Usually a month or so an then i feel proud so i take a day off and another and another and eventually i forget i was on a diet. That's where my lack of motivation comes in i guess. Other times its because of my mother who kinda of semi-forces me to eat a crappy meal and then i go on the off diet spiral again.
Sam, you sound EXACTLY like me. I am 21, but have been struggling with my weight since I was 18. It has been an uphill battle. And being 18-21 and overweight SUCKS. I had dieted over and over again and sometimes would lose about 10 lbs here and there but would always fall off. Usually, because of how proud I was of that loss I would give myself a celebratory burger or ice cream...and then another...and then crap....I'm back up and then some!!
My mom diets with me, but she always breaks before me, which is where I fall off. She will just say "oh forget it" and go buy a costco cake (yum). The problem is, my mom has about 10-15 lbs to lose and I have about 50. I have been gaining weight in 20 lb increments, usually 6 months at a time. (can you say stretch marks!?)
So needless to say, I'm right there with you.
I am currently on a medication that I got prescribed from my doctor called Phentermine. It is very hard to come by as many doctors don't feel comfortable prescribing it, and many patients don't feel comfortable taking it. I am only telling you this, because it is simply an option to investigate. I have been on it for almost 3 weeks and have lost 15 lbs. They do tests to make sure that you are in the right state of health to be taking the medicine.
One thing I am pondering, is how quickly you gained that 20 lbs. When I first went to my doctor with my 6 month 20 lb weight gain, he was concerned and said its almost a challenge to put weight on that fast, and surely there must be something wrong with my health.
This is where he tested my thyroid....and found nothing wrong...yup turns out I indeed DID eat that much...
But either way, maybe its worth getting your thyroid checked. Its a simple blood draw and that could be the cause of rapid weight gain.
I had been struggling with binge eating. I would eat past the point of comfort, I felt no control over how much and how quickly I was eating. It wasn't emotional eating either, I felt like I was always ravenously hungry! The Phentermine makes it so that my appetite is suppressed. It also gives me energy to help me go to the gym on a regular schedule... and well here I am 15 lbs down in less than a month!
Again, I am not encouraging you to inquire or even take this medication. I just wanted to share my experience so that maybe you could read up on it, and see if its something you might want to give a try. If you eat out of sadness, happiness, or boredom though, it wouldn't help you.
PS: If anyone reading this has heard of fen-Phen and the health side effects that came along with it, understand that Phentermine in itself is not the same thing. fen-Phen was a mixture of 2 different drugs, Fenfluramine and Phentermine. The Fenfluramine was what was causing health abnormalities and was thus banned. Phentermine is entirely safe and is still approved by the FDA.
