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Yesterday, I accompanied my mom to this city, where she would take a flight back home. This meant a flight for me too, a hotel stay and a flight back today. I didn't mind the extra costs because it meant a peace of mind that my mom made it home safely (she doesn't speak any Indonesian and she'd have to do an over-nighter to catch her next flight). Plus, it meant spending another day with my mom.

For the first time since Jan, I did not prepare my lunch. I repeat, I did NOT prepare my lunch. We had already arrived in the city, and I thought since it was my last day with my mom, I could finally enjoy a meal in a restaurant with her (and not shame her by bringing my own food - hahah). We decided on a Japanese restaurant because it felt like the healthier choice out of the rest (Pizza hut, A&W, KFC,...) little did I know that it was just as bad!!

I ordered a tofu steak and a salad. The salad was thinly sliced cucumber, crab and noodles and was liberally doused with fish eggs. I just wanted my leafy greens! The tofu steak was even worse. I suspect that they had coated the tofu with corn starch. It was so incredibly oily, and the veggies that it was serve on was even more oily. So disgusting.

If I were by myself, I would have gotten up, paid, and left. But I was with my mom, and my mom's old school - to not finish your food is like a sin. So I had to suck it up and eat the tofu. I tried to take off the skin (corn starch) but the tofu was in small pieces thus making it pretty impossible to eat without the skin. What to do - I had to just eat it.

Arrghhh.. My tummy felt so ill after that and yup, I had diarrhea. It was pretty bad (sorry TMI). The rest of the day was spent running to the toilet.

I'm not surprised because for three months, I pretty much detox all the junk out of my body. So no wonder that my body decided to rebel when I reintroduced junk into my system.

Then I found out that they had yogurt - some Canadian brand, I forget what it's called but it was advertised as 'no fat, no sugar'. Considering that it felt that my entire lunch was flushed away, I thought that I might as well get back some protein into me and why not do it the fun way? So I had yogurt. And it was yummy, I won't deny it..

However, now that I know what less than 2% fat yogurt taste like - it felt so suspect that my 'no fat, no sugar' yogurt was rather tasty!! Of course they put artificial sweetener in it and probably lots of it. I love this programme (here I go again...) because seriously, if it weren't for it, I'd be fooled for this type of advertising, thinking that I was eating so healthy but wasn't.

But I won't deny it, I really enjoyed eating it...

For dinner, I contemplated just eating in the hotel - I've had their steak before and it was decent, but certainly not for the price that they charge for. I also know that my mom worries too much about money (even if it's my own) and she opted for eating back at the mall. This time, we decided to try a sandwich place. They didn't have any decent sandwiches, only processed meat and cheese (the kraft kind - gross!!). So I had the chicken mushroom soup.

Oh! After the yogurt, and repeat trips to the toilet, my stomach felt bit better but empty. So I ate two wholewheat bread slices to calm it down and it felt better.

But after the chicken mushroom soup - I was running to the loo again. It was ok but I've gotten so sensitive to extra salt and the thing about Indonesian food is that they are much too liberal with salt and MSG. I was sooooo irritated over the dining experience because it was my last night with my mom and I wanted somewhere nice.

Not only that the soup gave me problems, but (my PET PEEVE about Indonesia) I hate how people smoke indoors. So all these men were puffing away in the restaurant! I couldn't breathe. It was not a nice atmosphere to have dinner at all.

As well, the lettuce salad that I ordered, after giving strict specifications to not add any dressing to the salad - they served it up with an overdose of spicy vinagerette. I should have just complained and returned it. Their only concession was putting the mayo (WHO EATS MAYO WITH THEIR SALAD) on the side. They couldn't even leave the cucumber and tomatoes alone and put a heavy dose of mayo on it. I couldn't eat the salad and my mom (hates leaving food to waste) ate it all even though she didn't like it.

Anyway, the whole experience was educational because it got me thinking....

My staff, younger than me, have a lot of health problems. I highly suspect that it's because of their poor diet than anything else. I see what they eat, and drink and it's not healthy. They don't eat vegetables or drink water. Everything is greasy fried, with huge amounts of rice. These days, most Asians live very sedentary lives - we sit in offices all day - so how can we account for all the food that we eat? My staff has high blood pressure for gosh sakes, among other health issues.

