MindWarrior
New member
DAY 1
Sunday, February 10, 2019
Welcome to my diary! This is where I will log my challenges, my victories and my defeats.
My stats:
Sex: Male
Age: 36
Chest: 44"
Waist: 46"
Hips: 48"
L-Bicep limp: 15"
L-Bicep flexed: 16.5"
R-Bicep limp: 14.7"
R-Bicep flexed: 16"
L-Thigh: 27"
R-Thigh: 28"
L-Calve: 16.5"
R-Calve: 16.25"
Weight: 265 lbs
Height: 6'2
BMI: 34
Fat%: 38.5%
Fat weight: 102 lbs
Muscle%: 28.5%
Muscle weight: 75.5 lbs
Current goal: lose 50 lbs (weigh 215 lbs)
Start date: February 10, 2019
Deadline: June 1, 2019 (16 weeks)
I hope thats a realistic goal, but that deadline isn't set in stone, I just want to be in shape for the summer.
So I've been trying to get fit for 20 years. I've tried to diet everyday, and almost every day I've failed. I've been able to last up to a week sometimes, but eventually I cave to inevitability. I've tried so many things: weight loss programs, focusing on good feelings of being fit, visualizing my future, therapy, personal training, workout dvds, weight loss competition, making bets, goal setting, affirmations, calorie counting, strengthening will power, becoming a mailman, exercise video games, having a diet/workout buddy, meal plans, learning of the struggles of living with diabetes, heart disease, stroke, etc. But again and again, I am frustrated by failure. Junk food tastes too good! I just find myself weighing more and more over time. And here I am now, the heaviest I've ever been in my life, the heaviest one in my family, and having my first signs of serious health problems.
It seems so hopeless! Even if I give it all I got today, how can I guarantee my future self will consistently not eat junk food. All it takes is one moment to fail, one little bout of stress and comfort food! In a 24 hour day, thats ALOT of moments to get through. And 16 weeks of that seems quite impossible. I've always justified eating by thinking "What's one more? I'll restart the diet right after this" and repeat and repeat and repeat. Junk food is so delicious! I cannot honestly say that being fit feels better than food tastes, it's more the opposite for me. I feel like I live for that junk food taste! Plus, getting fit takes months, but I can have junk food right now! Unlike addictions like alcohol and cigarettes, I can't just avoid stores that sell it. I have to buy food to survive, and that means walking threw aisles of junk food to get to the healthy food. Then I encounter it on the road with nice convenient drive thru's. I encounter it at work and other places with vending machines. I can't even escape it at home, now that you can order everything with the tap of a few buttons in an app! They say you need a strong enough "Why", but honestly, I really don't. My reasons to lose weight are weak and passionless. Yeah, it would feel good to look good, but not as good as that delicious junk food. This is a terrible attitude, but I can't pretend junk food tastes bad, no matter how hard I try to associate it to disgusting things or health problems, it is still the most amazing pleasure ever. Thats just how it is, whether I like it or not.
Wow, what a problem! Seems like I have no chance here, might as well just eat myself to death. Short fun life is better than a long boring one, right? 20 whole years of constant failure! How can anyone still have any morale left in them after that! That's the situation, and all I got to say to that is:
WHAT MORE COULD A WARRIOR ASK FOR! Problems like these gleam like sunshine to the warrior's eye! And this one is the ultimate battle. The battlefield is the mind, the enemy is cravings and laziness. I live to fight the good fight, and this one will be epic! This being such a difficult challenge will make victory over it all the more sweeter! Well challenge accepted! Today I declare war on fat! Should I fall again, I will get right back up and come back at the fight twice as hard! The past is ancient history. My younger self couldn't contend with the cravings, but now I have grown wiser and stronger. I expect this to be a very very hard fight, full of anguish, struggle and sheer suffering....
I LOOK FORWARD TO IT!
Now lets talk battle strategy! I'm quite heavy now, so I will use that to my advantage. I don't like being so heavy, but I may as well make the most of the situation. I will do exercises that force me to lift myself:
Resistance training
-Chin ups
-Push ups
-Squats
-Sit ups
-Leg ups
-Hip raises
Grow the muscles into big fat burning factories! I will do these daily before I do cardio, 6 days a week.
