Hi Im new here, need some support!

[berettachick]

Hi my name is Jackie and I'm new here.

I've finally decided to join a forum for support because its getting really hard to do this on my own.

I've been living out of my parents' house for over a year now, and its really taken a toll on my weight. I am 5'1 - 5'2 and now about 190lbs. I've gained about 40 in the last year or so. An all time record for me that i'm not proud of.

I dont have home cooking so often as much as I used to, and have fast food, just about everyday. Its fast, its easy, and I work so its really hard.

Thing is, since this recent weight gain. I've felt like my body is a prison more than ever now. I love to dance, and run, and walk and I cant do that for a long peiod time without something hurting, same goes with house work and such, its just painful, and me being 21 this SHOULDNT be this way. and I fully well know it.

It feels like im in jail in my own body. The most horrible feeling ever, and its taking a huge toll on my self esteem. I'm so close to giving up and giving in to it. I know there is a thing person in there somewhere!

My problem is, I get motivated for about maybe 3 days, and totally go back to what I was doing. Even went to weight watchers for a few weeks.

I guess the fact that I live alone contributes to a lot of it. When im bored I eat, when im tired, I eat, I order out constantly which also digs deep into my pockets, because im always too tired to make something.

I just miss going into pools, wearing halfshirts, and playing SPORTS!!
I would love to do this again.

My boyfriend "tries" to give me some support, but he's not a positive person to begin with so he's not exactly supporting me or pushing me, and when I do good, he doesnt congratulate me, so its not a big deal, and I go back to my regular habits.

I want to try getting with a community that knows what its like, and can maybe give me some tips on motivation, as well as help me out time and again. I would do the same for all of you as well.

Well its about 12:30 in the morning and I just wanted to get this out before I go to bed, I hope to get some responses.

Thank you in advance.
-Jackie

 

[Silver Sonnet]

Hi Jackie, and welcome

Like you, I tend to eat when I'm bored--and when I'm happy, or sad, or stressed, or--well, you get the idea. I've decided to deal with it by finding a hobby. Maybe that would work for you, too--something that keeps your hands and your brain busy so you don't have time to over eat.

As for the boyfriend, tell him what you need from him. My hubby is perpetually skinny and has NO idea how hard this is or what he can do to help, so I've had to educate him. If your boyfriend cares, he'll be willing to learn to help you.

Finally, if you love sports, why not put yourself in training? Set (reasonable) physical goals for each day, and work to reach them. As you get stronger, you can set higher goals, just like professional athletes do. Before you know it, you'll be slim, strong and back doing all the tings you love!

Good luck, and kep us posted

 

[twinmom2791]

Hi!

Hi, Jackie.

I'm new at this, too, but probably a lot older than you. (I'm 34) I wish I had gotten real about my weight when I was younger. I just started in early May to work on turning things around.

My best advice is to start journaling. I started a journal because I recognized that I was doing a lot of emotional eating. Writing down how I was feeling - especially about my weight - has really helped to keep me motivated and on track. I like to journal on paper, but you can start a journal on here, too. I was like you, in that I would make a good start, but then get discouraged and quit pretty quickly. Not this time! I am on my 25th day of working on changes, and getting stronger every day.

Make a 30 day committment to yourself. Just decide to DO IT. Make your goals simple ones, like just getting real about what you are eating now. Get a notebook and write down everything you eat - and just LOOK at it. Get an idea of how many calories you are consuming, and where you might make better choices. I was SOOOOO clueless - or really just deep in denial - about what I was eating.

And hang in there. There is a lot of support here. Good luck!!!!