Goldilocks
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Hi! I'm looking forward to a big change in 2016! I'm ready to take care of myself and get my weight under control. I've been overweight my whole life, but have been active in marching band, softball, and some biking off and on. I'm planning to buy a bike as soon as it warms up and get back into that because I love it and I can go at my own pace. I played softball last year after a 10 year break and loved it but I'm one of the worst players because I'm so out of shape and it's embarrassing. I'm going to take this year off from softball and focus on taking care of myself and hopefully join again next year when I'm in better shape and can contribute more to the team.
I've been happily married for 3 1/2 years. My husband is overweight, but not nearly as much as me. I'm 5'3'' and I can't remember ever being under 190 lbs, although I'm sure I was as a kid. Up until I met my husband, I had been 220 almost my entire adult life and thought I had reached my plateau. Before my wedding, I lost 30 pounds and maintained it for a little while. However, not long after, I started gaining weight. One reason, I believe, is that I'm a teacher and I changed my style of teaching, which actually means I sit down almost the entire day instead of stand up like I used to. I didn't realize it at the time, but I was burning a lot of calories by standing up all day. For the past year and 1/2, I've gone back up to 220 and then I kept going. I'm now 276 freaking pounds!
Obesity runs in my family. My sister was up to 352 pounds and had gastric bypass. She's now under 200 pounds! However, that is her journey and not mine. I do not want to have the surgery and deal with that - I know it's not the "easy way out" and it's very difficult to go through. I'd rather focus on WHY I'm eating the way I do and learn how to have victory over it. I've recently discovered that I have BED - Binge Eating Disorder. I've been dealing with this since at least High School, but nobody understood it as an eating disorder back then (late 90s). My parents are part of the reason I developed this disorder - emotional, verbal, and physical abuse mostly from my dad and then my mom enabling him - but I've made amends and forgiven them so I can move on with my healing and recovery.
I've already decided to go back to a style of teaching that allows me to stand up most of the time, starting as soon as the break is over. I know this will definitely help boost my metabolism, but I'm worried about sore feet and knees, especially since I've gained so much weight. However, I'm determined to push myself and finally focus on my own needs. I'm also going to track what I'm eating and follow common sense - less junk, more healthy, natural whole foods.
I could write a book, so I should stop there for now. Looking forward to reading others' stories and sharing my own!
I've been happily married for 3 1/2 years. My husband is overweight, but not nearly as much as me. I'm 5'3'' and I can't remember ever being under 190 lbs, although I'm sure I was as a kid. Up until I met my husband, I had been 220 almost my entire adult life and thought I had reached my plateau. Before my wedding, I lost 30 pounds and maintained it for a little while. However, not long after, I started gaining weight. One reason, I believe, is that I'm a teacher and I changed my style of teaching, which actually means I sit down almost the entire day instead of stand up like I used to. I didn't realize it at the time, but I was burning a lot of calories by standing up all day. For the past year and 1/2, I've gone back up to 220 and then I kept going. I'm now 276 freaking pounds!
Obesity runs in my family. My sister was up to 352 pounds and had gastric bypass. She's now under 200 pounds! However, that is her journey and not mine. I do not want to have the surgery and deal with that - I know it's not the "easy way out" and it's very difficult to go through. I'd rather focus on WHY I'm eating the way I do and learn how to have victory over it. I've recently discovered that I have BED - Binge Eating Disorder. I've been dealing with this since at least High School, but nobody understood it as an eating disorder back then (late 90s). My parents are part of the reason I developed this disorder - emotional, verbal, and physical abuse mostly from my dad and then my mom enabling him - but I've made amends and forgiven them so I can move on with my healing and recovery.
I've already decided to go back to a style of teaching that allows me to stand up most of the time, starting as soon as the break is over. I know this will definitely help boost my metabolism, but I'm worried about sore feet and knees, especially since I've gained so much weight. However, I'm determined to push myself and finally focus on my own needs. I'm also going to track what I'm eating and follow common sense - less junk, more healthy, natural whole foods.
I could write a book, so I should stop there for now. Looking forward to reading others' stories and sharing my own!
