Lord, Take away my Lard!

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JellyRoll

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Lord, Take away my Lard!

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Hello Every1!
I posted this same message in The NewB section, But I wanted to post here so that I can have a place to update my progress.

I have been reading your posts on here for a while but I was too lazy to sign up and post one for myself! Anyways, I will be here to support any of you if you need me! And now... a little about ME!

WARNING-This post is LONG!

The first time I realised I was REALLY fat was in 8th grade when I wore a white t-shirt. I had 1 roll of fat that buldged through. Anyway, we were at the foodcourt in the mall, my mom and sister were sitting at a table and I was walking back after throwing something away when I heard them giggling to eachother. so I said, "What are you laughing at?" and my mom was like "Your sister was just talking about your fat roll" They really didn't know how much that hurt. The toughest part was I had just joined track and thought I looked good, and slimmer. And the fact that my sister is a skinny 6 doesn't help!

JELLYROLL
Another instance I remember...
back when I was in 8th grade, they came out with this gel pen and they called them JellyRolls. So my sister and little brother were like-"Hey! That should be your pen!" It REALLY pissed me off, but hurt me most of all. So I decided today as I was signing up for this Weight-Loss-Forum that shoud be my nickname. At least until I lose my jellyRoll!! Which I will!

And there have been ALOT more stories were those come from-maybe I will share them with you guys some time. More about me...

I am 19, 5'7, and 247 lbs. YIKES! It just seems so crazy to me-how it seems just like yesterday I was on my first diet because I was 200lbs. Alot of you know how it is. The first diet you go on-you are all gung-ho about it, you stick to it for as many as 2 months (as I did) You lose weight, start to get compliments, start feeling really good, gain confidence, fit into clothes you thought you never would-yadayadayada.

THEN IT HAPPENS

Whether it is a major dissaster that happens in your life that leaves you depressed, or just a day you were going to take off of your diet so that you can eat whatever you want-the bottom line is-

YOU FELL OFF THE BAND-WAGON!

In my case... when I jumped off the bandwagon- it was my 18th birthday-June 11th 2004. I had just lost 30lbs so that I could look good in my white graduation dress. And I did look good. And I got lots of compliments from family. One I remember in particular was my mom-when we were riding in the elevator in front of the family she was like "Wow, you are getting really skinny-Look how little her face looks!" Even though In the moment I was like- OMG mom stop embarrising me! I really LOVED the compliment. And one of the best parts about getting thinner- Shallow it may be- For the first time in my life I got looks from guys. They were actually checkin' me out! And they were hot too! Not some weird ugly, nerdy guys, Hot firemen and more! I LOVED IT! So anyway- I was loosing weight, then graduation was over and my birthday came that June. I told myself OK-1 day of eating anything I want then I will get back on and start dieting again.

THE ONLY THING IS... I NEVER DID!

I never got back on the bandwagon- 1 day turned to 1 week, then to a month, and than I fell in this terrible phase were I would diet on Monday- screw up and eat something and completely feel like I skrewed up so then I would tell myself-

I WILL JUST START MY DIET ON MONDAY

and sometimes I would in fact start on monday, but I would get frustrated and I would quit and say the line again

I WILL START ON MONDAY!

Well now it has been 2 years and look how far starting on Monday has gotten me- 247lbs! I am tired of it.

I AM TIRED OF BEING THE FAT ONE

I was always the fat one. The fat one of the siblings, the fat friend, the fat girl in class. So this Monday I decided would be the Monday. I weighed myself and I was 249lbs. I promised myself I will never see 250. Since Monday I have reduced my calories and taken up cardio and pilates- Today I weighed in at 247.

AND I AM JUST GONNA KEEP GOING

Keep truckin' till I reach my goal weight of 120lbs. It is ALOT of weight to lose but I am takin one step at a time. my first "pregoal" I will call it- will be 220lbs. We will see how it goes!

GOODLUCK EVERYONE!

