The REAL Sarahs Diary! OOH, FACINATING!

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The real Sarah

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Ahh, my first official diary, never had one growing up. Well since this an introduction to all you kind folk, I'm giving you a mini life story!!! My name is Sarah, I am 18 years old, a recent high school grad, right now I am in the somewhat dismal stage between graduation and college, it blows royally. So here goes... I was born in Southern Oregon in a small town with limited opportunities and a population reflecting the lack there of. From as far back as I can remember I have been at least "chubby" if not overweight. My parents worked all the time when I was growing up so, for the most part, us kids took care of ourselves, thus, we ate junk food all the time. When my parents were around it was the usual practice for my dad to make some rude comment about my weight, and my mom to defend me, so I got some pretty mixed signals about it. I love my parents dearly and in no way do I blame them, just explaining what led me up to this point. Then the public school system entered my life, when I got into middle school every ounce of self worth I ever posessed was dissolved into oblivion by creul comments and disregaurding teachers. To this day I firmly believe that Jr. High is the enviroment that destroys little girls. In High school, things got better mostly because I had changed so much, to make up for what I thought I was lacking in appearence, I became horrendiously sarcastic, and to most people, funny, but that is not the real me at all, because I now have this hard outter shell, most people think I'm confident, which could'nt be further from the truth. I don't enjoy putting on this facade, but it seems to keep others in their comfort zone with me. I don't know if it is my appearence or my character but for whatever reason, I have gotten very little attention from the opposite sex in my young life, now, I don't think I'm ugly, and I'm told i'm relativley intelligent, so if any of you guys out there can clue me in to why this might be, please inform me. I'm dying to know. Well on with the story, A while back, a very dear friend of mine, also one of the most beuatiful girls I have ever known, made the decision to take her own life by hanging herself, since then I have been on this crusade to change the world of sorts. I want nothing more in life than to set an example for young girls, to teach them to be proud and utterly unashamed of who they are (who they REALLY are inside) to apologize to NO ONE! To show them they don't need to try so hard to get or keep a boyfriend, the right man will try hard to get and keep them!!! who needs em anyway!!! And never to compromise their bodies for the aforementioned. But mostly I want to change how natural looking women are veiwed in modern society, by women and men alike! I want to see more media resources portraying woman for what they really are...PEOPLE!!! And I want every little girl to love her body, and herself. So, that said My goal is 155 Lbs, for my height of 5"9, and I am hoping to become a plus size model, and I would also very much love to be a performer. I have put on a facade all my life, now I want to stand up for something real!!! SO good luck to all you gals and guys out there!!! Please, write me often, I need YOUR support to reach my goals!!
 
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Awesome start to your diary... you sure you're only 18? You've wisdom, poise and intelligence way beyond your years...

Tragic about your friend, you never really know what goes thru a person's head when they make that final decision... Over the years I've had more than one friend commit suicide, and I will never quite get it... I do hope your mission will change for the better many other lives :)

Welcome to your diary... you've got much to say, and I am looking forward to hearing it... :)

Support and encouragement are yours for the taking... :D
 
Why thank you! Last time I checked I was 18, lol, I get that alot because I also look like a 20 something, but hey, I just hope by the time I really AM a 20 something people don't think I'm a 30 something!!!
Yeah, suicide is something I too will never understand, but hopefully I can do something to help, I don't want to see my nieces growing up with self image like that, so i'm gonna catch em' while their young!
Hey nice job on the 28 pounds lost!!! Hopefully soon I'll be at that point too! Hey I wanted to ask someone, is 10 pounds a month a reasonable weight loss goal? Thanks!!!
 
2 pounds a week is considered a healthy amount to lose- however, the more you have to lose, the more that tends to come off int he beginning.. 10 pounds sounds pretty reasonable to me
 
Awesome, there IS hope then, Haha, I am hoping to lose 40 pounds by the time my boyfriend gets back from a National Gaurd challenge in mid Dec. Right now I eat an egg, a half a piece of toast, and sometimes a lite yogurt for breakfast, a small ceaser salad with dressing and croutons from wendys, and either a veggie sandwich, or a lean cuisine for dinner, I throw in the occasional fruit or lite pudding snack as a treat. And of coarse I drink lots of water, i was also drinking diet soda but I quit today.I go on a 1/2 uphill 1/2 downhill one mile bike ride twice a day, so i'm hoping if I stick with it, I lose 40 by Dec. Anyone have any good exersize ideas for me to add?
 
I completed day one!!!

So, today was my first official day of progress towards my goal of 150, although I have been being healthier for a week or so. I am not trying to suceed this time, I AM GOING TO! No excuses! I commit to exersizing twice daily, eating right ALL the time, NOT grabbing that extra snack, and losing 30 pounds before Dec. 14th!!! So here are my official "before" pics, lets get this party started!!!
 
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Aaaarrggg Skipping Breakfast!

I'm having a problem not finding time for the most important meal of the day! Breakfast, Any ideas to cure this problem???
 
have stuff ready to go the night before...

cut up some fruit and put it in single serving containers, with some yogurt or cottage cheese

Put a portion of cereal in a baggie for you to take to go

Put a small bagel in an air tight bag and a tbs of peanut butter in a ziplock bag, and squeese the peanut butter onto the bagel

get up 15 minutes earlier :)
 
Hello,

Welcome to the forum! I love your first entry and your writing style is phenomenal!! I wish you great luck on the 40 pound loss. I am also wanting to lose 40 pounds by my birthday in December.

I'm sorry about the loss of your friend. But I admire your enthusiasm of a better tomorrow for girls of all shapes and sizes. If only there were more like you!

Also- About your before pics- Whaddyatalkin'bout?? You look GREAT! Those could be after pics!!

You and I are almost the same height- And If I could look the way you do now, boy, I would be a happy camper.

Again, welcome and I do hope you enjoy yourself here.
-Nightporter-
 
Thankya

Thanks for the compliments! The thing is, I may not really look like it, but I actually weigh close to 250! Sure I am tall, and big-boned, but I am also over-weight. Most people seem to think I don't appear to weigh that much, but, what i'm concerned about is my overall health. Tomorrow I am starting an all-natural Juice fast to get sort of a "jump-start" My Doc recomended because I have been haveing trouble sleeping and some other issues, I know I have the will to do it, but it does seem kind of scary to me! NO food for 30 days! But as much Veggie and Fruit juice as I can handle, along with water. She says it may also help my chronis sinus infections, and a few other things. So, wish me luck! After the juice fast is over I will eat all raw foods, and slowly add protiens back into my diet. Well any advice on Juice fasting or otherwise is much appritiated, THANKS!
 
AAAAH! Day 2 of my 31 day juice fast!!! Beet/Romaine lettuce juice is GROSS! But I'm actually not feeling too deprived...yet. It almost seems simpler to fust not even have the option of food there, it's not hard to forget that's for sure!!! Wish me luck, any advice greatly appritiated! ILOVE KENNY!
 
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