HippieLexi
New member
Hello! I am 17, have been clean-eating for over six months and transitioning to raw vegan.
My progress has been incredibly consistent throughout, I haven't weighed myself in over three years and decided to never do it, whether i was eating right or not. And my decision to change my lifestyle to clean-eating didn't change that, I have not weighed myself and never will. I go off of how i look in the mirror, how my clothes fit, etc. I saw my friend for the first time in three months and he mentioned that he definitely noticed i had lost weight. and my family has always made comments when they noticed i had dropped more. I look and feel a lot better, and my confidence has been going up, my shirts are very loose as are my shorts and everything else. I felt great, until tonight. My mom came home from the store and bought me leggings, i took the package and it said XL. this absolutely destroyed me. I put on a good face for sure, I didn't want her to feel bad. but I feel horrible, now I'm wondering if I've made any progress at all. I feel i am susceptible to body dysmorphia, as I am literally obsessed with my body image and pinch all around my skin 90% of the day. Do sizes really determine much? and if not, why did she figure an XL would fit me? I'd really like to think I've made more progress than that, I thought maybe I'd be an XL back when i started, but now? I just don't see how that's possible... I've even dropped shorts sizes, was 18, but last time i tried on a pair of denim shorts i was either a 14 or 16, and that was three months ago. So i am confused.
Of course this will not hold me back from going strong and keeping up with my consistency, in fact this will push me to be more extreme. but my confidence is shattered and don't know how to cope with it ):
thanks for replies in advance!
My progress has been incredibly consistent throughout, I haven't weighed myself in over three years and decided to never do it, whether i was eating right or not. And my decision to change my lifestyle to clean-eating didn't change that, I have not weighed myself and never will. I go off of how i look in the mirror, how my clothes fit, etc. I saw my friend for the first time in three months and he mentioned that he definitely noticed i had lost weight. and my family has always made comments when they noticed i had dropped more. I look and feel a lot better, and my confidence has been going up, my shirts are very loose as are my shorts and everything else. I felt great, until tonight. My mom came home from the store and bought me leggings, i took the package and it said XL. this absolutely destroyed me. I put on a good face for sure, I didn't want her to feel bad. but I feel horrible, now I'm wondering if I've made any progress at all. I feel i am susceptible to body dysmorphia, as I am literally obsessed with my body image and pinch all around my skin 90% of the day. Do sizes really determine much? and if not, why did she figure an XL would fit me? I'd really like to think I've made more progress than that, I thought maybe I'd be an XL back when i started, but now? I just don't see how that's possible... I've even dropped shorts sizes, was 18, but last time i tried on a pair of denim shorts i was either a 14 or 16, and that was three months ago. So i am confused.
Of course this will not hold me back from going strong and keeping up with my consistency, in fact this will push me to be more extreme. but my confidence is shattered and don't know how to cope with it ):
thanks for replies in advance!
