GlitteredBliss
New member
HIYA, Im Jaime. Im obviously new. Ive wanted to lose weight for along time now but, I dunno its hard. Im a really weak person when it comes to sweets (chocolate is a big one) and convenience foods (Prepackaged, or fast foods), I have little will power in fighting again "snacking" too, tv snacking, late night snacking... I have trouble "remembering" to eat if that makes sense, I will get up, forget to eat breakfast, get ready do what I have planned for that day, and either forget to eat lunch, or dont have the time or as Ive said, I fall for the "convenience foods" I stop and eat fast food on the run. Then by the time dinnertime has rolled around, Im starving while cooking dinner so I eat on anything, handful of this handful or that while I wait to eat dinner then I eat dinner, and tend to want dessert, eat that (usually over eat on desserts) then I sometimes eat a second portion of dinner a few hours later if there is any, maybe more dessert, basically snack the rest of the evening, so I see that I eat the most when Im the least active, and eating nothing when I am the most active. Hard cycle to break with kids, I was getting better with my first daughter but now that I have a baby under 1, Im an entirely new mess. I dunno where to begin, I dont exercise at all, I mean to but I never feel I have the energy or the opportunity to, cant really go to a gym with children, most gyms anyways. Plus its hard doing it alone, my husband has gainned quite abit (he just got out tof the army last August) but he makes it worse, he wont change eatting habits and brings stuff in the house I want but shouldnt eat. Plus no one to exercise with sucks. I dunno what isa basic "enty level" exercise routine anyways, I have tried with alil bit of pilates but, these girls are already skinney... I cant do half of the things its trying to get me to do. Ive thought walking wouold be my best best, brisk walking that is. Low impact till I lose some weight to do other things, plus any exercise is better than none, right?... Im just feeling really alone, and Ive only been married alil over a year, Im only 23 I feel like Im wasting my youth, being well... fat. Arent your 20s supposed to be where you look back and say yea I was young and beautiful, but Ill look back and say wow... I was so fat. Im not feeling beautiful for my husband though he says he loves me for me, but who wants to be with a fat girl forever. I feel our marriage is off to a horrible start because I am so fat. Not to mention, my daughter is 4 she tells me Im fat, not in a mean way but in a "truthful" way. I dont want kids to tell her that her mommy is fat. Either way Im ready to make some life altering choices, with perhaos all encouragement from people who truly understand what it feels like to be... fat.
