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Good morning:) Yesterday I ate around 1900 Cals. I had people over and I didn’t have it in me to be very strict. I don’t even feel guilty about it. Today is the same, I’ll start properly on Sunday.



On reflection I notice I currently don’t move as much as I did when I lost the 3 stone or when I was in the middle of losing it. In 2011/12, I used to get out for a early morning walk 3 or 4 mornings a week. I don’t do that anymore. I need to start doing it.

Facebook came up with throwback pictures to when I was 3 stone lighter!! I wasn’t even that skinnier looking but you can def see the weight loss. Depressing, as it was a happier time in my life also.



I remember in January 1st 2011 I started my first ever diet. I had injured my leg so couldn’t move much and wasn’t due back to university until the Jan 15th. I had no scales to weigh myself but looking back at pics I swear I must have been about 20 stone!! My face was huge and I had so much width on me. Anyway I was practically bed bound but I ate 500 Cals a day for 3 weeks, when I went back to university my friend said “ omg you lost so much weight” and my mom said “ you’re face has gone gaunt in a good way” lol, anyway I didn’t have a scales like I said, but I feel I must have lost a stone and a half in those 3 weeks. My hips became less bigger and my waist def was more obvious. So that’s why I find the 800 cals to be a kickstart for me. Whenever I start it that is!!


Kitty- yes!!! Maybe we should appreciate every pound we lose and not be like “ I should be thinner” like you said there about if you appreciated 180 pounds more you think you wouldn’t have gained any weight I feel the same about when I was 15 stone. Yea I find maintaining the hardest, its been impossible for me in the past



Cate, LaMaria and Starlight - thanks so much!



Rob:
alligatorob said:
  • I have no real goals except to eat right today, if I can do that I know all will be well. And how hard can it be to do well for one day? Do that and all else will come along.
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thanks so much for the advice you’re so kind!!! I’ll def take it on board since you lost 7 stone hello!!! I’ll find having no cheat days and binge days hard as I am a binge eater. But I do believe it is key to you maintaining the 7 stone loss!! Major well done again!! Thanks for the tip but the one I think screams out at me is take one day at a time!! I have a problem with looking too much into the future and getting anxious about it. I really should read the power of now as I bought the book 2 years ago but never read it lol

Have a great weekend guys :)
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Starting weight : 18 stone 5.75 ( 259.75 pounds)

Current weight : same as above

I’ve officially put on 53.7 pounds since 2012 wow
 
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Hi sunflower welcome . I’m one of the Irish girls . Lovely to see you here . Good luck with the first week . If you want any ideas from the Irish supermarket shelves let me know .
i have just made sugar free jellies for the fridge and the happy pear squash and coconut milk soup .
 
Sunflower19 said:
I am a binge eater
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Me too, for many more years that you've been around. I am a self-made expert binger.

I think stopping my binge has been the single most important thing. For me binges don't just add weight they have an adverse impact on my psychological well being. During the binge I lose control and afterwards I feel down and guilty, which often just leads to the next binge. Does any of this sound familiar to you?

We have a thread on bingeing https://weight-loss.fitness.com/thr...ne-day-at-at-time.111089/page-28#post-1100861 I post there most every day, it really helps me remember and focus on not bingeing. I know I am never more than a few minutes away from a binge, probably something I will have to learn to live with for life. Take a look at the thread, you are welcome to join us.

Hey, I like your avatar picture. At first I thought it was some kind of desert in a glass, but on studying it more closely I can see the vegetation reflected in what's probably wine. Very nice!
 
Yesterday I ate around 4000 cals. Again I had people over, so I got abit carried away!! A bit! Lol. I’m not impressed by my actions. There is a storm here at the moment, Storm Ciara and it’s a loud one! Couldn’t help but weigh myself this morning, and I’m now 18 ‘8, so up over 2 pounds since two days ago! Oops... again not good enough. I ate kinda bad today too. Plan on starting properly tomorrow.


