Debbie2
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Long ago, I used to work out avidly, but I also found myself anorexic and later bulimic.
I was a divorced mom, raising five daughters alone, including financially and of course ate due to stress. I ballooned up from 180 to 320. And, I did not eat very much, but I did consume about 24 colas a day. I am now diabetic, but not on insulin yet. The damage has been done however.
When I was diagnosed, I stopped the colas and went to other drinks and over the span of 2 years, weaned off any drinks, other than 1 cup of coffee (no sugar), organic tea (no sugar) and ... water. We actually no longer buy sugar. I could not stop grabbing a breakfast sandwich or a burger - I'd convince myself, it was just this once.
I had so much trouble regulating my blood sugar and learning how to eat better. I actually had stopped eating processed foods and found out I also had issues with gluten. I already have issues with red meat by the way.
A little over a year ago, I went into deep shock from internal bleeding, and they found ulcers in my upper GI but the bleeding they felt was from lower GI issues, which I have a considerable amount of. I also caught pneumonia and was on a ventilator. They found a blood clot and I almost did not make it. I was in ICU for a bit.
The recovery has been difficult. Due to the blood transfusion, I was anemic for a bit.
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Basically, I did buy a very nice treadmill and rowing machine, but I'm terrified of hurting myself.
I eat organic food, but cannot seem to lose weight. I'm not a big eater, my problem was that I always drank away my hunger with sugar drinks, which I no longer do.
Yes, I have managed to not cheat on my diet. I do not drink colas, am able to say no to desserts and I'm managing my meals better.
But then I don't... because I fall back into skipping meals. and I get tired, run down.
I cannot seem to get on the treadmill or rowing machine even 10 minutes a day.
By the time I get home from work, I'm exhausted.
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So I am here, because I know I am doing something wrong. I'm missing things from my meal plan (I eat 2 eggs (organic) every morning w/ soy cheese for my protein and I have a salad for lunch/supper (no meat, no dressing, just the minimal basics).
Sometimes I'll have chicken (organic and small amounts) and sometimes fresh (not farmed) fish. But this might be once a month. I'll have squash w/ them - no spices or anything.
Yet, I don't lose any weight.
I am 55 now.
I feel good. I feel better than I have in a long time. I monitor my blood sugar and do not need snacks through the day now to keep my blood sugar regulated, I keep water with me and I find that I'm able to not cheat on my diet - and manage this well.
But I'm stuck weight wise and I know I need to eat more.
I look at photos and I know I need to drop this weight also.
Medically, gastric issues and diabetes and the healed ulcers (all gone). I don't smoke or drink and not on any medication. I do take time release iron, I take fiber jellies and vitamins.
My sugar is creamer for my coffee but just 1 cup per day.
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Thank you and sorry for my wall of words.
You know, I used to love working out but they did find a hernia in my large intestine, a small one. I'm so afraid of ending back up in the hospital, but I don't like my weight or inability to walk far.
Debbie
I was a divorced mom, raising five daughters alone, including financially and of course ate due to stress. I ballooned up from 180 to 320. And, I did not eat very much, but I did consume about 24 colas a day. I am now diabetic, but not on insulin yet. The damage has been done however.
When I was diagnosed, I stopped the colas and went to other drinks and over the span of 2 years, weaned off any drinks, other than 1 cup of coffee (no sugar), organic tea (no sugar) and ... water. We actually no longer buy sugar. I could not stop grabbing a breakfast sandwich or a burger - I'd convince myself, it was just this once.
I had so much trouble regulating my blood sugar and learning how to eat better. I actually had stopped eating processed foods and found out I also had issues with gluten. I already have issues with red meat by the way.
A little over a year ago, I went into deep shock from internal bleeding, and they found ulcers in my upper GI but the bleeding they felt was from lower GI issues, which I have a considerable amount of. I also caught pneumonia and was on a ventilator. They found a blood clot and I almost did not make it. I was in ICU for a bit.
The recovery has been difficult. Due to the blood transfusion, I was anemic for a bit.
--
Basically, I did buy a very nice treadmill and rowing machine, but I'm terrified of hurting myself.
I eat organic food, but cannot seem to lose weight. I'm not a big eater, my problem was that I always drank away my hunger with sugar drinks, which I no longer do.
Yes, I have managed to not cheat on my diet. I do not drink colas, am able to say no to desserts and I'm managing my meals better.
But then I don't... because I fall back into skipping meals. and I get tired, run down.
I cannot seem to get on the treadmill or rowing machine even 10 minutes a day.
By the time I get home from work, I'm exhausted.
---
So I am here, because I know I am doing something wrong. I'm missing things from my meal plan (I eat 2 eggs (organic) every morning w/ soy cheese for my protein and I have a salad for lunch/supper (no meat, no dressing, just the minimal basics).
Sometimes I'll have chicken (organic and small amounts) and sometimes fresh (not farmed) fish. But this might be once a month. I'll have squash w/ them - no spices or anything.
Yet, I don't lose any weight.
I am 55 now.
I feel good. I feel better than I have in a long time. I monitor my blood sugar and do not need snacks through the day now to keep my blood sugar regulated, I keep water with me and I find that I'm able to not cheat on my diet - and manage this well.
But I'm stuck weight wise and I know I need to eat more.
I look at photos and I know I need to drop this weight also.
Medically, gastric issues and diabetes and the healed ulcers (all gone). I don't smoke or drink and not on any medication. I do take time release iron, I take fiber jellies and vitamins.
My sugar is creamer for my coffee but just 1 cup per day.
--
Thank you and sorry for my wall of words.
You know, I used to love working out but they did find a hernia in my large intestine, a small one. I'm so afraid of ending back up in the hospital, but I don't like my weight or inability to walk far.
Debbie