Hayley's Diary

[butterflygirl19]

I am an 18-year-old girl who is 5' 5", 130 lbs., and my waist measurement is about 34". My goal waist measurement is 30" or less and goal weight is 115 lbs. or less. I have tried hard to lose weight for the past 3 years or so but I just haven't stuck to it and I get very depressed about it. In August of this year, I started tracking my calories on link removed. It has helped some, but I still tend to go over my calorie limit (1450) a lot of days. These past two weeks have been terrible. I really struggle with eating sugary things to make me feel better when I'm sad or bored or stressed out. I also sample foods way too much when I'm baking or cooking. For the most part, I eat fairly healthy (gluten-free, mostly homemade, non-processed foods) but I still eat too much. I have a hard time using self-control when I eat. For example, just yesterday I made a batch of chocolate chip oatmeal cookies and I have eaten 14 of them since then...
I try to exercise every day on a mini-trampoline for 30 minutes, though I often skip the weekends.
I really want to be able to be comfortable with how I look and not hate myself when I look in the mirror. My weight is making me very uncomfortable and depressed. I am going to set a new calorie limit and stick to it, starting tomorrow. My online diary says that if I stick to that I will be able to lose 15 lbs. by Christmas. That would be the best Christmas gift I could give myself! I'm hoping that the accountability of keeping this diary will be just what I need to keep me on track.

 

[Cate]

Hi, Hayley & welcome to the forum. At 130 lbs, you have a BMI of 21.4, which puts you in the healthy weight range. I felt sad reading that you look in the mirror & hate yourself. I wish I could go back to my 18-year-old self & see just how attractive I actually was & didn't know it. Working on building your self-esteem is much more important than trying to lose 15 lbs by Christmas. Learning to love yourself would be one of the best things that you could start doing.
Part of learning to love yourself is also eating healthy food & nourishing your body. I think most people would have trouble leaving freshly baked choc chip cookies alone. When I really feel like having something sweet I have an orange, sometimes 2 & then distract myself. Do you eat fresh fruit & vegetables?
Try to switch your thinking to becoming healthy & really looking after your body. Your body deserves to be nurtured. If it is possible I recommend seeing a counsellor & getting help with self-esteem. It would probably be something your older self would be grateful for. I have spent most of my life not liking my body & yoyo dieting. Please don't do that.

 

[alligatorob]

Welcome to the forum Hayley! Listen to Cate, she is one of our Gurus here, she knows what she is talking about.

Accountability is always good, and posting here can help you no matter your goals.

Best of luck to you!

 

[butterflygirl19]

Hi, Hayley & welcome to the forum. At 130 lbs, you have a BMI of 21.4, which puts you in the healthy weight range. I felt sad reading that you look in the mirror & hate yourself. I wish I could go back to my 18-year-old self & see just how attractive I actually was & didn't know it. Working on building your self-esteem is much more important than trying to lose 15 lbs by Christmas. Learning to love yourself would be one of the best things that you could start doing.
Part of learning to love yourself is also eating healthy food & nourishing your body. I think most people would have trouble leaving freshly baked choc chip cookies alone. When I really feel like having something sweet I have an orange, sometimes 2 & then distract myself. Do you eat fresh fruit & vegetables?
Try to switch your thinking to becoming healthy & really looking after your body. Your body deserves to be nurtured. If it is possible I recommend seeing a counsellor & getting help with self-esteem. It would probably be something your older self would be grateful for. I have spent most of my life not liking my body & yoyo dieting. Please don't do that.

Thanks for your concern. Maybe I should've stated it a bit differently. I don't actually hate myself, I just don't like the way I look. . I know I'm fine on the bmi and I don't have a terrible weight problem, but I have done a waist to height calculator and it recommended losing weight. Waist to height ratio I really would like to gain more self-control and try to slim down a bit.

 

[Trusylver]

My goal waist measurement is 30" or less and goal weight is 115

Your goal weight is borderline under weight, BMI is not a good measure but is better than nothing. And your current waist to height ratio is only 0.05 over normal.

What is your current bodyfat % ?

What exercise do you currently do ?

I suspect you need to be looking at body re-composition rater than weight loss.

Are you a coeliac ?

 

[Trusylver]

By body re-composition I mean this 14 photos that show just how different women's bodies can look at the same weight Each of the pics on this page is an example of body re-composition rather than weight loss.

 

[butterflygirl19]

By body re-composition I mean this 14 photos that show just how different women's bodies can look at the same weight Each of the pics on this page is an example of body re-composition rather than weight loss.

Hmm, that's very interesting. I didn't realize you could get that much slimmer without actually losing weight! I guess you're probably right about me needing body re-composition. I look similar to the before picture in number 14.

Your goal weight is borderline under weight, BMI is not a good measure but is better than nothing. And your current waist to height ratio is only 0.05 over normal.

What is your current bodyfat % ?

What exercise do you currently do ?

I suspect you need to be looking at body re-composition rater than weight loss.

Are you a coeliac ?

My current body fat percentage is 27%, according to an online calculator I found that had me measure my waist, hips, forearm, and wrist.
I try to exercise 30 minutes per day by jogging (rebounding) on a mini-trampoline indoors.
No, I'm not a celiac. My family prefers to eat gluten-free, but I occasionally eat wheat.

 

[aiminglow]

By body re-composition I mean this 14 photos that show just how different women's bodies can look at the same weight Each of the pics on this page is an example of body re-composition rather than weight loss.

That's a really convincing set of photos, Tru - thanks for posting them!
I'm (obviously) a lot fatter than those women, but my body has that softness shown in the "before" pictures. What sort of exercise would they have done to get to the "after" stage?

 

[Trusylver]

That's a really convincing set of photos, Tru - thanks for posting them!
I'm (obviously) a lot fatter than those women, but my body has that softness shown in the "before" pictures. What sort of exercise would they have done to get to the "after" stage?

If you read what the the ladies themselves say, It is lifting heavy combined with diet, doing light high rep stuff which is normally pushed towards ladies is mostly useless for achieving these types of results.

 

[aiminglow]

Got it! Thanks, Tru.