Lucy's diary

[luzdafuzz]

Hey all...

I have been on and off these forums for several years now. I purged all my past diaries so I'm really starting fresh!

Basically I'm in the home stretch to my goal weight and I need somewhere to vent I guess, about that and the rest of my life!

I think last time I was here I was well over 70kgs and aiming for 65kgs... well, I weighed in at 63kgs on Wed, and now aiming for 57kgs. I used to weight train a lot back then but due to an injury at the start of this year that's a no go... I'm currently unemployed and have been doing full on exercise rehab since Jan (with quite a few setbacks, ha!) So months of being sedentary when very injured, then months of slow/low activity, to now (and the past month). I'm sedentary outside of exercise rehab, but my current routine is stretching for 20mins 3x a day, 20mins of quad strengthening every morning, a daily 20min walk (this started as a 5min walk a month ago, it goes up by 5mins every week) and I do reformer Pilates 4x a week for 30mins- 2 upper body sessions, 2 lower body sessions. I bought the reformer for the house after I used up all my exercise physiology on the health insurance, I now have a hard-ass physio that progresses my routines every fortnight.

Anyway the main reason for the much lower goal weight is my much higher body fat percentage. When I was fit and capable last year and heavier (I think I was 67kgs?) my waist was smaller lol. So vanity is the reason, and fitting my clothes better and hopefully even dropping a size. Also, less weight on my stupid back and my stupid knees and anything else that decides to self-destruct now I've turned 30.

I keep a visual food diary, so I guess I'll start posting those pics here? My aim is a 1500cal average over the week (my week starts on a Wed as we grocery shop on a Tue night).

Eh, goals besides my weight and being able to pick things up off the floor would be feeling good enough to fly home end of October (6 hour flight) because sitting for more than an hour can mess up my day. And if I can sit for 6 hours that means I can get a job of some description when I get back (going for 3 weeks) and I can enrol to study next year. Kind of put my life back together, I feel like I lost a year.

 

[luzdafuzz]

Today's food-

Breakfast (483)- 210g fresh strawberries, 35g oats with 1 egg, 180g almond milk, stevia, vanilla, 20g mayvers smooth peanut butter, 10g macro honey. Coffee with 50g full cream milk (not pictured).

Lunch (408)- pizza with a piece of rye mountain bread as the base folded in half topped with 50g woolworths mozzarella, 100g primo double smoked ham, 1 cup fresh chopped spinach, 20g leggos tomato paste, 50g creative gourmet frozen pineapple. Remedy apple crisp kombucha.

Dinner (362)- Turkey and veg frittata. This was 1 piece of 6, the whole recipe is-

500g Turkey mince
10 eggs
1 whole cooked sweet potato (came out to 344g cooked)
100g frozen diced onion
120g fresh spinach, chopped
1 sunrice quinoa and rice cup
Salt and pepper

Cooked and seasoned the mince, then mixed everything else together and cooked till done.

Also have BCAAS (69) and WPI protein with greens (149).

Totals for the day- 1471cals, 104g carb, 58.3 fat, 118.9 protein.

 

[Cate]

Hi, Lucy & welcome back to the forum, hon.
What a year you have had then! How did you injure yourself? This year must have been so frustrating for you. I can't remember where home is for you. WA?
Congratulations on getting down to your ideal weight. I think that your long-term aim was 60 kg way back, so you have done really, really well. Now I will have your delicious meals to look at to inspire me even more.

 

[luzdafuzz]

Hi Cate, thanks for the welcome back!!

