Ok, so we've all heard that "patience is a virtue," but it seems to be a virtue not so in tune with my temperment. When I want to lose weight, I want to do it as QUICKLY as possible. But, I know this isn't healthy and can just lead to "yo-yo" dieting, which I've been through many times. I don't want my life to be defined by cycles of gaining and losing weight...I want to be in control of and satisified with my weight. Easier said then done, right?
When I was in college I severly restricted my intake, which made me skinny, but screwed with my relationship with food. After all those years of restricting, I undertook a construct of eating whatever I wanted. Now I'm grappling with never again wanting to be tied to counting calories or semi-starving myself, but needing to lose weight because I have been binging for so long and it makes me unhappy (and is in turn tied to stress and life issues). (Question for anyone who has had similar issues like this in the past: How do you go from this to healthy control? How do you lose weight when you need to after doing it when you didn't really need to?)
Well, rather than posting my calories or daily intakes, what I really want to focus on (at least in the beginning) is being patient and just "eating normally." What is normal? I don't want to binge, don't want to stress eat, don't want to eat just for the sake of doing something or to get my mind off of something else. So that's my initial goal: to control my eating to moderate-sized meals and, when needed, snacks. That's all I want for now! Control for me is a sort of scary word, but I know I need to develop a better frame of mind.
Today, I already overate. Sometimes when I do that early in the day, I think, "well, I've already ruined today, so it doesn't matter." My first step is realizing it does matter. My next step is trying to prevent over-eating. I'll check in again!
When I was in college I severly restricted my intake, which made me skinny, but screwed with my relationship with food. After all those years of restricting, I undertook a construct of eating whatever I wanted. Now I'm grappling with never again wanting to be tied to counting calories or semi-starving myself, but needing to lose weight because I have been binging for so long and it makes me unhappy (and is in turn tied to stress and life issues). (Question for anyone who has had similar issues like this in the past: How do you go from this to healthy control? How do you lose weight when you need to after doing it when you didn't really need to?)
Well, rather than posting my calories or daily intakes, what I really want to focus on (at least in the beginning) is being patient and just "eating normally." What is normal? I don't want to binge, don't want to stress eat, don't want to eat just for the sake of doing something or to get my mind off of something else. So that's my initial goal: to control my eating to moderate-sized meals and, when needed, snacks. That's all I want for now! Control for me is a sort of scary word, but I know I need to develop a better frame of mind.
Today, I already overate. Sometimes when I do that early in the day, I think, "well, I've already ruined today, so it doesn't matter." My first step is realizing it does matter. My next step is trying to prevent over-eating. I'll check in again!