Cardio
For cardio, I will go out running each day and head for a gigantic wooden staircase down in the river valley that has 243 steps. I'll see how many times I can climb it. I like the stairs because I don't have to think too much, I just make it my goal to make it to the top. Its also automatic HIIT cardio, because going up is high intensity, going down is low intensity, so it will drive up my metabolism all day long. As I get better, I'll take double steps, run, etc. I'm going to do this every morning except for Saturday, so 6 times a week. I intend to climb a mountain this summer, so this will be good training. In the evenings I like to play video games, so instead of sitting on the couch with a controller, I'm going to play my Playstation Virtual Reality and play boxing games. These games give me one hell of a workout, I usually huffing and puffing after one round.
Nutrition
The only food I buy will be strictly controlled shopping trips to the grocery store. Healthy food only! Lots of veggies for salads, and nice lean meats. I need to make sure I always have healthy food on hand. I tend to worry about money alot and try to save, so I will use that to get me to avoid buying any food outside of the controlled grocery trip. I'm going to allow one cheat meal per week, cause I hear thats a good idea, but this will only happen as a reward after an entire week of being good.
I'm going to do intermittent fasting, as it seems like a good fit for me. I like the idea of having a window when I do my eating, and then after that just not concern myself with it at all. Its also good for training me to get comfortable with unfulfillment and get the benefits of fasting without starving.
Mind
This is the most important part, since it is the mind that will make or break the above plan. I enjoy watching youtube alot, so now I will seek out more videos of people living with diabetes, heart disease, stroke, heart attack, etc. I've done this before, but I need to do it more and more and never stop. Since avoiding pain and seeking pleasure seems to be a priority to my mind, I will get it to the point where I'm really feeling all the pain I'm going to be in should I stay on the path I'm on. I'll also look up motivational videos and fitness nuts and try and let them influence me.
Now all that is good, but none of it has worked in the past. What will make this work this time is making this diary, right here! I will publicize my fight and hence be held accountable for it all now. I swear with all my honor that should I eat any more junk food than one cheat meal a week, I will fess up and post my fail on here, and why. Should I skip a workout, I also swear I will fess up and make a post in this diary explaining myself. In the event that I'm too sore for workout I will work a muscle thats not sore, but say legs are super sore and doing cardio seems dangerous, I will do yoga/stretching instead to assist in recovery, but I will not sit on the couch and do nothing.
Now, time to get started! Its 8AM, time to excersize! Here I goooo...YYYYYAAAAAAA!!!!!!
Sunday, February 10, 2019
Welcome to my diary! This is where I will log my challenges, my victories and my defeats.
My stats:
Sex: Male
Age: 36
Chest: 44"
Waist: 46"
Hips: 48"
L-Bicep limp: 15"
L-Bicep flexed: 16.5"
R-Bicep limp: 14.7"
R-Bicep flexed: 16"
L-Thigh: 27"
R-Thigh: 28"
L-Calve: 16.5"
R-Calve: 16.25"
Weight: 265 lbs
Height: 6'2
BMI: 34
Fat%: 38.5%
Fat weight: 102 lbs
Muscle%: 28.5%
Muscle weight: 75.5 lbs
Current goal: lose 50 lbs (weigh 215 lbs)
Start date: February 10, 2019
Deadline: June 1, 2019 (16 weeks)
I hope thats a realistic goal, but that deadline isn't set in stone, I just want to be in shape for the summer.
So I've been trying to get fit for 20 years. I've tried to diet everyday, and almost every day I've failed. I've been able to last up to a week sometimes, but eventually I cave to inevitability. I've tried so many things: weight loss programs, focusing on good feelings of being fit, visualizing my future, therapy, personal training, workout dvds, weight loss competition, making bets, goal setting, affirmations, calorie counting, strengthening will power, becoming a mailman, exercise video games, having a diet/workout buddy, meal plans, learning of the struggles of living with diabetes, heart disease, stroke, etc. But again and again, I am frustrated by failure. Junk food tastes too good! I just find myself weighing more and more over time. And here I am now, the heaviest I've ever been in my life, the heaviest one in my family, and having my first signs of serious health problems.
