The last few miles of a long journey!

Spectra

Spectra

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Well I wish I had have found this forum sooner. But I'm glad I'm here now. I've been overweight pretty much all my life. I wasn't a fat kid but I was always the big kid and in high-school things got worse. I was well over 200 lbs by the time I was in grade 10 and almost 300 by the time I was in college. I spent a lot of time in denial and the rest of the time yo-yo dieting with not much luck. Finally I met the most wonderful man in the world. He loved me for who I was and never saw me as fat. I must be one lucky girl. He weighs 165lbs and is pretty darn hot! :D He never said a word about my weight.

One day I was at a party with him and I saw a beautiful perky little blond flirting away with my man! :eek: After a few days of complete despair thinking how was I ever going to be good enough etc etc. My boyfriend proposed! No matter what I looked like I was the only one for him.

Since then I've become determined that for such a wonderful man and for myself I would be healthy. Maybe not a super model but healthy and happy. I will run a play with my kids, go on long walks with my soon to be husband and enjoy life.

It's been 1 year and 2 months since I joined TOPS (take of pounds sensibly) which has been my main group of support. They've been great and I'm now the leader of my chapter. I hope to graduate to KOPS (keep of pounds sensibly) by my wedding date which is this Sept. 9th :)

So this is how it all began. I'll be dropping by this new journal of mine (thanks for such a wonderful site by the way) at least every Monday to let you all know how my meeting/weigh in went.

If anyone ever wants to chat about what I've done so far, or has any types for those last few pesky pounds that always seem the hardest please feel free to contact me any way you like.




Monday June 12 2006 - Last week I was down 4.5 lbs so I was a little nervous tonight usually when I loose a bit more then I should the week before my body seems to give me trouble by adding a few back on the next. But last night I was down a healthy 1 lb. This brought me to lowest weight I have been since I was in about the 9th grade :D
 
Wow I am I tired but I feel GREAT! Finally some nice whether so I can get off that darn elliptical machine and stop staring at the wall :p

Loaded both the kids up (35lbs each ;)) into the double stroller and away we went. I pushed them all over town. We ended up going on about a 7km (4.5 mile) walk. We stopped at the grocery store and bought a yummy fresh fruit salad for a treat.

The kids couldn't be happier and neither could I. Now I'm going to go relax on the couch for a bit and watch the new Barbie Fairytopia movie :rolleyes:
 
Hi!

Hello! I saw your dress on one of your other posts. It is very pretty. Congrats on the upcoming nuptials and on your amazing weight loss so far. Keep it up!
 
Thank you very much! I'm very excited about this fall. I've actually been engaged for 3 years now but I kept making excuses for putting it off cause I dreaded having all those people stare at me and then the pictures:eek:

Hopefully I'll shed these last pounds over the summer and be proud to strut my stuff :D
 
Argh! I can tell today is going to be rough. I woke up at 4:30am to help get my fiance off to work and make his lunch for him. He works for 12 hours so he needs lots to eat. I found myself nibbling away at his goodies. By 6am I'd already had 2 pieces of raisin bread with butter, a pepperette stick, and a brownie :(

I guess it's time to think of a really good work out and a super healthy dinner for today. Damn that brownie for tasting so good!
 
We're all entitled to a lapse in willpower every once in awhile. Look at how far you've come! You're an inspiration- and thank you for being so supportive to everyone on this forum.
 
You look fab, girl! You've done SOOOO well!! Your weight loss and positive attitude are an inspiration to all of us!

Congratulations on your upcoming marriage! You will be a beautiful bride ... both inside and out! Keep up the good work!
 
:eek: You guys are all so great! Thanks again!

So I tried to get out of the slump I started today. I wasn't doing to bad, I drank lots of water and took the kids on another walk. I worked up a pretty good sweat to pushing those monsters around in the heat makes for quite the work out. It wasn't hard to drink my water today.

