Yelena's Diary

[Yelena]

This is really hard.
I'm fat. There, I said it.

I know it's not a great word but that's how I feel about myself, not looking for sympathy or whatever. I've struggled with my weight for nine years after a pretty bad event. Since then I've been using food as a crutch. My psychiatrist said that because food was the only thing I could control at the time, it's become my way of finding comfort. Personally, I'm not so sure but regardless, I'm over weight and need to sort it out.

SOOOO

As well as trying to lose weight, I'm going to set some weekly goals. I suffer from depression and sometimes the little things get harder to do. Hopefully the smaller goals will help build up healthier choices/lifestyle blar blar blar.

Week One

- Take Eddie on the 'long walk' every day.
- Eat an apple before junk food when having cravings.
- All dishes must be washed before I eat anything.
- One load of laundry in every other day.
- Make a meal list and stick to it (do the shopping Yelena!).

Weight loss goal for the week - buy weighing scales.

 

[Yelena]

About Eddie

This is Eddie. She is my six year old corgi x jack russell.
She came to live with us five months ago after I saw an advert for her on GumTree.



Eddie, is the best dog in the world...unless you're another dog. Her previous owner did not look after her at all. She was never walked, socialised and kept in a crate for 12- 16 hours a day. As a result, Eddie freaks out when she sees other dogs. She is really sweet when she gets to great them but cries out when she cannot see them.

Eddie does have issues but we're slowly working through them. Walks are the more stressful part of being with her although, after a week of going 'oopse' and walking the opposite direction when she pulls on her lead, she's pretty good staying at heel.

My other half thinks we are meant to be together and that by helping her, I'm helping myself get over things. I think he is being too romantic

 

[Cate]

Hi, Yelena & welcome to the forum. Eddie is very cute & I think maybe your other half may have that right. There's nothing wrong with being romantic, that's for sure. Eddie is now a lucky dog. Depression sucks. I suffer from it too. Getting outside & walking I find is great therapy & having Eddie who needs that walk is a great reason to get out there. You will help her get over her fear of other dogs. Can you pick her up and carry her as you go past them?
Eating healthier would help with your depression. If I eat junk food now I feel that I am not respecting my body. It deserves nourishing food & you can improve your mental health as you improve your physical health. I know it's hard at the start, but you will get support here & we will be your cheer squad. Once again, a big welcome

 

[trublues]

Hello, Yelena.

Your list of Week One goals made me realize that I should do this myself. Otherwise I might just drift through the entire week. Thanks for the motivation!

Recently I've been struggling with depression myself. I hear people say 'one day at a time' and I think oh gee, how optimistic! I'm at 'one hour at a time' myself! So I totally get how it can make it harder to achieve those objectives you listed. Love that you're starting small though.

Eddie is adorable. Caring for animals says so much about a person!

Welcome, and I look forward to getting to know you better as our stories unfold here.