It seems so hopeless! Even if I give it all I got today, how can I guarantee my future self will consistently not eat junk food. All it takes is one moment to fail, one little bout of stress and comfort food! In a 24 hour day, thats ALOT of moments to get through. And 16 weeks of that seems quite impossible. I've always justified eating by thinking "What's one more? I'll restart the diet right after this" and repeat and repeat and repeat. Junk food is so delicious! I cannot honestly say that being fit feels better than food tastes, it's more the opposite for me. I feel like I live for that junk food taste! Plus, getting fit takes months, but I can have junk food right now! Unlike addictions like alcohol and cigarettes, I can't just avoid stores that sell it. I have to buy food to survive, and that means walking threw aisles of junk food to get to the healthy food. Then I encounter it on the road with nice convenient drive thru's. I encounter it at work and other places with vending machines. I can't even escape it at home, now that you can order everything with the tap of a few buttons in an app! They say you need a strong enough "Why", but honestly, I really don't. My reasons to lose weight are weak and passionless. Yeah, it would feel good to look good, but not as good as that delicious junk food. This is a terrible attitude, but I can't pretend junk food tastes bad, no matter how hard I try to associate it to disgusting things or health problems, it is still the most amazing pleasure ever. Thats just how it is, whether I like it or not.
Wow, what a problem! Seems like I have no chance here, might as well just eat myself to death. Short fun life is better than a long boring one, right? 20 whole years of constant failure! How can anyone still have any morale left in them after that! That's the situation, and all I got to say to that is:
WHAT MORE COULD A WARRIOR ASK FOR! Problems like these gleam like sunshine to the warrior's eye! And this one is the ultimate battle. The battlefield is the mind, the enemy is cravings and laziness. I live to fight the good fight, and this one will be epic! This being such a difficult challenge will make victory over it all the more sweeter! Well challenge accepted! Today I declare war on fat! Should I fall again, I will get right back up and come back at the fight twice as hard! The past is ancient history. My younger self couldn't contend with the cravings, but now I have grown wiser and stronger. I expect this to be a very very hard fight, full of anguish, struggle and sheer suffering....
I LOOK FORWARD TO IT!
Now lets talk battle strategy! I'm quite heavy now, so I will use that to my advantage. I don't like being so heavy, but I may as well make the most of the situation. I will do exercises that force me to lift myself:
Resistance training
-Chin ups
-Push ups
-Squats
-Sit ups
-Leg ups
-Hip raises
Grow the muscles into big fat burning factories! I will do these daily before I do cardio, 6 days a week.
Cardio
For cardio, I will go out running each day and head for a gigantic wooden staircase down in the river valley that has 243 steps. I'll see how many times I can climb it. I like the stairs because I don't have to think too much, I just make it my goal to make it to the top. Its also automatic HIIT cardio, because going up is high intensity, going down is low intensity, so it will drive up my metabolism all day long. As I get better, I'll take double steps, run, etc. I'm going to do this every morning except for Saturday, so 6 times a week. I intend to climb a mountain this summer, so this will be good training. In the evenings I like to play video games, so instead of sitting on the couch with a controller, I'm going to play my Playstation Virtual Reality and play boxing games. These games give me one hell of a workout, I usually huffing and puffing after one round.
Nutrition
The only food I buy will be strictly controlled shopping trips to the grocery store. Healthy food only! Lots of veggies for salads, and nice lean meats. I need to make sure I always have healthy food on hand. I tend to worry about money alot and try to save, so I will use that to get me to avoid buying any food outside of the controlled grocery trip. I'm going to allow one cheat meal per week, cause I hear thats a good idea, but this will only happen as a reward after an entire week of being good.
I'm going to do intermittent fasting, as it seems like a good fit for me. I like the idea of having a window when I do my eating, and then after that just not concern myself with it at all. Its also good for training me to get comfortable with unfulfillment and get the benefits of fasting without starving.
Mind
This is the most important part, since it is the mind that will make or break the above plan. I enjoy watching youtube alot, so now I will seek out more videos of people living with diabetes, heart disease, stroke, heart attack, etc. I've done this before, but I need to do it more and more and never stop. Since avoiding pain and seeking pleasure seems to be a priority to my mind, I will get it to the point where I'm really feeling all the pain I'm going to be in should I stay on the path I'm on. I'll also look up motivational videos and fitness nuts and try and let them influence me.
Now all that is good, but none of it has worked in the past. What will make this work this time is making this diary, right here! I will publicize my fight and hence be held accountable for it all now. I swear with all my honor that should I eat any more junk food than one cheat meal a week, I will fess up and post my fail on here, and why. Should I skip a workout, I also swear I will fess up and make a post in this diary explaining myself. In the event that I'm too sore for workout I will work a muscle thats not sore, but say legs are super sore and doing cardio seems dangerous, I will do yoga/stretching instead to assist in recovery, but I will not sit on the couch and do nothing.
Now, time to get started! Its 8AM, time to excersize! Here I goooo...YYYYYAAAAAAA!!!!!!
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