Unfortunately my efforts were foiled by great grandma! She brought the kids cheesies! Anything but CHEESIES! :( Luckily the kids like them as much as me so I only got a few (the ones my 2 year old literally shoved into my mouth, and they say no one can force you to eat:rolleyes: ) You should have saw me try to fight him off;)

All in all it's been a not so good not so bad day. I'll chalk it up to a break and be a good girl tomorrow.
 
Oh, I know of the cheesie temptation. I've been vegan for years but one of the only things that still tempts me is the cheesie!

You look amazing and are really inspiring. Keep up the fight!
 
Giving myself a little pat on the back. I resisted temptation. I just had the worst craving for a Tim Hortons French Vanilla Cappuccino and instead I went and bought some french vanilla coffee beans. Made myself a pot and am having a cup with splenda and skim milk. Almost as yummy and and only 30 calories as opposed to 300 :)
 
Hey, Spectra! Just dropping by to say "hi." I love Tim Hortons!! I'm not from Canada, but I was introduced to Tim Hortons when I vacationed on Nova Scotia a couple of years ago. I'm really glad we don't have them where I live in Illinois! :D

Glad things are doing better for you. Keep up the terrific work! You're getting there, girlfriend!

Have a super weekend!
 
Your pictures look wonderful and are very inspiring! And a huge pat on your back for resisting temptation -- and 270 empty calories :) !!
 
OK, I'm finally back. I'm sorry I went MIA on everyone. I had a really bad week and put on like 6lbs! I felt horrible and didn't want to talk about it. I know that was the wrong thing to do but I hate facing the music.

Anyway I've smartened up and came back. I've worked really hard the last 2 weeks and taken 4 of the 6lbs back off. I'm back down to 196 which is much better then having to see that nasty scale go back up over the 200. It was pretty upsetting to see it go over that again, when I worked so hard to get under it.

I find I'm running out of motivation. I used to be able to find new workouts and recipes to try all the time. When I got bored I'd just try something new and it always worked. Lately though I just find myself in this slump. I just think I wish that I could just eat like a normal person. I want to go out for ice cream with my friends without trying to figure out the healthiest choice. I want a triple fudge Rollo ice cream on a chocolate dipped sugar cone with sprinkles gosh darn it!!! But alas I must take the vanilla soft serve in a cup :(
I guess I just have to grin and bare it, if I can just put everything I've got into it for a few more months I'll be where I want to be and maybe just maybe I'll treat myself to the chocolate decadence I want so bad :D

My wedding date seems to baring down on my like a mac truck and although I'm excited I feel like there's no way to get to my goal now. I still have 25lbs to go and only 2 months. Not really feasible. I'll still be happy no matter what, but I guess I'll have to settle for a few extra pounds come the big day.

Well that's about it for now, I'm sorry I ran away from the group when, now that I think about it I needed you guys most. But I'm here now, and I'll be making the rounds asap to give any support I can give.

Keep up all the great work guys!
 
I'm so glad that you came back! We'll happily help pull you out of the slump (although I must admit that the chocolate ice cream does sound pretty good ;))
 
Stunning Spectra, simply stunning.

Congrats on a job well done and kick azz on the stretch run. What a thrill to be able to see the finish line.
 
Welcome back, Spectra! I've been worried about you. I was in the same place you are last week. It isn't fair that we have to give up what we love ... food. I'm a good one for having myself a pity party quite often. But you're so close to your goal. Just give it one more big push, and you'll be there! And so what if you aren't quite at your goal by your wedding. You're gonna be a beautiful bride no matter what! You'll just get to your goal after the wedding, that's all. Lean on us, girlfriend. We'll help to keep you motivated!
 
Thanks so much everyone. I should have known better in the first place. But it's just so hard to face everyone and say "Hey I screwed up" but I'm sure with all the support you guys have to give, I'll be there in no time.
 
You're facing us with an 89 lbs weightloss, how could anyone call that a screw up ??

You're back on your way ;)

If you need the Twiny Stick, just holla :)
 
nice to see you back, beautiful... you know where to come for motivation nd support... don't stay away next time... :)
 
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