Anke's Diary
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Ankebuzz
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Alright, I'm back. I have now been married nearly 7 years! 
Also, looking back at my goals from my last post, one I have reached is I STOPPED SMOKING CANNABIS DAILY (like 7 times a day). I am nearly 6 months sober!!
I am at the heaviest I have ever been, but my relationship with food is much better and less disordered, thanks to practicing intuitive eating for the last 4 years. Except when I try to "diet", then the all or nothing mentality creeps right back in.
So I'm here to have a diary again, as it helped me so much the times before. This time I'm going to change the way I live without "dieting".
NEW GOALS:
So I am going to revisit my life areas from above last message.
MY LIFE AREAS:
I'm also performing in a play for a community theatre group this weekend, I am so excited! I've learned all my lines, I'm playing Mary Magdalen in a play called The Vigil (it's about the Easter resurrection - was it a hoax or not? Courtroom style)
Some more info -
Main forms of exercise:
I have been to see a dietician, and she has recommended a daily calorie limit of 1800. So that is the guideline I am trying to follow.
Also, I see I promised puppy pics, so now I owe you before and afters from 7 years ago til today. Here they are!
Also, looking back at my goals from my last post, one I have reached is I STOPPED SMOKING CANNABIS DAILY (like 7 times a day). I am nearly 6 months sober!!
I am at the heaviest I have ever been, but my relationship with food is much better and less disordered, thanks to practicing intuitive eating for the last 4 years. Except when I try to "diet", then the all or nothing mentality creeps right back in.
So I'm here to have a diary again, as it helped me so much the times before. This time I'm going to change the way I live without "dieting".
NEW GOALS:
So I am going to revisit my life areas from above last message.
MY LIFE AREAS:
- Making a living (includes personal development, work and finances)
- Relationships (includes family/pets, friends and Loved One)
- Physical Health (includes exercise, good hygiene and healthy eating)
- Mental Health (includes relaxation, hobbies, daily habits, self care)
- Be productive at work. (I have ADHD)
- Take my dogs out for walks more. (they really need it!)
- Eat healthy and balanced meals 80% of the time. The other 20%, live a little!
- Try get in 25g of fibre or more per day.
- Drink enough water (to handle all that fibre!)
- Sleep enough. (I have Bipolar II)
I'm also performing in a play for a community theatre group this weekend, I am so excited! I've learned all my lines, I'm playing Mary Magdalen in a play called The Vigil (it's about the Easter resurrection - was it a hoax or not? Courtroom style)
Some more info -
Main forms of exercise:
- Pole dancing once a week (less dancing, more acrobatics)
- Zen pilates once a week (like a yoga/pilates fusion)
I have been to see a dietician, and she has recommended a daily calorie limit of 1800. So that is the guideline I am trying to follow.
Also, I see I promised puppy pics, so now I owe you before and afters from 7 years ago til today. Here they are!
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It's good to have you back, Anke.
Ankebuzz
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Yeah, i should have added some spinach, didnt think of that, thanks Llama!
Had a smoothie (yogurt, almond milk, protein powder, ground flaxseed, peanutbutter, banana and a bunch of spinach) for lunch. Weirdly filling, been loving these lately.
I'm off to pole dancing this evening. Not really looking forward to it cos my period is due in 3 days, and my skin is always super sensitive and sore then. Here comes the burn!
Update: Class was good. For dinner I had something called an oriental rice bowl:
So you saute half an onion in some olive oil for 5 mins. Then it's basically whatever roast veggies you have (in this case broccoli, cauliflower and carrots), added in and heated through for a couple of mins, then add a chopped garlic clove. Then stir in 1 beaten egg and cook for another couple of mins. Then add some rice and some chopped, cooked chicken breast, heat through, and finish off by adding a couple of teaspoons of curry powder in for flavour. Yum!!
I am now baking a banana bread before I head to bed (on time!) and will see if I still have some calories left to have a slice with butter once I input my meals into my calorie app, else tomorrow is another day!
Had a smoothie (yogurt, almond milk, protein powder, ground flaxseed, peanutbutter, banana and a bunch of spinach) for lunch. Weirdly filling, been loving these lately.
I'm off to pole dancing this evening. Not really looking forward to it cos my period is due in 3 days, and my skin is always super sensitive and sore then. Here comes the burn!
Update: Class was good. For dinner I had something called an oriental rice bowl:
So you saute half an onion in some olive oil for 5 mins. Then it's basically whatever roast veggies you have (in this case broccoli, cauliflower and carrots), added in and heated through for a couple of mins, then add a chopped garlic clove. Then stir in 1 beaten egg and cook for another couple of mins. Then add some rice and some chopped, cooked chicken breast, heat through, and finish off by adding a couple of teaspoons of curry powder in for flavour. Yum!!
I am now baking a banana bread before I head to bed (on time!) and will see if I still have some calories left to have a slice with butter once I input my meals into my calorie app, else tomorrow is another day!
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Ankebuzz
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Yep, that's me!! It doesn't always look too graceful getting into it, but once I'm up there it's magic! Thank you!
Ankebuzz
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Weigh in: 111.2kg (245lbs). That is 2.1 kg (4.6lbs) down.
So that is mostly water weight. I know because Friday and Saturday I drank alcohol, and ate many high sodium foods, and Sunday I ate an entire rack of ribs. Fri, Sat and Sun were all 3000+ calorie days.
So I'm happy I didn't really gain anything from that wild weekend. But quite keen to keep seeing the number go down. I get overly obsessed with it though. Don't really know how to make myself not put so much value on the numbers.
So today I slept really late, til about 12:30pm (it's a holiday here). And now I'm feeling weird about food. Trying to decide what sounds good. I may have a blueberry smoothie, or else I might have some more scrambled eggs with feta and spinach on toast. Or I could have yogurt and muesli with apple or blueberry. Or I could have a slice of banana bread with some peanutbutter. I honestly can't decide, so now I'm eating nothing. And it's 2pm already. I know that's bad, but some days I just don't feel like eating for a while after waking up. Any advice?
Update: I got aome inspiration by watching a cooking show on Netflix. I ended up sautéing some courgettes and spinach,and adding it into a 2 egg omelette, with feta cheese. Served on rye toast. Nom not nom.
So that is mostly water weight. I know because Friday and Saturday I drank alcohol, and ate many high sodium foods, and Sunday I ate an entire rack of ribs. Fri, Sat and Sun were all 3000+ calorie days.
So I'm happy I didn't really gain anything from that wild weekend. But quite keen to keep seeing the number go down. I get overly obsessed with it though. Don't really know how to make myself not put so much value on the numbers.
So today I slept really late, til about 12:30pm (it's a holiday here). And now I'm feeling weird about food. Trying to decide what sounds good. I may have a blueberry smoothie, or else I might have some more scrambled eggs with feta and spinach on toast. Or I could have yogurt and muesli with apple or blueberry. Or I could have a slice of banana bread with some peanutbutter. I honestly can't decide, so now I'm eating nothing. And it's 2pm already. I know that's bad, but some days I just don't feel like eating for a while after waking up. Any advice?
Update: I got aome inspiration by watching a cooking show on Netflix. I ended up sautéing some courgettes and spinach,and adding it into a 2 egg omelette, with feta cheese. Served on rye toast. Nom not nom.
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I'm thoroughly impressed!
I generally try to eat something anyway when I feel like that because it's often my brain trying to sneak in getting me so hungry I won't care if I binge. I see you found an excellent solution though!