I herniated a disc cleaning the house and irritated one next to it (I think l4-l5-s1)... then irritated my old knee problem 2 weeks later when I tried doing daily walks as part of exercise rehab, ended up with tendinitis in both my quads. I started trying to walk on and off a few times and when my quads were finally ok to walk a bit (I think I had been walking 10mins a day for a week and was seeing the exercise physiologist once a week for pilates at this stage) I slipped on wet tiles in the kitchen and smashed my knee. Went to hospital and it was all good but was on crutches for a week which irritated my lower back again and pretty much put me back at square one. Also really messed my quads up that time. Have had a physio come for home visits since then- used up all my health insurance by then but got my 5 medicare ones as this counts as a chronic issue now. He has been great, used up all my medicare since then and he just comes around once a fortnight and we pay out of pocket. He just makes my quad exercises and pilates routines harder. Honestly out of everything the Pilates has helped more than anything, I don't think I really started to get noticeably better until we bought the reformer so I could do it at home several times a week (instead of just once a week at my old physio office). It's great!! Got the cheapest one in the store though as it was the smallest and anything bigger wouldn't fit in the tiny spare rooms in the house! I really wanted the model up but wasn't keen on the idea of getting rid of the dining table. The small one is fine, it's not preventing me from doing any exercises at all!

I think you're right, my goal would have likely been 60. I'm sad tickers don't seem to work with this new format now!

 

[luzdafuzz]

Only posting today's brekki, the rest of the day will look pretty boring food-wise.

Breakfast (491)- Protein pancakes made with 2 eggs, 80g cottage cheese, 20g green banana flour, salt/ baking powder/ stevia, topped with 100g frozen blueberries and 100g Cocobella coconut yogurt. Also had a coffee with 50g full cream milk which isn't pictured.

Lunch (385)- Same pizza as yesterday

Dinner (472)- 2 eggs, 50g haloumi, 100g cooked pumpkin, 1/2 a potato (raw weight 155g), 100g roast cherry tomatoes with basil

Other- BCAAs (73), choc protein with amazing grass greens powder (135)

Totals- 1556cals, 99.3 carb, 65.2 fat, 125.1 protein.

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Been through my whole Monday morning routine which is 15ish mins stretching, cooking and eating breakfast, quad exercises, 20min walk and then 30mins Pilates for my upper body. My neck and between my shoulder blades are being a bit shit so I had to do a lot of the exercises at a lower resistance than usual. My husband gets chronic migraines and he was ill on his day off so we spent the day on Friday in bed watching TV, I think lying down all day did it. Urgh. Booked a remedial massage for Wed so that should help, and this week is the week the physio comes so he will be here Friday and can check my form and see if I'm doing anything to aggravate it.

Don't have much on for the rest of the day, made a meal plan for the next fortnight so I'll make a shopping list today for tomorrow night... apart from that I think I'll be playing God of War for the rest of the day.

 

[Trusylver]

welcome back

 

[Cate]

Oh- that sucks! What a horrible year you have had!
You should be able to get a ticker. I did one the other day, but then decided to get rid of it, as it was too prominent. Have another try

 

[Llama]

Hi Lucy and welcome back I hope the cycle of injury and re-injury is over now because you´ve definitely had it rough enough. Breakfast looks gorgeous!

 

[Emilyrose]

That pizza in your first post looks unbelievable. Thanks for dropping by my diary, I see what you mean by eating yummy yet nutritious food! Glad to hear you are on the mend and I'm sure you'll have an amazing year ahead to make up for this disappointing one (health-wise at least).

 

[luzdafuzz]

welcome back

Thanks Tru!

Oh- that sucks! What a horrible year you have had!
You should be able to get a ticker. I did one the other day, but then decided to get rid of it, as it was too prominent. Have another try

You know what, now that I said that I'm using my laptop to type this instead of my phone and I can see an old ticker in my signature haha. I'll see if I can update it!

Hi Lucy and welcome back I hope the cycle of injury and re-injury is over now because you´ve definitely had it rough enough. Breakfast looks gorgeous!

Thanks LaMa, I'm very much in a dessert-for-breakfast phase! Pancakes are a bit of an obsession! Also I'm really hoping I've filled my injury quota for a few years, I'm getting pretty sick of living in my room.

That pizza in your first post looks unbelievable. Thanks for dropping by my diary, I see what you mean by eating yummy yet nutritious food! Glad to hear you are on the mend and I'm sure you'll have an amazing year ahead to make up for this disappointing one (health-wise at least).