Petal001 said:
If you want any ideas from the Irish supermarket shelves let me know .
i have just made sugar free jellies for the fridge and the happy pear squash and coconut milk soup .
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Thanks Petal!!! So nice to meet another Irish person! Omg I would love the sugar free jellies recipe! Sounds delish!!

alligatorob said:
For me binges don't just add weight they have an adverse impact on my psychological well being. During the binge I lose control and afterwards I feel down and guilty, which often just leads to the next binge.
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YES!! This is exactly how I am with bingeing. This is how I feel. My doctor diagnosed me with a binge eating disorder 6 months ago. Thanks so much for the forum link I will def check it out :) your advice is fantastic! I need to stop binging it never leads to any joy.


Guys I’m exhausted! Sunday evening and so wrecked! Will update my diary in a few days after having done a couple of days of good eating at least. I want something positive to report! Have a fab eve!!
 
Eating well when you have guests is harder but it gets easier with time. And these days most guests are even happy when you offer some healthier options :)
 
Eating well with guests does become easier once you have got used to it yourself & it becomes your new norm. Have a great week, sunflower.
 
Oh, social eating! :eek: It's pitfalls all the way, there - though as host you do get more control, you can avoid eating yourself by concentrating on how the guests are doing. But I guess it was more just a jolly and rollicking time, so that you were just having fun all round - in which case, great that you were enjoying yourself!
And that was then, and now in a new week - I hope you're enjoying life still! :) though through different things, like the sugar free desserts and yummy recipes Petal has in store!
 
Sunflower I'm sorry to disappoint you but the sugar free jellies are just the Hartleys packets and I make them in glass bowls. My husband is diabetic so he likes them. Although I have whisked them up with a yoghurt and they set like a mousse so that's an idea .
 
It’s been a few days since I last posted. I didn’t want to post again until I had something positive to say but I feel I need to get a couple of things off my chest. I haven’t been eating 100 % clean but still have improved a lot with the food since disaster weekend.

My Lower back is killing me. I think it’s my weight or my bed. Stood for an hour this morning watching tv and eating breakfast before work and that seemed to help a lot. But still, I never ever had back problems. I weighed myself today and I’m 18 stone 9.25 which means I gained 3.5 pounds since the weekend!!! *shocked*

I feel so unattractive at this weight. I wish I was one of those naturally fit people. I’m watching Andy Murray doc on Prime at the moment and Cheer on Netflix and the amount of work these people do to maintain a certain level of fitness is astonishing.

Positives today - ate 2 apples so far and drank 6 glasses of water.

Another positive- learning to say No, to meeting up with certain people that are negative to me, drain me and make me feel crap about myself. I said no 2 nights ago, this “ friend” text to meet up. But every time we meet up she literally spends the entire 3 hours talking about herself. Last year she left me down on a few important occasions when I was always there for her, so now I feel I don’t owe her anything. I did respond though and was cheery ( easy to do in text lol )and told her I was busy all week so couldn’t meet up. Which is true but I could def squeeze in a meet up If I want.

Also foods I now know are triggers and I should stay well away from :
Pasta
Rice
Chocolate bars
Peanut butter
Jellies ( sweets ) lol

I can’t have any of the above without binging

Thanks for all the replies guys!! :) ye are a sound bunch :)


Petal001 said:
Sunflower I'm sorry to disappoint you but the sugar free jellies are just the Hartleys packets and I make them in glass bowls. My husband is diabetic so he likes them. Although I have whisked them up with a yoghurt and they set like a mousse so that's an idea .
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Ah no way, you have not disappointed me! What flavour would you recommend??? I will definitely buy as I have such a huge sweet tooth


Until next time,
Kate x
 
Hi Kate, sorry to hear you´re struggling :( Pain makes it hard to be active and eat well but those are usually the things that´ll help the pain go away more quickly. It takes around 3500 kcal to gain a pound of fat, apparently, so I don´t believe you actually gained 3.5 pounds of fat in a couple of days. You´re probably mostly retaining water. :grouphug: Have a hug and I hope you´ll feel better soon.
 
