So today I feel indifferent. Sometimes I feel really good about what I'm doing for myself, and at other times I feel like it's not worth it. Today I'm just kinda here. Does anybody else ever feel like that? I guess sometimes I feel like I'm working really hard and I'm not getting anywhere, and then I get discouraged. I'm teaching myself to take it one day at a time, and if my day isn't going well, then I take it one hour at a time. I'm really tired today too so I think that is effecting my whole mental right now. 
So last night I went to the gym, but my body is soooo tired from my work-outs at the beginning of the week, that I only did my Hip-Hop Dance workout. It was an hour and I'm glad that I did it. I'm going to go to the gym tonight before I go out. I may not even go out tonight, I'm really tired.
I have a Christmas party to go to tomorrow night. This Christmas party is a hard core annual get together of about 25 friends. I am going to try very hard to be good. There will be more junk food than healthy and there will be a lot of alchohol. Maybe I will take my own food to eat. I will have a hard time not drinking, but I know that it's not good for my healthy eating, and part of the reason why I have gained so much weight.
I'm just going to take the measures that I need to take for myself and keep a positive attidude. All of this hard work will pay off in the end. I just have to keep telling myself that. There will be plenty of time to play after the hard work is done.
So last night I went to the gym, but my body is soooo tired from my work-outs at the beginning of the week, that I only did my Hip-Hop Dance workout. It was an hour and I'm glad that I did it. I'm going to go to the gym tonight before I go out. I may not even go out tonight, I'm really tired.
I have a Christmas party to go to tomorrow night. This Christmas party is a hard core annual get together of about 25 friends. I am going to try very hard to be good. There will be more junk food than healthy and there will be a lot of alchohol. Maybe I will take my own food to eat. I will have a hard time not drinking, but I know that it's not good for my healthy eating, and part of the reason why I have gained so much weight.
I'm just going to take the measures that I need to take for myself and keep a positive attidude. All of this hard work will pay off in the end. I just have to keep telling myself that. There will be plenty of time to play after the hard work is done.