Looking around the mall - there are more junk food places than healthy options. It's the same in most Asian cities really. My mom talks about how the poor in Manila are actually getting larger, fatter - because the abundance of cheap, junk food that is proliferating around the city. Go to any mall and you'd see that any time of the day, the fast food court is packed. People are eating, eating eating and getting fatter, fatter, fatter.

We can't say that only America has an obesity problem when it's happening to the rest of us. Goddamn globalization and Macdonald's, KFC, etc....

My mom says that perhaps people are eating the unhealthy foods because they can't afford 'healthier foods' and I say that's RUBBISH. Look what I've been eating for the last couple of months. I eat a ton of veggies and they are cheap. I shop at the same market but the difference is how I prepare it. I don't add tons of salt, or MSG, or sauces with preservatives, etc... I don't deep-fry my foods. And really, the argument should be - spend a little more on your food, to ensure that you are not paying for medical bills in the future! Sure, when I travel, I pay extra for eating canned tuna. But considering that I haven't been sick for months since I started this programme, whereas my staff runs to the doctor and gets dozens of pills for whatever ailment she's got this time... who pays more in the end??

AArrrggh sorry for the long rant, but I've recently gotten passionate about healthy eating and living!!!!

Ok, back to a proper Cohen-y post:
today for breakfast, we were at the hotel so I decided to try muesli - very yummy but rather sweet for my taste. Had that with papaya. Also had one wheat toast with some butter. Yup, the muesli made me run for the loo again.

When I finally arrived home (sad to be on the plane by myself), and weighed myself - I clocked in at 54.4kg - same as yesterday's.

I'm relieved that I haven't gained any weight considering all that junk that I had put into my system. I did however lost a lot of fluids yesterday so I think that I may have gained, and then lost via fluids. Tomorrow, I'd have a better idea where my weight lies..

BUT!!!! Lesson learnt from this adventure??? EATING OUT IS NOT WORTH IT. It's expensive, and annoying! As long as I can help it, I don't want to ever eat out in Indonesia again. Sorry if this makes me sound like an ass but I just don't believe that I can find healthy choices here unless I'm in Bali or Jakarta - but certainly not in the smaller cities.

Ok, I gotta go and cook a nice, sane omelette for lunch!
 
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Dietgrrl, I empathised with this entire post! EATING OUT IS NOT WORTH IT. You can eat like a King or Queen at home for a fraction of the cost. I'm still recovering from my night out. Greasy buttery fish. Ugh! Hopefully you will be able to influence your staff. It's a serious worry how people are eating. xoxo Cate
 
Thanks Cate, :) In some ways, I think I'm slowly influencing them but ultimately it's up to them to make the change.

I completely agree - I have a greater satisfaction eating what I've cooked for myself so far!!

To anyone reading this, and not on Cohen's - I swear, this programme changes your life.

I used to hate cooking, and had all kinds of excuses "I hate touching raw meat" "I don't know how to cook" "I'm afraid of poisoning myself" etc... When I was back home, I gained a lot of weight when I moved out of the family home (i.e. no more mom's cooking), and ate out pretty much every day. When I moved here, I had no choice - I had to cook but my laziness to cooking meant that I was eating instant noodles, couscous, etc... And the fact is that cooking doesn't really take much of your time but you have to make the effort.

When I got on the programme, I had no choice - I had to learn how to cook for myself! And enjoyed the entire process despite some misses! (tofu shake anyone??)

Today, I had a lovely omelette for lunch, and I've just whipped up calamari marinated with red wine vinegar, spices, lemon juice - stir-fried in olive oil with cabbage, garlic and red onion. Also baked an eggplant sprayed with olive oil and basil.

I miss my mom lots!!
 
Hi all!

Yesterday, I introduced coconut and petai (local nut) into my meals and weighed in at 54.7kg! That's about a 400gram increase (water weight) from yesterday (Monday). I still have more petai and coconut and I'd like to keep reintroducing them. I also want to introduce couscous perhaps today and see how I fare.

I haven't started exercising yet because while having a morning walk, my right sole fell out. Need to get that fixed soon.
 
