EmilyGrey92
New member
Ever since I had my first child, I have put on a lot of weight, he is four now, and I now weigh 12 stone 2lbs which is over weight for my height. I'm deeply unhappy, I feel uncomfortable and have lost all my confidence. I feel worthless and depressed, I cry a lot which then makes me turn to food and I eat a lot, I'm a bad binge eater. I only have myself to blame, and I know I'm the only one who can change this. I have grown very depressed, I don't go out much, my relationship is breaking down with my partner, he is not very good at helping me do better, he doesn't want me to lose weight and he emotionally blackmails me, he says if it wasn't for him I wouldn't have anything I've got, he's in charge of everything such as the roof over our head and bills because he works so it's his way or the high way, Now my child goes to school full time I'm able to get back into work which I start soon, he's not happy that I'm trying to get some independence back, I shouldn't blame him but he makes me feel depressed and then I turn to food. I'm scared to start my job because I don't feel good enough anymore, I feel like a fat mess. I used to be so happy. After further insults from my partner tonight, I sat and cried and thought to myself I really need to change, I really need to lose this weight and be the happy girl that I once was, and maybe I might just get rid of him too. I don't want to be the fat girl that hides away all of the time, I want to do this for myself and for my son. I'm fed up of being treated bad and I'm fed up of feeling bad. So from now onwards I'm going to lose this weight for good. Sorry if my story is a bit depressing and long, but I had a whole lot of problems to get off my chest. I'm looking for support along the way and to meet new friends..it's time for me to make a change
