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Hello! Nice to meet you all. I've been told that writing my own journal here might help with the weight loss. I have previously posted in the newcomer thread about my diet and exercise plan.

I'm 24, female, 5'7, and 200 lbs. Well, was when I first posted.

Today is the fourth day that I'm on this diet (though I've skipped a lot of the exercise, with school soon wrapping up I go to bed pretty late - no excuse, but plan is to start properly next week), and I've lost 6.6 lbs already. Which worries me a little, since I've seen a lot of articles say it's too quick a pace and unhealthy. But it also never happened before. I've been on (unsuccesful) diets before, which were all borderline starvation (I try to eat at least 1000 calories a day now).

On one hand, I'm a bit worried about that, because I don't want to get a yoyo effect, but on the other, I'm happy with myself. This diet has been easier than other crash diets I've been on (didn't quite know dieting was so nuanced back then). I'm excited to start with the exercise soon, and see where it gets me after five weeks. I hope I see some progress, and I'll share it with you. I reckon I will need a whole lot of encouragement, I've often had trouble with discipline in, well, anything.

Thank you and good night!
 
Hey, Nice to see you've started a diary! I hope it helps keep you on track. It's pretty common to lose a weight a bit quickly when you have a drastic change in your diet. I mentioned on the other thread that I think 1000 calories per day is pretty low, especially once you add exercise in. You might find that will come back to haunt you later if you keep your caloric intake too low for too long.

The end goal (in my opinion) should be to create healthy habits that are sustainable over the long term, rather that following a strict diet, then going off the diet, then dieting again, and so on,

Good luck with school, hope it goes well!
 
Hi Ironna and welcome! I agree with PLB about your calories being very low (especially since you're both young and tall). Maybe try having at least 1500/day? Most of us don't get fat on the regular meals we eat but on desserts, snacks, and regular "exceptions".
 
Didn't make an update yesterday, I fell asleep while drawing. It was a long day yesterday hahaha.

Anyway, I increased my calorie intake to 1400 yesterday by eating more than three meals. I also came to the conclusion that I should really start working on my endurance. Climbing stairs has always been tougher than it should for me hahahah.

I lost a pound today. Even with me increasing the calorie intake, though I think it might be because of my dog. She got sick and I have been taking her to a vet, which can sometime be an hour long walk, plus I have to hold her still when she tries to resist and escape the injections (she's a big dog weighing 100 pounds, so it's quite a battle with her sometimes). Today is the last day before my cheat day, and next week I have cream vegetable soups on the menu, which I'm really looking forward to. I'm also starting the exercise next week. So I'm really looking forward to it.

What I'm not looking forward to is university. Workload has increased and we are only a month away from finals. I feel soooo unprepared, especially since I'm still behind on a lot of subjects. I missed entire month of classes due to a "little" mental breakdown (or rather, meltdown) few months back, and still haven't caught up.

I want to thank everyone for your support! And...

PLB said:
The end goal (in my opinion) should be to create healthy habits that are sustainable over the long term, rather that following a strict diet, then going off the diet, then dieting again, and so on,
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Oh, yeah, I absolutely want to avoid that. But I'm also looking for a change in lifestyle, not just weight loss. This means eating healthier food, and getting off my ass to work out :D

EDIT to add: today is middle of 6th day of my diet, and some exercise (wrestling my dog hahaha). Went from 200 lbs to 193 lbs. Seven pounds in six days, whoa.
 
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Today is my cheat day! This whole week has been great, honestly. Can't wait to start again tomorrow. Though again, I've discovered I'm horribly out of shape. One of my plans was to go to my university on bicycle during sunny days, the distance being around 10.5 miles. Yeah, that idea was scrapped after today. My mom wanted some super special ice cream (very tasty, btw, I'll be treating myself with it next week if there's any left), but it's only being sold in a shop at the other side of the town. So I hop on my bike, it's about 10 minute ride.

Oooooh my god. Did that exhaust me. I was panting and sweaty mess by the time I returned home. There is no way I'm going to another city with my sort of condition until I improve. First, the road can be dangerous at some points, I have to cross three hills to get to uni, and at my pace it will take me hours. So I'll be driving bike only in the safety of my town and working out at home until I am able to get myself back on track.

Funniest thing is, it didn't always used to be like this. Few years ago, that route was nothing to me. I trained two sports (fit-boxing and swimming), I went mountain climbing every weekend, and on sunny days, I'd go to school with my bycicle. But because of myriad reasons (my parent's divorce, financial problems that ensued, dropping out of my first college, depression, job problems, and a whole pile of other issues), I had to quit all my activities. I'd like to return to what I once had, a fit and healthy (and, well, happy) lady.

I feel great though. The short ride was exhausting, but every time I work out it reminds me how much I loved doing it, and I still really love it. I don't know how to explain it. It's like you have completely spent yourself, but while you're exhausted, it's like someone is injecting you with a shot of pure dopamine and seratonin. It feels very satisfying. So yeah I'll be working out more.
 
Good thing you tried a shorter trip first :) I´m sure your endurance will improve quickly now that you´ve started exercising again.
 
I'm sorry I haven't posted anything, this has been a difficult week for me.

Diet-wise, I've mostly done well, but I either had no appetite last two days or I binged on junk food. It was a difficult week because a friend of mine died, and I've kind of fallen back into my depression because of that, and bunch of other things.

I feel like I'm constantly lying to myself to please others' expectations. I'm so lost. I don't know what to do with myself anymore. I've fallen back into self-loathing, and I'm trying to pull myself out of that spiral, but it's been difficult.
 
I´m sorry to hear you´re struggling :grouphug: Are you seeing a therapist? It´s hard enough to deal with that shit when you have help, I wouldn´t wish it on anyone to have to face it alone. Either way maybe a practical start could be to prepare and eat a small meal even when you´re not hungry, if only to reduce the risk of binging later. Best of luck.
 
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