Hi, I'm new here... let me start with a bit of information about myself. I'm 16 years old. I weigh 131 pounds (as of this morning). But I am only 5'1. I've struggled with body image for years. My stomach always looks bloated and my legs look very large as well. I look like I weigh closer to 150 pounds. I'm an athlete, so the muscles don't help, in fact, the calf muscles are so big that people have called me fat and body shamed me over my calves. People at school also have shamed me for my stomach. In my Freshman year of high school, one boy told me I looked pregnant and asked who the father was.
I've tried every year to lose weight... usually in summer. In 2016, I weighed 140 pounds at age 14, only standing at 4'11. I actually lost about 7 pounds just with better eating habits. The problem is, I'm a stress eater, and I gained it back after I started going to back school, because I have social anxiety and the kids stress me out. I've always been a really good student, so I push myself really hard to get straight A's, and it causes me a lot of stress.
This continued into 2017, when in the summer I tried to lose weight again. I didn't really stick with it, but during the last week of august, I didn't eat anything. I wanted to be skinny for school. I completely lost my stomach and I could see my bones. It was awesome. I felt super confident. But it hurt. I couldn't stick with starving myself because, as I mentioned before, I'm an athlete. (I do workout quite a bit.), and also, because the pain in my stomach was unbearable.
This summer, 2018, I've managed to lose 10 pounds. I'm down to 131 now. I've been taking laxatives and it helped me lose a considerable amount of weight, so I'm upping my dosage. However, I don't want to take them forever, but I'm afraid I'll regain all the weight back if I stop. I still need to lose 15-20 pounds to reach my goal of being the average weight for my age and height.
As I mentioned before, I'm a stress eater. I get home from school, and I just eat and watch TV until my dad gets home. My dad has shamed me for my eating habits in the past and it only makes it worse, because whenever he's gone, I eat everything he doesn't allow me to eat. When he's home, I eat pretty well. He also pressures me into working out. He gives me workout programs and tells me to do them. Sometimes I wish he'd just let me be a kid for the last year and a half before college.
Since I'm not in school right now, I've been eating less because I don't get home and just eat. I'm worried that when September rolls around and I'm in school again, I'll gain it all back.
How can I get down to 110-115 pounds (healthy & average weight for my height) and not gain it back? How can I flatten my stomach and keep it that way? How can I destroy my eating habits? I feel like the only thing keeping me under 150 is my rigorous athletic schedule.
P.S: I've been reading a lot of everyone's posts on here, and I wish you all the best of luck!
I've tried every year to lose weight... usually in summer. In 2016, I weighed 140 pounds at age 14, only standing at 4'11. I actually lost about 7 pounds just with better eating habits. The problem is, I'm a stress eater, and I gained it back after I started going to back school, because I have social anxiety and the kids stress me out. I've always been a really good student, so I push myself really hard to get straight A's, and it causes me a lot of stress.
This continued into 2017, when in the summer I tried to lose weight again. I didn't really stick with it, but during the last week of august, I didn't eat anything. I wanted to be skinny for school. I completely lost my stomach and I could see my bones. It was awesome. I felt super confident. But it hurt. I couldn't stick with starving myself because, as I mentioned before, I'm an athlete. (I do workout quite a bit.), and also, because the pain in my stomach was unbearable.
This summer, 2018, I've managed to lose 10 pounds. I'm down to 131 now. I've been taking laxatives and it helped me lose a considerable amount of weight, so I'm upping my dosage. However, I don't want to take them forever, but I'm afraid I'll regain all the weight back if I stop. I still need to lose 15-20 pounds to reach my goal of being the average weight for my age and height.
As I mentioned before, I'm a stress eater. I get home from school, and I just eat and watch TV until my dad gets home. My dad has shamed me for my eating habits in the past and it only makes it worse, because whenever he's gone, I eat everything he doesn't allow me to eat. When he's home, I eat pretty well. He also pressures me into working out. He gives me workout programs and tells me to do them. Sometimes I wish he'd just let me be a kid for the last year and a half before college.
Since I'm not in school right now, I've been eating less because I don't get home and just eat. I'm worried that when September rolls around and I'm in school again, I'll gain it all back.
How can I get down to 110-115 pounds (healthy & average weight for my height) and not gain it back? How can I flatten my stomach and keep it that way? How can I destroy my eating habits? I feel like the only thing keeping me under 150 is my rigorous athletic schedule.
P.S: I've been reading a lot of everyone's posts on here, and I wish you all the best of luck!
