Hey Everyone,
I am here because over the past 3 years I have gained 20 pounds and have lost all motivation and self confidence. I am currently weighing around 140-145 at 5'2. I feel most comfortable at 120-125 eating healthy and exercising regularly. The problem is, the more I gain weight the less confident I feel and the worse things get. The number on the scale does not bother me as much as not fitting into my everyday clothing, not feeling attractive and losing interest in putting in any effort to feel more attractive, not wanting to be naked in front of my boyfriend, being embarrassed at the gym and not wanting to wear any revealing clothing (especially not a bathing suit) even during the hottest summer days. It does not help that I gave birth via C-Section and my stomach has stretch marks, scar tissue and a large scar that are all enhanced with each pound I gain.
I know I am making excuses, however I work a weird work schedule that changes constantly and therefore my diet consists of snacking on quick foods throughout the day and maybe having one large meal. I can't seem to follow a consistent eating pattern because my breaks occur at different times throughout the day each day. I am also very terrible with meal prep and weekly groceries. I would rather sleep in till the last minute than wake up and make myself a wholesome breakfast. This also means, the gym or any form of exercise is not something I can easily plan and in my spare time, I am usually trying to catch up on errands, cleaning, social life, etc. Not exercise.
I am not exactly over weight, I still can wear a small or medium and my pant size is under a size 10. I continue to justify this unhealthy lifestyle and weight gain with those thoughts. The problem is that I find things getting worse each day and I am quickly losing control.
I could really use others that can relate and some positive outlooks as well as ideas for motivation.
I am here because over the past 3 years I have gained 20 pounds and have lost all motivation and self confidence. I am currently weighing around 140-145 at 5'2. I feel most comfortable at 120-125 eating healthy and exercising regularly. The problem is, the more I gain weight the less confident I feel and the worse things get. The number on the scale does not bother me as much as not fitting into my everyday clothing, not feeling attractive and losing interest in putting in any effort to feel more attractive, not wanting to be naked in front of my boyfriend, being embarrassed at the gym and not wanting to wear any revealing clothing (especially not a bathing suit) even during the hottest summer days. It does not help that I gave birth via C-Section and my stomach has stretch marks, scar tissue and a large scar that are all enhanced with each pound I gain.
I know I am making excuses, however I work a weird work schedule that changes constantly and therefore my diet consists of snacking on quick foods throughout the day and maybe having one large meal. I can't seem to follow a consistent eating pattern because my breaks occur at different times throughout the day each day. I am also very terrible with meal prep and weekly groceries. I would rather sleep in till the last minute than wake up and make myself a wholesome breakfast. This also means, the gym or any form of exercise is not something I can easily plan and in my spare time, I am usually trying to catch up on errands, cleaning, social life, etc. Not exercise.
I am not exactly over weight, I still can wear a small or medium and my pant size is under a size 10. I continue to justify this unhealthy lifestyle and weight gain with those thoughts. The problem is that I find things getting worse each day and I am quickly losing control.
I could really use others that can relate and some positive outlooks as well as ideas for motivation.
