britishvixen21
New member
Hello everyone im new here and new to trying once again to get in shape heres a little bit about my story so far.
For months now ive felt really bad about my appearance, ive always had good confidence in the way I carry myself but I knew that I was slowly putting on wieght and before I knew it i was back to 200lb (something i got to a couple of years back) all my hard work and starvation had been for nothing as I was back to where i started. I also felt sluggish all the time, ate crap, and was getting heartburn every night.
However just recently I had been having lunch with a good freind at work Jonathon, He is a complete health nut and a vegetarian to boot, we had been shopping at loblaws once a week and buying all sorts of yummy cheeses and salads and wholewheat pitta breads. I loved it he is an amazing cook and can make an old bit of cheese and some salad leeves an amazing and filling meal with ZERO fat.
Jonathon also being Jonathon has never pulled any punches and says exactly how he feels part of the reason I love him so much he has the integrity to be a honest but warm human being
(dont worry im not having an affair with him Jonathon is gayer than Christmas another reason I love him cos he makes a great shopping partner)
Anyways enough of kissing Jonathons a**, We were chatting and he said you have such a pretty face you need to dress better, and eat better and get fit, no one is going to hire you fat blah blah blah.
On my way home the other night I thought long and hard about what he had said and i though he was right im so unfit right now, theres a long histroy of heart disease in my family, If i keep treating my body like i do il end up 300lb sitting in my apartment lonely watching montel eating potatoe chips, il die and no one will find me for 3 weeks and when htey do il be half eaten by a starving Monty and Cali LOL.
When I got off the subway at my stop, I stood on the platform and thought that I had two choices I could walk the 5 steps to the bus get on it, go home and sit and eat again. or i could walk 10 steps to the Goodlife gym in the station that i walked past looking in, in wonder whenever I went to the Chinese restaurant.
So i did the latter, I went in and saw a lovely girl who joined me up took me around and said that my goals of losing wieght and feeling good were possible and that comming in was the first step.
The next day I went grocery shopping and bought all healthy foods no fat, good food. lots of veg and no fat yoghurts.
I had already been eating good with Jonathon during the day and now it was time to do it at home.
I went for my orientation today, i stood nervously with the other newbies I was the fattest one there but as we walked around the gym there were women of at least 75 working out and women far heavier than me, and soon my worries had left me and I was eager for the guy to finish so I could get to work on my fat a** and saggy abs.
I worked out for 2 hours!!!! I did a full circuit of wieght training like he showed us and then 10 minutes on bike, 10 on the treadmill and 10 on this huge climbing thing!
As I sat on the bike I looked left and saw the window and look at the people outside heading for the chinese restaurant, A wash of self satisfaction came over me as a i realised I had finally made it to the other side of the glass!!!
As I got off I wobbled my legs were dead and my head dripped with sweat
but OMG did i feel good. As I walked out of the gym eating an apple drinking water I felt lighter, happier, and prouder than i had done in so long!
Im going to ache like nothing before tommorow but im still going to get up after watching Coronation Street head back on down there and workl out again!
My only concern is that I have a horrible habit of getting very excited and into something for a couple of weeks then I get bored, If there are any suggestions for how to keep motivated id appreciate it.
I look forward to meeting all the other like minded members, and thanks for h
For months now ive felt really bad about my appearance, ive always had good confidence in the way I carry myself but I knew that I was slowly putting on wieght and before I knew it i was back to 200lb (something i got to a couple of years back) all my hard work and starvation had been for nothing as I was back to where i started. I also felt sluggish all the time, ate crap, and was getting heartburn every night.
However just recently I had been having lunch with a good freind at work Jonathon, He is a complete health nut and a vegetarian to boot, we had been shopping at loblaws once a week and buying all sorts of yummy cheeses and salads and wholewheat pitta breads. I loved it he is an amazing cook and can make an old bit of cheese and some salad leeves an amazing and filling meal with ZERO fat.
Jonathon also being Jonathon has never pulled any punches and says exactly how he feels part of the reason I love him so much he has the integrity to be a honest but warm human being
(dont worry im not having an affair with him Jonathon is gayer than Christmas another reason I love him cos he makes a great shopping partner)
Anyways enough of kissing Jonathons a**, We were chatting and he said you have such a pretty face you need to dress better, and eat better and get fit, no one is going to hire you fat blah blah blah.
On my way home the other night I thought long and hard about what he had said and i though he was right im so unfit right now, theres a long histroy of heart disease in my family, If i keep treating my body like i do il end up 300lb sitting in my apartment lonely watching montel eating potatoe chips, il die and no one will find me for 3 weeks and when htey do il be half eaten by a starving Monty and Cali LOL.
When I got off the subway at my stop, I stood on the platform and thought that I had two choices I could walk the 5 steps to the bus get on it, go home and sit and eat again. or i could walk 10 steps to the Goodlife gym in the station that i walked past looking in, in wonder whenever I went to the Chinese restaurant.
So i did the latter, I went in and saw a lovely girl who joined me up took me around and said that my goals of losing wieght and feeling good were possible and that comming in was the first step.
The next day I went grocery shopping and bought all healthy foods no fat, good food. lots of veg and no fat yoghurts.
I had already been eating good with Jonathon during the day and now it was time to do it at home.
I went for my orientation today, i stood nervously with the other newbies I was the fattest one there but as we walked around the gym there were women of at least 75 working out and women far heavier than me, and soon my worries had left me and I was eager for the guy to finish so I could get to work on my fat a** and saggy abs.
I worked out for 2 hours!!!! I did a full circuit of wieght training like he showed us and then 10 minutes on bike, 10 on the treadmill and 10 on this huge climbing thing!
As I sat on the bike I looked left and saw the window and look at the people outside heading for the chinese restaurant, A wash of self satisfaction came over me as a i realised I had finally made it to the other side of the glass!!!
As I got off I wobbled my legs were dead and my head dripped with sweat
but OMG did i feel good. As I walked out of the gym eating an apple drinking water I felt lighter, happier, and prouder than i had done in so long!
Im going to ache like nothing before tommorow but im still going to get up after watching Coronation Street head back on down there and workl out again!
My only concern is that I have a horrible habit of getting very excited and into something for a couple of weeks then I get bored, If there are any suggestions for how to keep motivated id appreciate it.
I look forward to meeting all the other like minded members, and thanks for h
i figure that ought to discourage me from giving up! also, what I have done is create a mental picture of myself of what I am going to look like after I lose all of this weight. then if i have a moment of weakness and start to veer offcourse, I picture myself after having lost the weight. it worked today. i almost went to a fast food place for lunch, but after picturing myself thin and healthy, i was like no, i will eat the lunch that i packed. and I also come on here read about other's successes and get some support and that helps too. you will do this!