I didn't put it in my first post but I had a really successful month before this averaging at 1600cals trying to just get my portions under control, and I was absolutely NOT healthy lol. I think at least twice a week I'd have breakfast/ protein shake/ 1000 calories of hot chips and be done. But it served it's purpose and my appetite decreased, and I actually feel a lot fuller eating healthier from all the fibre and protein!

 

[luzdafuzz]

Todays food-

Breakfast (442)- Protein pancakes with 2 eggs, 80g cottage cheese, 20g green banana flour, stevia/vanilla/baking powder, topped with 60g Cocobella coconut yogurt and 100g frozen pineapple grilled in 1tsp of cinnamon. Not pictured is coffee with 50g full cream milk

Lunch (442)- same as dinner last night.

Dinner(425)- 130g grilled Atlantic salmon (Ocean chef), 100g baked potato, 50g Obela guacamole and Heinz steamfresh veg.

Also had BCAAs (69) and vanilla WPI with vital greens (149).

Totals- 1527 calories, 95.6 carbs, 66.7 fat, 122.3 protein.

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Soooo tomorrow is weigh in day, had a great week this week. Calorie average was 1500.4 so right on goal, and no matter what the scale says tomorrow... I thought I already looked a bit leaner and measured my waist and lost a cm there this week. So that's a win! I have a massage as a reward tomorrow... my reward being my neck should hopefully stop hurting for at least a couple of days. It was actually not so bad today!

Pretty cruisy day today, finished God of War, made a shopping list (will go out in about an hour once Ash has knocked off work), made an appointment for the cats to get their claws clipped first thing Friday morning which I never look forward to. Seriously they're the cruisiest, sweetest little creatures until the pet cages come out and then they get murder-y. Also booked a dentist appointment for Friday and have physio that afternoon so that's going to be a bit of a busy day.

 

[luzdafuzz]

Lost 500g, 62.5kg this morning. I'm aiming for about a 300g average a week over the month so that's awesome. Here is my full food diary from last week if anyone is interested-
http://imgur.com/a/kQl3WU0

Eating choc oats for breakfast right now, they're the best. Adding the egg makes them really silky and custard-y.

 

[Llama]

Congratulations on losing half a kilo!

 

[luzdafuzz]

Congratulations on losing half a kilo!

Thanks LaMa!! I'm pretty excited about it, it's my new adult low weight. I got down to 62.8 at the start of last year then went straight back up to 64ish and stayed there lol. I'm determined this time!

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Breakfast (357)- 200g strawberries, oats with 30g oats, 10g cacao, 1 egg, 180g almond milk, stevia, vanilla. Not pictured coffee with 50g full cream milk.

Lunch (429)- 130g grilled salmon (Ocean chef), 100g baked potato, Heinz steamfresh veg pack, 50g obela guacamole

Dinner (381)- 2 perfectly balanced beef and lentil sausages, 1.5 cups homemade pumpkin soup. Not pictured Los Bros fermented soda in cola.

Also had BCAAs (73) and choc WPI with greens (135).

Totals- 1375 calories, 108.5 carb, 49.5 fat, 108.8 protein.

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Wasn't super hungry today so didn't push it with the food, means I'll have extra calories for the weekend. Husband and I normally like to go out for lunch or get takeaway on Saturdays!

Massage was good, my neck feels NORMAL. HURRAY! Lower back gets kinda stiff lying face down for an hour though, I get crack/poppy which makes me anxious. Which is ridiculous, if I was going to reinjure myself it's not going to happen during a massage. It's an immediate physical reaction though, crack in my lower back and my knees get weak and I get pins and needles in my arms and it takes me 20mins distracting myself for my body to calm down. Ahhhhhhh.

Dinner was really good, I love those sausages and they're only 120cals each. When we went grocery shopping last night though and they weren't on the shelf and there wasn't a spot for them!!! Really hoping they're just out of stock and didn't decide to delete them already. Soup was good too, been a while since I've made some. This was the laziest soup ever... bought my pumpkin pre-cut and dumped that in the slow cooker, took a whole leek and cut off the end and the green bit and threw it in whole. threw in a whole potato and some stock, bit of cumin and nutmeg... then just slow cooked it for 4 hours on high and blended it with the hand blender. I'm so lazy, who cuts veges?

