Where to start -
I've always been a large person. My whole life I've easily been the biggest person in the room in terms of height and weight (currently 6'7"/300 lbs).
As I reached adolescence, my height and weight was almost glorified. My family didn't do a thing to deter me from eating two dozen cookies in the middle of the night or stop me after 3 heaping helpings of casserole at dinner. I was a big kid and I was very active in sports. As I reached high school, I started getting the vibe that playing collegiate athletics might be an opportunity for me. That didn't stop me from eating my daily caloric recommendation twice over in a sitting at mcdonalds or motivate me to spend quality time in the gym. I had no comprehension of what I was doing to my body and the habits I was creating.
I remember like it was yesterday. I showed up at my first day of fall camp as a freshman in college and during our body composition assessment I weighed in at 338 pounds. The more alarming thing was that my body fat percentage was over 30%. Can you believe that? The kid who woke up craving sweets at 2 am or would laugh in face of 2 six pack and a pounds was made up of 1/3 fat. The worst part about it was that I didn't even really grasp the severity of my situation.
Fast forward to today. Over the last 6 years i have yo-yoed from 260-312 lbs and am currently uncomfortably resting at 300 lbs. Having just celebrated my 30th bday, my food addiction (primarily sugar/carbs) is at it's all time worst. I know I need to change. I have 2 boys, and my wife and i are expecting another child in august. i don't need a diet...i don't need the next big thing in weight loss. i need a change in the fundamental principles of my lifestyle. i've been telling myself since sepetember that i am going to start working out and eating right...only to tell myself every day that tomorrow will be when i start. i don't even enjoy the food i eat anymore because i'm stricken with guilt and ashamed by my lack of control and will power. i have to change because it is making me miserable and my family is receiving the brunt of it. i have become a slob of a husband to my wife and a lazy pile of father to my sons.
at this point it really comes down to two options - getting healthy and growing old to experience the life i have surrounded myself with or continue down the path i'm on and find myself checking out way too early.
my alarm is set for 4:30...as it has been over
the last 3 months. i have no idea where this journey is going to lead me...but i'll never know until i take that first step.
here's to getting my life back.
I've always been a large person. My whole life I've easily been the biggest person in the room in terms of height and weight (currently 6'7"/300 lbs).
As I reached adolescence, my height and weight was almost glorified. My family didn't do a thing to deter me from eating two dozen cookies in the middle of the night or stop me after 3 heaping helpings of casserole at dinner. I was a big kid and I was very active in sports. As I reached high school, I started getting the vibe that playing collegiate athletics might be an opportunity for me. That didn't stop me from eating my daily caloric recommendation twice over in a sitting at mcdonalds or motivate me to spend quality time in the gym. I had no comprehension of what I was doing to my body and the habits I was creating.
I remember like it was yesterday. I showed up at my first day of fall camp as a freshman in college and during our body composition assessment I weighed in at 338 pounds. The more alarming thing was that my body fat percentage was over 30%. Can you believe that? The kid who woke up craving sweets at 2 am or would laugh in face of 2 six pack and a pounds was made up of 1/3 fat. The worst part about it was that I didn't even really grasp the severity of my situation.
Fast forward to today. Over the last 6 years i have yo-yoed from 260-312 lbs and am currently uncomfortably resting at 300 lbs. Having just celebrated my 30th bday, my food addiction (primarily sugar/carbs) is at it's all time worst. I know I need to change. I have 2 boys, and my wife and i are expecting another child in august. i don't need a diet...i don't need the next big thing in weight loss. i need a change in the fundamental principles of my lifestyle. i've been telling myself since sepetember that i am going to start working out and eating right...only to tell myself every day that tomorrow will be when i start. i don't even enjoy the food i eat anymore because i'm stricken with guilt and ashamed by my lack of control and will power. i have to change because it is making me miserable and my family is receiving the brunt of it. i have become a slob of a husband to my wife and a lazy pile of father to my sons.
at this point it really comes down to two options - getting healthy and growing old to experience the life i have surrounded myself with or continue down the path i'm on and find myself checking out way too early.
my alarm is set for 4:30...as it has been over
the last 3 months. i have no idea where this journey is going to lead me...but i'll never know until i take that first step.
here's to getting my life back.
