Greetings...

12packAbs

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This seems like a pretty cool forum...

Anyways, I'm a guy in my early-mid thirties, and I've ALWAYS had a weight problem. I think I was skinny when I started school, but by the time I was 7'ish, I started gaining weight, and it's been a constant struggle since then.

By the time I started my second year of high school, I was starting to work out, and got a little leaner, but I was never comfortable with my body. I hated going swimming or going to the beach, as I was ashamed of how I looked. Nothing says sexy like man-boobs.

In my first year of university, I gained about 20lbs from drinking and eating too much. By the next year, I was in the gym 5-6 days a week, lifting weights. I got in much better shape, but I was still uncomfortable with myself. I hit my peak at about 23-24'ish, then I got married, and it generally has gone downhill from then. At 24 years old, I wore a size 33 in pants, now I just bought a pair of 38's. That was absolutely shattering for me. And let me tell ya, my man-boobs aren't looking any better these days.

In the last 5 years, I began cycling a lot (both mountain bike and road) and even raced. Even then, it was a yo-yo effect. Losing weight in the summer, and gaining weight in the winter. I did fairly well over the last couple of years, and was looking and feeling much better about myself. Then last summer, I got a promotion at work, and began working longer hours. From January until May this year, I barely exercised at all (last summer I was riding 5 days a week for 10 hours a week or so), ate way too much fast food and panzarotti's and starting drinking A LOT. I was drinking beer several times a week. I gained between 20-30lbs in those six months, and I feel like shit. A lot of my clothes I either can't get on, or simply are too tight.

So now, I've moved to a different city, working less hours, and overall trying to get back on top of things. I've been eating better the last couple of months, and I've began riding again regularly, but way less than last year (probably between 1-4hrs a week).

Now my son is 4 years old and loves to go play in swimming pools, but I'm too ashamed to take him. How's that for pathetic? Unfortunatley, it's not uncommon.

I was at about 230 at my heaviest earlier this year (I also reached that weight about 6-7 years ago). I think either last year or the year before I was around 190-195. My goal is to get down to 185lbs. My weight this morning was 216 so I have about 30lbs to go.

I want to get rid of my 12pack, and maybe oneday get a 6pack. Most likely I'll just have to settle for a Molson Bubba rather than a 6 pack.

(A bubba is kinda like a really small keg)....

man-boobs...
 
Oh yeah...

Did I mention I suffer from depression & anxiety, and have been binge eating for a couple of decades...which only makes this worse...

I seem to binge eat in times of stress...my worst was when I was in University, but it's happened many times in the last few years as well...like getting a pile of chicken wings, then buying a bag of cookies and going home and polishing off the whole bag...or having a 6 pack of Krispy Kremes on the way to work...and it just makes you feel like crap afterwards...you know you shouldn't...but I find that food is an emotional crutch for me...I LOVE FOOD...
 
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