Jelly

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SW:249lbs
CW:247lbs
STGW:220lbs
GW:120lbs

"Today is the first day of the rest of your life"
 
hi jellyroll. i was reading your short bio... and I couldn't help but think that you remind me of myself when I was 19. When I was 19, I was about 245 pounds too. Unfortunately, it took me an extra 5 years, a diagnostic of diabetes and an extra 50 pounds before I REALLY got serious about my weightloss. So if I can do this, I know you can. We can and we will. So hang in there. :)

So what lifestyle changes are you making for yourself? Exercise routines?
 
Welcome To The Family And I Know You Can And Will Do This!
 
Just take it one day at a time. You are lucky in that you are young and this is the perfect time for you to start a course of healthy eating and healthy living. You will do great!!!!
 
Hello jellyroll,

Cheer up lassie, I'm 100% sure you can do this right!! Ive read your post, and it seems to me that youre really ready for this and motivated. Thats the spirit!!
You will feel the result in only a few weeks time, youll feel stronger and better im sure. Search the forum, youll find LOADS of tips and tricks.

Cheers
 
Keep your head up, Drink your WATER, Walk everyday and take it step by step... You will do this... Have a AWESOME Weekend... :D
 
I'm new too and like you I have told myself I will start on Monday for the past 5 years and 2 pregnancies!!! From a fit 140 lbs to 170lbs today!!! I am only 5'4" and carry all my weight below the waist...the evil Pear shape!!!! But I have decided this is it! Tomorrrow is my Bday and I will be 33 and this will be THE LAST B-day I spend over weight!. So to change my thinking ...everytime I start to have a negative thought like "your so FAT" or "you'll never do this" I am pushing it out of my head and I am replacing it immediately with a positive thought! And when I feel like I want to eat I am either going for a walk or heading to the computer to read everyones posts! YOu can DO this!!!! WE Can DO THIS! Changing the way we feel about food and ourselves will be the ultimate change that makes all the difference! ;)
 
Thanks for all the support everyone!I am still on my diet for a change. Usually by this time I would be well into the ice cream. But I am so through with that. I used to do the same thing-Everytime I messed up I would put myself down-
But now I am saying, it's okay, you will get there, you WILL be skinny. And this June will be MY last "Fat B-day" as well. Next year I am going to fit into a cute dress, and I will be fit, and I will look good.

As far as my diet goes, I am trying to down water, I try to drink 2 liters a day-but it is hard, I am used to drinking lots of diet soda-which I still drink. I am also counting calories, usually around 1,200, I still eat pizza and all the stuff I love- I am just cutting back. The south beach diet was SO hard for me because I didn't really like anything I was eating, and I eventually got frustrated and quit, I think My low calories can easily become a lifestyle.

Excersize is a LOT better now. If any of you extremely HATE exersize I would think about getting a video game called "Dance, Dance Revolution" It is a game that comes with dance pads, and you dance along with it and you end up burning lots of calories. I used to do tae bo but it got so boring to me to the point where I actually Loathed billy blanks- lol. I do ddr about an hour a day, and I actually look forward to it. Google it for more info. I looked into it and apparently they are puting them in schools to help slim kids down as well.


Thank you everyone for all your kindness. I know with each others help we WILL get fit!

Jelly
 
good luck

Good luck, JellyRoll! :)

I am about 245 lbs now, and I am 34 years old. I spent my entire 20's over 200 lbs. I wish I could have experienced those years at a healthier weight. I know I can't change my past, but I am happy for you that you are making the changes now.
 
Oh Jelly,
I'm so happy for you that you're taking a stance NOW, this Monday, each day is your Monday. I didn't wake up until my 40th birthday to realize I didn't want to be 250+ pounds any more!

You can do this, it's just one meal, one snack at a time!

Those pounds are going to SHED!
 
I love that game. Dance Dance Revolution. It's fun. I suck HORRIBLY but I am jumping around and that's all that matters right? :D

Hope you had a great weekend. :)
 
I know it's hard but if you could cut out the diet sodas it may be that "boost" your body needs to get started. I've heard of people losing weight just by cutting out the diet sodas and nothing else....even though they have no sugar I believe they have alot of sodium and that can keep water weight on.

You WILL do this!!!! We are all in this together!!!!
 
I'm new too and have done many of the same things you have. We'll help each other through this! Keep up the great work.
 
Just checking in on you to see how you are doing. Hope you are hanging in there!!!!

Have a good evening. :D
 
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