Hi, Kate. Is always nice to have a name that we can call you :) We have another lovely Sunflower who is Hana.
I'm really sorry you have been struggling. It's good to learn your triggers for binging. We never stop learning really. I could not just eat a few salt & vinegar crisps for example. I just can't buy them. I get offered lollies at golf & just say "no thank you" to even just one. I think most of us have a dragon inside just wanting to get fed all of the wrong things & he's to be avoided.
LaMa is right. You can't have gained fat. It will be water weight. Drinking more water will help :)
 
Good for you, Kate, that you're being able to nope right out of a negative meet-up! It's not an easy thing, to identify exactly who's the person chipping away at self-esteem, and it's not an easy thing to decide not to allow it to happen any more, and it's not an easy thing to do it gracefully - so good for you, three times!
And excellent about identifying the foods which work against you, too. "See you later, peanut butter!" Like maybe in eight months' time! :D

More seriously - I hope your back pain can be sorted out - a working back is so much a part of an enjoyable life. Best wishes for that, and for you to have a more encouraging weigh next time.
 
Hi Sunflower,

I used to be a regular here but work and life commitments got in the way. Just checking back in every now and then to see how everyone’s going. I’ve read through your diary and looks like you’re on a winner; that you’ve got everything organised to start your journey.

Best of luck. I’m sure you don’t need it but you’ve got it anyway.

I’ll check back in later on. Looking forward to seeing your progress!
 
Hi Kate
Sorry you gained but agreed it’s like the others said mostly water I bet .
I had to cut out peanut butter completely . I was addicted . I only just recently had a little bit since May 15.
I think it’s good to avoid people who are not good for us and I do that now too .
 
Wow thanks for all the replies guys! Been a busy day so I only have time to come on now! Today is a good day! Down 1.5 pounds on the scales since yesterday ( 18 7.75 pounds). Yesterday I ate 3500 cals so it’s brill I lost that. I’m thinking like ye said it must be water weight! Exercised for 45 mins today too. Found yesterday evening I was hungry even though I was eating all day so I did some exercise and realized afterwards that I wasn’t hungry. Must continue to do exercise

Positives: ate 3 apples yesterday and exercised a good bit.

Need to keep this up!

Catch up on your diaries later when I’m back on, Kate x
 
A week has gone by and I have been so bold on my healthy eating. I estimated yesterday I ate 1559 cals just on rubbish, and 1300 on healthy food. So bad. I’m away this weekend at my friends house but we are both eating good( just a tiny bit of wine) so I won’t be doing the dog on it. Still so peeved off I cannot report a better week for myself. The only person I’m letting down is myself.

There is a storm here at the moment. Storm Dennis and it’s so loud! Lol

Thanks so much Cate xx

Hopefully next week I will have better news!! I deserve better what the hell am I doing to myself!

All the best,
Kate
 
Sunflower19 said:
Still so peeved off I cannot report a better week for myself. The only person I’m letting down is myself.
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Hey, your week could have been worse, I'll bet you've had worse. And posting here is a sign you are trying, so I can see positives in where you are. But last week isn't really very important, just today and tomorrow, do well at that and you'll be fine.
Sunflower19 said:
Storm Dennis
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We don't name winter storms here, but Hurricane Dennis in 2005 did a lot of damage to our house. I hope your Dennis is nicer to you.

Keep on posting, its always good to hear from you.
 
Hi Kate
I’m taking refuge from the storm right now beside the fire , catching up here and watching mamma Mia . There is nothing worth watching so it’s just noise in the background.

at least you are having some healthy food so that’s good . You will get there . Because you are posting you are concious at least . Hope you enjoy your weekend with your friend
 
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