maew
New member
Hi Emma,
Just found your diary, I think you are doing wonderfully. When I was reading about Jason, it sounded like you guys were dating, just not talking about it. He may have a problem with formalizing your relationship for fear it will change somehow.
Anyway, just wanted to stop in and say hi!!
Maew
Just found your diary, I think you are doing wonderfully. When I was reading about Jason, it sounded like you guys were dating, just not talking about it. He may have a problem with formalizing your relationship for fear it will change somehow.
Anyway, just wanted to stop in and say hi!!
Maew
Thanks girls so much
He ended up calling me about an hour after our phone convo and asked me to come over ... so i ended up going there ... and lots and lots of crying ... and he proceeded to tell me he's sorry and he feels horrible and it's all him that is messed up and he loves spending time with me and im pretty, nice, etc. ... bullsh*t
He ended up calling me about an hour after our phone convo and asked me to come over ... so i ended up going there ... and lots and lots of crying ... and he proceeded to tell me he's sorry and he feels horrible and it's all him that is messed up and he loves spending time with me and im pretty, nice, etc. ... bullsh*t
blueskies
New member
Hi Emma,
Take this with a grain of salt since I have not had the happiest dating relationships. Either he should date you or leave you alone. I'm so sick of wimpy little men who can't make a decision or don't want to take any responsibility for their actions. Meanwhile you are wasting time where you could have been meeting someone that does want a "girlfriend". I say end the frustration. Let him know that this is an all or nothing thing and if he doesn't take all of you then you are better off without him. Men are not the babies they sometimes pretend to be...he is an adult, he can make a decision and he can live with the consequences!!!
Good luck with whatever happens, but don't give him an easy way out! (oh and remember that my tolerence for men is not very high at this point in my life)
Take this with a grain of salt since I have not had the happiest dating relationships. Either he should date you or leave you alone. I'm so sick of wimpy little men who can't make a decision or don't want to take any responsibility for their actions. Meanwhile you are wasting time where you could have been meeting someone that does want a "girlfriend". I say end the frustration. Let him know that this is an all or nothing thing and if he doesn't take all of you then you are better off without him. Men are not the babies they sometimes pretend to be...he is an adult, he can make a decision and he can live with the consequences!!!
Good luck with whatever happens, but don't give him an easy way out! (oh and remember that my tolerence for men is not very high at this point in my life)
Blueskies - I NEEDED to hear that ... thank you. You are so right ... and he HAD everything he could want - a best friend, a girl who would drop everything for him, someone to have sex with, someone to help him with hw, someone to cook for, someone to buy gifts for ... and GET them haha, someone to talk about anything and everything ... BUT also he was still considered "single" ... so ... sorry BUT NO MORE ... he can't have the best of both worlds. Thank you for making me realize it.
ShawnaB
New member
Getting your water in...I have a great tip
I had to come up with something that would FORCE me to drink the water I need to drink, so I made a rule for myself. I eat on the same schedule every single day, and the rule is that before I can eat the next thing, I have to finish my bottle of water. For example, I will outline my day:
Breakfast- Instant oatmeal 2 points
then I get a dasani bottle, fill it up, and I have to drink that all before I can have my morning snack
Morning snack-1 cup of honeydew melon 1 point
then I get a dasani bottle, fill it up, and I have to drink that all before I can have my lunch
Lunch-3 cups of vietnamese rice noodle and chicken bowl 7 points
then I get a dasani bottle, fill it up, and I have to drink that all before I can have my afternoon snack
I think you get the point. Anyway, the dasani bottle is over 500ml, and standard water intake to lost weight is 8 8oz glasses, or 8 250ml portions of water per day. So....4 bottles/day and I'm set!!
plus, when you drink that much water before every meal, you feel more full after you eat
I had to come up with something that would FORCE me to drink the water I need to drink, so I made a rule for myself. I eat on the same schedule every single day, and the rule is that before I can eat the next thing, I have to finish my bottle of water. For example, I will outline my day:
Breakfast- Instant oatmeal 2 points
then I get a dasani bottle, fill it up, and I have to drink that all before I can have my morning snack
Morning snack-1 cup of honeydew melon 1 point
then I get a dasani bottle, fill it up, and I have to drink that all before I can have my lunch
Lunch-3 cups of vietnamese rice noodle and chicken bowl 7 points
then I get a dasani bottle, fill it up, and I have to drink that all before I can have my afternoon snack
I think you get the point. Anyway, the dasani bottle is over 500ml, and standard water intake to lost weight is 8 8oz glasses, or 8 250ml portions of water per day. So....4 bottles/day and I'm set!!
plus, when you drink that much water before every meal, you feel more full after you eat
