Gained weight

John Doe124

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I am 29 years old and very angry at the time of this post. In my teen years I was 140 pounds at 5 foot 8, I was on some medication a couple of years ago (Lithium and others) and was very depressed and sedentary and got to over 200 pounds. I have been off meds-thank God- for a year and a half, and was at 180 around April of this year when I was not really exercising, but trying to limit my calories to below 2000 a day. Since May, I have been working out nearly every day, doing interval training on the elliptical for 35 minutes and some push ups and sit-ups, I was down about a week ago at 173. Just checked the scale and wonderful I'm back at 180. I can't believe it, it takes so much work mental and otherwise for me to work out like I do and it's doing nothing, I can't imagine what actually doing nothing would do. I feel amazingly depressed right now. My plan is not to rely on the elliptical calorie count at all anymore, work out like I do until my shirt is soaked through and there is a puddle on the floor, divide the calories it says I burn in half and eat half as much as I do now, literally fill my plate like I normally would and throw out half of it.
 
I can understand that you are angry. It is frustrating to move a few steps back when you are expecting to move forward.

However, I want want to give you some advice that may sound weird: accept responsibility for this. By doing this you give yourself the power to change it. Don't allow yourself to play the victim, even if it may sound very reasonable. If you play the vicitim, you rob yourself of the opportunity to take your fate in your own hands.

Not saying that you should be harsh towards yourself, that is not useful either. But it is smart to think about ways you could prevent something from happening again. I don't want to downplay your challenges, they may be severe. But no matter what, accept responsibility for your life and you will maximize your power to change it.

I hope that helps! Good luck on your journey!
 
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