Hi, so I have always been overweight. Most of my childhood I remember being made fun of at school, sucking at sports, and all the typical stuff I don't need to tell you about. Its pretty standard.
I have never actually tried to lose weight until I was in my early 20s. Up until then I didn't care very much. I don't want to bore you with my life story, its long and complicated, and blah blah.
Today I am almost 30. 5' 10" and 260lbs. I have a serious lack of self confidence. Especially when it comes to dating. All my life my mom told me that I'm handsome, her friends told me that I'm handsome, but what idiot believes anything their mother says, or what people your mom's age say.
It took me a while to notice that girls actually like me. I never actually understood why. Not only am I overweight, I'm also very introverted, a nerd, and my social skills are pretty bad (although getting better).
I didn't have a GF until I was 28. I chose her because she was smart, and apparently she chose me because I'm cute. It was a completely and total shock to me that anyone could find me cute. I hate what I see when I look at myself. Then I had another GF and our relationship was pretty serious and lasted almost 6 months. Again she kept saying how cute I am many times. I just didn't believe it.
While I was dating my ex GF, I actually gained 20 lbs in about 5 months. The problem is, she didn't care that I'm fat, she herself was fat, and she refused to do anything about it. She ate tons of junkfood, and of course I ate it alongside her.
When I look at myself, all I see is a glob of fat, and acne, and lack of social skills. The only good thing I see about myself is I'm intelligent, have a degree in engineering, and behind all that cynical, sarcastic,jaded, and socially inept anger, I'm a pretty nice guy.
I keep trying to lose weight over and over again. The one thing which gets in my way is stress. I never eat because I'm hungry, I eat because food releases "happy hormones". Its a drug, just like any other drug. My life is stressful. I won't get into it. Its a novel.
I'm starting on yet another attempt to lose weight. I hope this one works. I hope I can get advice and support from the people at this forum. Its nice to feel like youre not alone, when youre surrounded by either skinny happy people, or fat people who refuse to change.
I have never actually tried to lose weight until I was in my early 20s. Up until then I didn't care very much. I don't want to bore you with my life story, its long and complicated, and blah blah.
Today I am almost 30. 5' 10" and 260lbs. I have a serious lack of self confidence. Especially when it comes to dating. All my life my mom told me that I'm handsome, her friends told me that I'm handsome, but what idiot believes anything their mother says, or what people your mom's age say.
It took me a while to notice that girls actually like me. I never actually understood why. Not only am I overweight, I'm also very introverted, a nerd, and my social skills are pretty bad (although getting better).
I didn't have a GF until I was 28. I chose her because she was smart, and apparently she chose me because I'm cute. It was a completely and total shock to me that anyone could find me cute. I hate what I see when I look at myself. Then I had another GF and our relationship was pretty serious and lasted almost 6 months. Again she kept saying how cute I am many times. I just didn't believe it.
While I was dating my ex GF, I actually gained 20 lbs in about 5 months. The problem is, she didn't care that I'm fat, she herself was fat, and she refused to do anything about it. She ate tons of junkfood, and of course I ate it alongside her.
When I look at myself, all I see is a glob of fat, and acne, and lack of social skills. The only good thing I see about myself is I'm intelligent, have a degree in engineering, and behind all that cynical, sarcastic,jaded, and socially inept anger, I'm a pretty nice guy.
I keep trying to lose weight over and over again. The one thing which gets in my way is stress. I never eat because I'm hungry, I eat because food releases "happy hormones". Its a drug, just like any other drug. My life is stressful. I won't get into it. Its a novel.
I'm starting on yet another attempt to lose weight. I hope this one works. I hope I can get advice and support from the people at this forum. Its nice to feel like youre not alone, when youre surrounded by either skinny happy people, or fat people who refuse to change.