Hi dietgrrl, You are blitzing maintenance. Baby steps are the way to go. You have nailed it. Doing very well :D xoxo Cate
 
hey babe! petai? haha...i actually like that...my husband hates it though because of its pungent smell..my mum never cooks it but my MIL does...i love it with sambal belachan...haha..sinful aye?
 
cate - oh cate, I'm barely into a week of maintenance! :) Today was quite strange but I think I stuck to the maintenance guidelines. Will do a rundown below:

geo - oh I love petai! It's so nutritious too. It is indeed stinky but I live by myself so it's ok. :p

Today was rather strange, eating-wise. I had an emotional response twice and resorted to snacking. At least (for now) I was aware what I was doing, and considering that I have been so good throughout the programme, I didn't want to deprive myself.

Here is what I ate today:

Breakfast: boiled egg, cucumber (ala Cohen!), plus one small orange and buttered wheat bread (one slice).
Snack 10 am (emotional response): four Salada originals, two small oranges (size of golf balls), one slice of wheat bread
Lunch: Leftover tofu from yesterday (there was a lot leftover). Baked tofu included pumpkin, and petai. For my extra veggie portion, I had cucumber.
Snack 4 pm: Apple
Snack 5pm (emotional response): six Salada originals, with three pieces of mozerella cheese, and one slice of wheat bread.
Dinner 6 pm!!! Only one hour after big (relatively) snacking!: 5 tiger prawns, steamed over a bed of stirfry cabbage (with garlic and onions). Added a dash of soya sauce, and apple cider vinegar.

Drank over 2 litres of water, and had 1 hot green tea. Will likely have another tea before I go to bed.

Interesting how I turned to my crackers and cheese when I was stressed out. Glad I didn't reach for the chocolate.

Wanted to introduce couscous today but I've eaten so much that I won't have space. Perhaps tomorrow!

Just realizing that I am overeating my daily fruit portion? And that we're supposed to only eat fruit once a day? Gah! Well, will see what tomorrow brings..
 
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Weighed in today at 54.0kg - losing weight on maintenance than when i was on refeed! However, I am not back to the original programme. Yesterday, I had two big slices of pumpkin (boiled and mashed together with tofu and then fried like meatballs). I eat as many healthy biscuits as I want (but I don't go over 10 - for the salada squares). I eat cheese for snack, etc.. So I'm not depriving myself. I know that I can have dessert if I choose (I still have dark choc in the fridge) but I'm not interested. I also know that I can have rice if I want but I have been so used to not eating rice, and not having the after-effects of carbs in my system that I honestly just forget about cooking rice. If it's cooked and available, I will eat it. Maintenance is a wonderful place to be, guys. :)
 
Today, I conquered a hill on my bike. Previously, in my old weight, I usually get off my bicycle and walk it. Embarrassing I know. Now, in my current weight, I have more energy than ever! It's interesting - I find that I have more nervous energy than before - and I cannot sit for hours like I used to. I have to get up and stretch, or walk around. When I watch tv, I'm usually moving around, doing various things and not splayed out on the couch, exhausted from the day.

I also did a forest hike recently, and went further than everybody thought I would go.

I've also retained my calf muscles, funny how I used to hate them because I thought they make my legs look big. They certainly are still bulky but I am happy that in my current weight, they are still strong and fit. Muscles disappearing on this "diet"? I don't think so!
 
Bad day today. But I felt like samurai (i.e. I am already dead, and if you wanna kill me go ahead) so I was very calm throughout someone's very emotional reaction towards me.

If you yell at me, whether in public or in private, I become very calm and rational. And that pisses people more. I don't rise to the bait and scream back at them. I think my boss wanted me to grovel or beg forgiveness or be emotional.

When I suggested calmly that we have this discussion (the screaming bit) elsewhere or in later time, she screamed at me that I should be embarrassed. I replied calmly, I am not embarrassed for myself but I am embarrassed for the organization. I don't understand why do you have to make a scene and make everybody feel incredibly uncomfortable and upset.

She wanted me to be apologetic, to burst into tears, and she got angrier when I remained calm. I think she threatened to fire me, and then she slammed the door on her way out. Was I upset? I am thinking ... this is all childish and soap opera.

I did have chocolate after lunch (with rice) and it was very nice.

Weighed in today at 53.8kg.

Anyway, losing this job is not the worst thing in the world. But I do not want to be bullied into leaving.
 
oh dear! i've had a boss like that too...i think it just eats them that we aren't reacting as they had anticipated...anyway, i hope things will get better for you...
 
