Nabby Chamchi
New member
Hello everyone! This is my first time joining ANY kind of forum so I'm actually very nervous about this move. I'm not sure where to start but here I go.
I am a 26 yrs old female, currently weighing 209 lbs/ 95 kg and my height is 5'2"/ 158cm. Since December 2016, my weight fluctuated from 165lbs to 209lbs. I drastically lost weight and then drastically gained weight from compulsive/ emotional eating. I have never weight this much in my life and I can't be like this anyone.
In October 2016, I was assaulted in my student residence and since then I have been diagnosed with PTSD which came with depression, anxiety etc. I am on wellbutrine 300mg, venlafaxine 225mg and trazondone 100mg. I want to blame my weight gain on the guy that assaulted me but it's not that simple and it was essentially me that ate compulsively and came to where I am now. The worst part of the weight gain is knowing that the asshole prefers bigger women and I feel like my body is becoming more and more like something he would want to hurt again. I hate myself for gaining weight, I am disgusted with my own body and it makes me feel worse and worse every single day. I have trouble going outside because I'm too scared. I am isolated in my own house because most of the time I can't leave my bed.
I need some help from you guys on where to start and how I can actually start my lifestyle change. I am DONE feeling so scared and I am DONE having my life be shaken so much by one person. I want to take control of my life again and I hope that can happen with a weight loss journey. I am not looking for drastic results rather something I can tackle and work with for the rest of my life.
Thanks!
NC
I am a 26 yrs old female, currently weighing 209 lbs/ 95 kg and my height is 5'2"/ 158cm. Since December 2016, my weight fluctuated from 165lbs to 209lbs. I drastically lost weight and then drastically gained weight from compulsive/ emotional eating. I have never weight this much in my life and I can't be like this anyone.
In October 2016, I was assaulted in my student residence and since then I have been diagnosed with PTSD which came with depression, anxiety etc. I am on wellbutrine 300mg, venlafaxine 225mg and trazondone 100mg. I want to blame my weight gain on the guy that assaulted me but it's not that simple and it was essentially me that ate compulsively and came to where I am now. The worst part of the weight gain is knowing that the asshole prefers bigger women and I feel like my body is becoming more and more like something he would want to hurt again. I hate myself for gaining weight, I am disgusted with my own body and it makes me feel worse and worse every single day. I have trouble going outside because I'm too scared. I am isolated in my own house because most of the time I can't leave my bed.
I need some help from you guys on where to start and how I can actually start my lifestyle change. I am DONE feeling so scared and I am DONE having my life be shaken so much by one person. I want to take control of my life again and I hope that can happen with a weight loss journey. I am not looking for drastic results rather something I can tackle and work with for the rest of my life.
Thanks!
NC