 

[Llama]

I often have clients who´ll hurt if they have to lie on their stomach. It helps to put a pillow under your abdomen so your lumbar spine doesn´t "sag" while you relax.

 

[Cate]

Hi, Lucy. Your food looks sensational! Congratulations on getting down to your lowest adult weight, hon. You have done exceptionally well, especially considering that you have been injured. Yay for having a massage & your neck feeling normal xo

 

[luzdafuzz]

I often have clients who´ll hurt if they have to lie on their stomach. It helps to put a pillow under your abdomen so your lumbar spine doesn´t "sag" while you relax.

Yea I've only recently been ok to lie on my stomach, guess an hour is too much.
I was having to lie on my less painful side for physio treatment too! I'll remember the pillow next time- I was good in remembering to have a pillow under my ankles for my knees this time, it felt like knives in my kneecaps for about an hour after my last massage!

Hi, Lucy. Your food looks sensational! Congratulations on getting down to your lowest adult weight, hon. You have done exceptionally well, especially considering that you have been injured. Yay for having a massage & your neck feeling normal xo

Thanks Cate, I feel besides the re-injury anxiety i'm in a pretty good place with things right now. Physio recommended a psychologist for cognitive therapy (to stop the automatic physical anxiety) which I'm looking into but oh man, even with the private health insurance it's expensive! And because it's so pricey I only get 3 and a bit sessions covered.

 

[Cate]

You do sound like you are in a pretty good place, Lucy. We have both had our ups & downs over the years, but sometimes it's good to discuss them with someone else (who is not related & does not know us). It's good to know that you have that option if you feel that you really need it.
Private health insurance is so expensive & is not the value it once was.
I'm enjoying seeing your lovely meal photos

 

[luzdafuzz]

My tasty breakfast! The usual pancakes with strawberries and Nuttvia, which is a nutella alternative sweetened with natvia (erythritol and stevia). The strawberries weren't very nice today though, had to throw out half the punnet. Poo.

Lunch- leftover soup and sausages

Dinner- 100g chicken breast, 1/2 cup brown and red rice blend, steam fresh veg, 20g hommus

Also BCAAs and protein with greens.

Totals- 1505 calories, 115.4 carbs, 51.3 fat, 122.1 protein.

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Did Pilates this morning, have improved heaps on my new ab exercise which is great. Progressed it pretty far too, it was so hard only 2 weeks ago and I was doing 3 sets of 8 and on a lower resistance, now I'm doing 3 sets of 20 on a harder resistance. Means it'll get super hard with whatever the physio changes tomorrow! I also managed to get down on the floor and foam roll out the quad on my leg with the extra crappy knee so how that feels amazing. Rolled out my glutes too but they actually weren't as bad as I was expecting them to be.

Also it's raining out, has been since last night so was unsure if it would stop for me to walk later... so I paced the house for 20mins lol. We have a long skinny house anyway, I wasn't walking around in circles.

Don't know what I'm up to today, I think it'll be pretty boring to be honest.

 

[luzdafuzz]

You do sound like you are in a pretty good place, Lucy. We have both had our ups & downs over the years, but sometimes it's good to discuss them with someone else (who is not related & does not know us). It's good to know that you have that option if you feel that you really need it.
Private health insurance is so expensive & is not the value it once was.
I'm enjoying seeing your lovely meal photos

I actually think we have one of the better insurance companies for extras, we pay a 25% gap and I get $500 a year for psychology. But... a session is $200 (at every place I've looked at), so we are still paying $50 out of pocket and I lose $150 each time from my $500 yearly allowance. I can see a GP and get a referral and get 10 sessions covered by medicare when my insurance runs out but the co-pay is $75 for Medicare so it's a bit more. Owch.

He thinks it's pretty important though, I need CBT to re-train nerve pathways to stop the anxious response. He thinks the residual pain I get now is phantom pain too, like a lot of it is tight muscles (probably from being sedentary outside of exercise) but lower back aches and the random pain between my shoulders he things is my nervous system remembering pain pathways and being overactive.