Dear geo,

How did you deal with your boss? I've never really had such an emotional irrational boss like this before. It makes me sad because it just perpetuates the stereotype of bad female bosses!!

I updated my c.v. today - I don't want to leave but if I get a better job offer, then why not.
 
hey dietgrrl, it was tough dealing with that ex-boss of mine...her mission statement is "my way or the high way"...so i had to be very careful to make sure my work was above standard and requirements. I didn't bother to react to any of her comments and tantrums..that just ate her brains...she sent her allies to befriend me and find out what i was up to...it came to a point where i simply could not trust anyone at all...i stayed out of her way. no unnecessary conversations..just work. most of the time I would email whatever i had to say so that there is black and white prove of everything i did and whatever she had to approve. i "invited" her to make all the big decisions (and put that on an email). when her decisions proved to be catastrophic she could not point her fingers at me...that annoyed her so much. she gave up picking on me as she knew that i had myself well-covered giving her no reason to find faults. At times I even had to bring a dictionary to her to prove that my choice of words were politically correct! she just gave up coz she knew that it was making her look bad in eyes of other employees..at the end of that nasty year, i left and get this, she would not let me go! haha..but of course, she went on to gossip about me to my then new boss. I had to clear up that mess as well...thankfully my boss then was a gem of a man! the best is to remain calm as that makes them feel little...do what you have to do, give just a little bit more so that even if you fall, you won't fall that far back..let barking dogs bark.
 
Thanks for this geo,

I met her last night and she was surprisingly very civil and polite - even hugged me good bye. I am wary though because I've seen both sides of her.

We are meeting early next week to have a discussion. I am thinking of setting down some 'ground rules' with her that I think are really reasonable.

I mean for example, she expects me to ask for permission to do activities that are already listed out on my workplan (and subsequently approved). I have a problem with that because my bosses do not respond right away and they tend to waffle on decisions (and never take responsibility). I went through a tough year last year where I tried to do what they asked, and when projects got delayed (and our local partners got very annoyed with us), she then blamed me for it and said that my predecessor would 'just do what he wanted to do and never had to ask us for help'. What the hell???

I want to tell her that since the workplan is approved, that they have to trust me to do my work. I will give them monthly updates or weekly, whatever floats their boat but I think it's completely ridiculous (maybe will avoid using this word with her! how about inefficient) to keep asking their permission to do my work. It's like they want me to be their stooge but at the same time, they don't take any responsibility. If she insists that I do everything her way, I would have to reconsider my position with the organization. Sigh, maybe that's what they want in the end but at the same time, I know that a stooge in my position will not move anything. I don't know whether that they realize that or care.

Saw a really good position back home. Thinking of applying for it.
 
Hey dietgrrl!!!

WOW, girl!! Just look at your success!! You are -15kg's!
That is absolutely fantastic!!
You should be SO proud of yourself :D

Keep up the good work xxx
*hugs*
Luvbug
 
Thank you Luvbug! :)

Warning: perhaps TMI but we're all gals here.. :)

TOM arrived today, and I felt that I deserved a chocolate! However, guidelines are to have carbs before dessert so I cooked rice just so I could have my chocolate. It was really nice (dark organic) but feeling rather groggy now because my system hasn't had this much sugar since... the last time I ate chocolate several days ago. :)

Boss left today, what a relief! Not just me but for my staff. She yelled (more controlled) at me two more times, and one with my staff. I seriously did not appreciate her telling off my staff since they are my responsibility but that was her way of asserting control. Seriously, sometimes I feel like I cannot respect this woman even though she has accomplished so much. She can be so nasty, and be oblivious over how she makes other people feel.

Thing is that she is very charismatic when she wants to be - and when you are her favourite, you can never do wrong. That is what my colleague strives to be and he is her favourite but along that comes a lot more stress!! He too also looked so relieved when she was gone.

My personal belief? I think the measurement of a person is how you treat people you don't like, rather than people you like. I know for a fact that I would never treat anyone like that, the way she does. Trying to get you down, and humiliate you. She is rather abusive and probably doesn't realize that.

Anyway, so you see, I needed that chocolate... :p (I would have preferred fruit but I haven't had the time to go shopping yet).

