diakurosawaaa
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I am currently 16 yr old female who wants to lose weight. I've never been super overweight or obese ever but I've always fluctuated between a normal/chubby weight.
I began dieting at around 14 by eating around 1,200 calories a day and just general exercise like the walk to school and back. Within 6 months I lost a considerable amount of weight and received a lot of praise for it, however I never felt like I had reached my own goal and pushed aside the praise. Although, at this point I didn't hate my body as much anymore and decided to stop dieting and just maintain.
Around 2 years later and a lot of stressful time at school with major exams, I gave into my old eating habits and ended up gaining back my previous weight.
Currently I am 5'5/6ish and around 160lbs. My goal is around 110lbs.
This time I'm probably more determined than ever since I genuinely detest my body and I genuinely believe that once I reach my goal weight that I'll be happy.
My original plan was to eat around 1,200 calories a day but this time to incorporate more forms of exercise that I can easily do around my school schedule (e.g. walking 10,000 steps a day, jump roping, dance exercise)
However, due to constant comments by family members about my weight when I'm clearly trying isn't helping me at all. I've reached a point where I've developed a fear of eating in front of others and can only eat alone.
To me food just feels like an enemy and I feel immense guilt after eating any form of bad food.
I feel like turning to crash diets just to lose the weight quicker in order to just be happy and stop hearing these comments daily as well as trying to stop my own hatred for my body.
For me the risks of crash dieting seem less damaging than the ones of staying my weight and dealing with the mental struggle of just hating my body.
I know it's bad but at this point is just seems worth it since I'm literally miserable.
Idk what to do honestly.
I began dieting at around 14 by eating around 1,200 calories a day and just general exercise like the walk to school and back. Within 6 months I lost a considerable amount of weight and received a lot of praise for it, however I never felt like I had reached my own goal and pushed aside the praise. Although, at this point I didn't hate my body as much anymore and decided to stop dieting and just maintain.
Around 2 years later and a lot of stressful time at school with major exams, I gave into my old eating habits and ended up gaining back my previous weight.
Currently I am 5'5/6ish and around 160lbs. My goal is around 110lbs.
This time I'm probably more determined than ever since I genuinely detest my body and I genuinely believe that once I reach my goal weight that I'll be happy.
My original plan was to eat around 1,200 calories a day but this time to incorporate more forms of exercise that I can easily do around my school schedule (e.g. walking 10,000 steps a day, jump roping, dance exercise)
However, due to constant comments by family members about my weight when I'm clearly trying isn't helping me at all. I've reached a point where I've developed a fear of eating in front of others and can only eat alone.
To me food just feels like an enemy and I feel immense guilt after eating any form of bad food.
I feel like turning to crash diets just to lose the weight quicker in order to just be happy and stop hearing these comments daily as well as trying to stop my own hatred for my body.
For me the risks of crash dieting seem less damaging than the ones of staying my weight and dealing with the mental struggle of just hating my body.
I know it's bad but at this point is just seems worth it since I'm literally miserable.
Idk what to do honestly.