I re-gained almost all my weight back

[Kerla]

Hey everyone, I'm new to this forum!
I'm going to start by saying that in 2017 I started my weight loss journey and was able to lose 40 kg - I was still not at a healthy weight even though I had lost all that, but I felt much more comfortable in my skin and was able to do more exercise.
However, I let myself go and now... I am almost at my heaviest weight (116 kg). I am really disappointed in myself, I can't believe I allowed myself to get to this weight again. I think my problems started because I was getting frustrated, losing weight was becoming more and more difficult. I think I had reached a plateau, and I just didn't care anymore. I started eating things I shouldn't be eating when no one was looking and then I'd feel bad about it but I kept doing it.
I was very stupid :|
Now I weight 95.5 kg and I'm 1.66 cm. My BMI is 34.7 which qualifies me as obese.
I'm very sad and starting again is very difficult, especially because I keep comparing myself now with myself in 2017.
All my clothes don't fit anymore and I don't even want to hang out with people because I know my weight gain is very noticeable.
I made an account here to hold myself accountable. I am very impatient and want to see results fast, but I know that is not how it works. So I hope I can post daily in the diary section and maybe in a year I'll be able to look back and see my progress.

P.S: sorry if you find any mistakes in my writing, English is not my native language

 

[alligatorob]

Hey Kerla, welcome to the forum! And good for you in being almost 20 kg below your heaviest, that is a good thing.

I have been where you are today, more times that I would like to think about, I believe keeping weight off is harder than losing it. The good thing about this place is you will find a number of people who have lost a lot of weight and are successfully keeping it off, and they are very generous in supporting and advising others.

I suggest you look at the Weight Loss Diary page (https://weight-loss.fitness.com/forums/weight-loss-diary.9/ ), and start a diary of your own. You can tell us more about yourself and your goals. Its a great place to log your progress and get the attention of others, most of who have the same underlying problem as you do. I also suggest you read the diaries of others, if you see anyone you want to comment on or ask a question of feel free.

I'm very sad and starting again is very difficult

Don't be sad, just by joining and posting here you are doing something about it. If you get a plan and get started on healthier eating you will feel better quickly. I can tell you in my case just a couple of days into things I was feeling better and better about myself. I think you can do the same.

Best of luck to you, and I hope to be reading about your progress!

Oh, and on your English it is fine. This is a weight loss forum, not a grammar forum. We have others who do not speak English as a first language and they do very well, don't worry about it.

 

[kittycat1]

Kerla, I don't know if you are still here, but I have to tell you I understand you!
I also got all my maximum weight back, and even more of it! Yes, it's not easy, and it's not nice at all - but IT HAPPENS.

Some people are addicted to nicotine, we are kinda addicted to food and we are eating too much whenever life becomes hard. It's not a best behaviour, but it's not that rare. You are not alone in this. People tend to be to shy about their fails and are not willing to talk about them. It's easy to talk and write about our achievemnts, and it's hard to mention our fails, especially if we already saw oureslves winning before.

I had almost perfect weight cca 10yrs ago, and I let that go away. Yes, sometimes I feel bad and really blame myself, but I did lot of great stuff in my life in the meantime, and learned so much about myself. So yeah, for a long time I wasn't ready to do weightloss again, but now I am.

You probably are, too. I mean, you already managed to lose some kgs, you are under 100, that's great and you should be proud!

Don't call yourself stupid, you are not stupid, you are human. And you can do it again! I really believe that.