Today, I weighed in at 53.4kg much to my surprise but I haven't had proper meals ever since my boss was here. She also complained about my eating - even though I'm on maintenance. She had a problem that people were gossiping about my eating. I pointed out that it was a personal matter, and that it is my choice on how to eat - does she scream at the Muslim staff for not eating pork? What crap. Her issue is that oh! People are talking about you! Duh! I am a single expat female! I consider that a good thing if that the only negative thing people could talk about me is that I don't eat greasy food/rice/etc.!!! Good grief!!! Imagine if I had male friends here, I would be labelled a slut. Disappointed at my boss for just wanting to find any fault with me. But at the same time, it's sooooo ridiculous, I cannot take her seriously. And I know that bugs her!! She wants me to grovel for her attention.

Sorry for the ranting. :) She is gone, the staff are so relieved because they hate the drama that she brings (she yelled at my staff for eating all the chocolate she brought, and that her favourite staff didn't have any - migosh, she was the one who left it on the table for everybody. Her fav staff happens to stay in one room, hiding and not interacting with people. It's their fault but we got screamed at - I know!! Such drama over nothing!!!)

I actually said to her that the way that she talks to my staff is very off-putting because she's pointing fingers at us, and talking accusingly. She retorts back that she has worked with my staff longer than I have and "they know me". Sooo?? How does that make it right?? My staff told her that it seems that we get blamed for everything (for malicious slandering that her favourites tell her) and my boss had to admit that we ARE doing a GREAT JOB and that these are just 'minor setbacks'. But the way you talk to us is so against the Asian culture that you say you know so much about...

AARRGHHH...

Ok, rant over. :)
 
dietgrrl- she sounds like the boss from hell!!!! You do so well & cope so well with so much pressure. I admire you. Good for you speaking your mind. Good for you supporting your staff. Good for you eating healthy food, instead of rubbish food. Good for you dietggrl! xoxo Cate
 
Oh Cate,

Now I am embarrassed to talk about that deep pan pizza I made last night and ate too much of. :D

Hehehehe.. If there was a Cohen wagon to fall off from, this was it.

My friend and I decided to make pizza from scratch! She made the dough - wheat flour, baking soda and yeast. And I made the toppings: tofu & pumpkin and spinach. I also added paneer (we didn't have any other type of cheese), and used a packaged casserole sauce as tomato base. It smelled so heavenly from my little oven... omigosh.....

The pizza was sooo thick - like extremely thick bread slices. We ate too much! I was in carb coma after that i kid you not. I had a bad headache, I was lethargic and sleepy. I hated that feeling! And then I had a small piece of chocolate because I said to myself, wow that was a lot of carbs I just ate... Maybe I'd have dessert then! I don't think the chocolate added to my physical woes than the carbs did. Completely overdosed.

It was a good lesson though because I think I needed that one time of over-eating and feeling the after-effects. It was horrible and not worth it. I like being able to say no, and stop at eating!

Thank goodness that I weighed in at 53.4 kg still this morning! I can't believe it but am cautious because I think the weight gain can show up in a day or so. Taking it easy on the carbs for the weekend but gosh... there's still more pizza and DOUGH left... !
 
Hi everyone!

Happy weekend! So this is the interesting thing. Once I told myself NO MORE CARBS. NO MORE PIZZA. I craved the pizza so much that I had to have it! (small pieces). Then I realized, whooops.. that was my Dictator and Wild Child (quite restrained actually) acting up.

So I told myself - eat as much pizza as you want. It's ok. You're on maintenance so rules are more relaxed and you are still within your zone. And I didn't want to have any after that!

It's interesting - reverse psychology on one's self!

So I'm not going to say anymore - "back on Cohen's!" "no more carbs!" because my body tends to panic and I run towards the carbs like a lifesaver. Like I did when I was on Cohen's, I will take each meal as it comes. The main priority is to eat healthily i.e. Cohen's foods. Fill up on Cohen's food!! However, I am not on a 100% no carb diet. I do eat rice, bread (that I make myself!) whenever I want but it's the QUANTITY that matters. Honestly, if I eat too much carbs, my body shuts down almost immediately. I understand now that I'm someone who is sensitive towards carbs and has to be careful with my intake. I also loooove my fruits!

Today I weighed in at 53.4kg (haven't budged for days) and it's all good.
 
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