Cecilia07
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Hola!
I've been hanging around this board for a few months now, and now that school's out I decided it's time to join ;-)
I've struggled with my weight since (sadly) 6th grade. Much of the pressure came from my fit-and-thin , slightly-obsessive-about-weight family - especially my mom. I was never overweight, but in 6th and 7th grade my mom considered me "too chubby"...actually, even before that. Now looking at pictures of the time, I was very skinny - the "chubbiness" she saw is basically the not-completely-flat stomach of childhood.
I remember being nine and standing in a GAP dressing room with my mom lecturing me about how we were going to start a diet together. I was very skinny till I was around eight - and after that I was still skinny, I just stopped growing for a while. In middle school I did a big growth stretch, but I also gained some weight because of the counter-effect of my parent's restrictions when I was younger. For example they'd frown and be 'disappointed' if I chose a chocolate ice cream over a fruit bar when I was six or seven - so when I was in middle school and at lunch and on school trips far away from my parents, I'd binge on those foods I had been denied - pastries, chocolate, candy, sweets. I'm embarassed to be telling you all this - but it has to be done to get it out of my system
By becoming obsessed with losing weight when I didn;t need it, I set myself up for years of worrying and messing up my weight, balance and metabolism. In the last three years of high school, my life has become a yo-yo hell. A couple of days of severe dieting, then a binge, then I feel disgusting and just "HAVE" to go back to crazy-dieting-and-excercise again to make up for it, but then I binge again.
Last summer I took up spinning and a healthy-but-reduced diet. In a month and a half I lost a healthy amount of weight and felt GREAT. My skin glowed, I felt amazing, my clothes fit a thousand times better, and best of all my relationship with my parents became a lot better - I could be more natural around them, free of the guilt I usually felt (man, this is sounding waaay too psychology-y).
Then I went to Europe for three weeks and gained it all back and more - let's just say a 3-week binge isn't pretty. This past year I've gained about 15 more pounds with the stress of school.
I'm pretty active usually, so excercise won't be something new. I just know I HAVE to get back on track - especially for my health. I have to re-learn to eat in a balanced way - and hopefully drop the extra baggage on the way...
I'm joining my school's cross-country team today, which is practicing all summer
I have no idea what approach to take to eating...I just hope I can do it (yesterday was my LAST binge, I swear!!)
I love the support I see around this forum, so I hope I get to know many of you and we can all help each other towards our goals
- this was probably way too detailed, ranting and random but I am not skilled at introducing myself..
I've been hanging around this board for a few months now, and now that school's out I decided it's time to join ;-)
I've struggled with my weight since (sadly) 6th grade. Much of the pressure came from my fit-and-thin , slightly-obsessive-about-weight family - especially my mom. I was never overweight, but in 6th and 7th grade my mom considered me "too chubby"...actually, even before that. Now looking at pictures of the time, I was very skinny - the "chubbiness" she saw is basically the not-completely-flat stomach of childhood.
I remember being nine and standing in a GAP dressing room with my mom lecturing me about how we were going to start a diet together. I was very skinny till I was around eight - and after that I was still skinny, I just stopped growing for a while. In middle school I did a big growth stretch, but I also gained some weight because of the counter-effect of my parent's restrictions when I was younger. For example they'd frown and be 'disappointed' if I chose a chocolate ice cream over a fruit bar when I was six or seven - so when I was in middle school and at lunch and on school trips far away from my parents, I'd binge on those foods I had been denied - pastries, chocolate, candy, sweets. I'm embarassed to be telling you all this - but it has to be done to get it out of my system
By becoming obsessed with losing weight when I didn;t need it, I set myself up for years of worrying and messing up my weight, balance and metabolism. In the last three years of high school, my life has become a yo-yo hell. A couple of days of severe dieting, then a binge, then I feel disgusting and just "HAVE" to go back to crazy-dieting-and-excercise again to make up for it, but then I binge again.
Last summer I took up spinning and a healthy-but-reduced diet. In a month and a half I lost a healthy amount of weight and felt GREAT. My skin glowed, I felt amazing, my clothes fit a thousand times better, and best of all my relationship with my parents became a lot better - I could be more natural around them, free of the guilt I usually felt (man, this is sounding waaay too psychology-y).
Then I went to Europe for three weeks and gained it all back and more - let's just say a 3-week binge isn't pretty. This past year I've gained about 15 more pounds with the stress of school.
I'm pretty active usually, so excercise won't be something new. I just know I HAVE to get back on track - especially for my health. I have to re-learn to eat in a balanced way - and hopefully drop the extra baggage on the way...
I'm joining my school's cross-country team today, which is practicing all summer
I have no idea what approach to take to eating...I just hope I can do it (yesterday was my LAST binge, I swear!!)
I love the support I see around this forum, so I hope I get to know many of you and we can all help each other towards our goals
- this was probably way too detailed, ranting and random but I am not skilled at introducing myself..
