Motivation needed

[boomershame]

So I have been trying to lose weight all my life. Ive finally managed to sort of change the way I look at food, and finally can enjoy healthy food and get excited about it. And Ive managed to lose some weight. Now of course I do have managed to lose weight previously in my life, but then for some reason my mind kind of self destructs and talks me into failing. One of the thoughts that always pop into my head is: " If I would die tomorrow (in a car crash or whatever) would I really want a carrot to be my last meal?", "Why not enjoy filthy food when I know that makes me feel better short term just to have that last good feeling?"
As I write this now Im like "How stupid to think that way, just stop " But once i start thinking it, it goes on repeat in my head.
Anyone else thinks like this?, and anyone have a counter thought i could be thinking instead?
Cause I have managed to replace other thoughts like this with more positive once, but this one I just cant change. Cause it is true. We could all just die tomorrow, so why not enjoy it while it lasts.
Such a destructive way to think.
Thanks for listening

 

[Brooke1]

There are so many days that I have this same problem. The want to eventually be truly okay and purely content with yourself, but everything could be gone in the blink of an eye while your overweight, or not overweight friend is enjoying the hell out of some delicious looking pie that you refuse to eat due to guilty feelings after eating and the fear of gaining. Terrible circle of repeated feelings and hesitation...

 

[boomershame]

Its hard to not make the world revolve around food anymore. Like I know its not the most important thing in life, but it often feels like it, when its what is on my mind most of the time. Escpecially when dieting. When I diet and dont want to be a slave to food, I have to make food the biggest part of my life, compared to when I just eat whatever. The irony is painful

 

[Dreaming Airman]

I have struggled with motivation to lose weight my entire life. I have finally just said enough is enough and am finally going to get it done. I even started a blog to document my journey at dreamingairman17.wordpress.com. I figured it would be a way for me to talk and write myself through everything.