FREAKING OUT about my 1st workout

Storm Girl

Storm Girl

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You will all probably laugh at me - but I am totally FREAKING OUT!

Tomorrow is my FIRST work out with my personal trainer. He called me this afternoon to confirm out work out times for M-W-F this week. When I hung up the phone I felt a BIG lump in my throat and in my tummy! OMG! Am I REALY going to do this?

I am soooooooooooo TOTALY out of shape. I breathe hard just going up the steps in my home. This guy is going to kick my butt and I'm scared. What if I can't do it? What if I look like an idiot flinging my fat all over the gym? The gym is not public. It is small and only for one on one training, however there are about 8 trainers with clients in there. Oh, and from what I saw when I met with my trainer on Friday - most of the people there are already skinny! He told me that a lot of serious athletes go there. Oh My FRIGGIN' God! Am I going to be the comical entertainment for these people?

I'm scared that I am going to give up on this - just like I have given up on every single other thing I have ever tried. What's worse is that I haven't even started yet with this new attempt and I already feel like I am failing.

HAS ANYONE ELSE HAD ANXIETY LIKE THIS BEFORE?

HAS ANYONE ELSE FELT LIKE OTHER PEOPLE WERE WATCHING YOU AT THE GYM?

*SIGH*

 
Don't worry everyone has those moments when they first start out. What you need to do is not focus on other people in the gym and focus on your self and your goals. Keep in mind many of the people there probably started out at the same fitness level that your at now.

Don't forget weightless is a personal attempt by you to correct your fitness problems. So just listen to everything your trainer say's and you'll be ok.

Good Luck,
 
Storm Girl, we all have to start somewhere. One year ago, I weighed 270 lbs., and I was wheezing after tow flights of stairs. I couldn't do more than 5 minutes on the elliptical machine. The first time I set foot in the gym, I was thoroughly embarrassed. But I was determined to get out of my "rut." Now, exactly one year later, I think I could give guys half my age a run for their money. Everyone gets up Mt. Everest the same way, one step at a time.
 
Hell yeah - I was so scared of joining a gym and the trainer finding out how "shit and unfit I was" and that I'd be the most unfit, and that people would stare at me due to how unfit I was and that I'd probably look dumb, not knowing what I was doing. In febuary this year, I couldn't jog for more than 5 minutes, and I'd be so out of breath I'd wheeze (and I wasnt even overweight at that point - no excuses).

I didn't use the gym for 2 months but used the pool instead, then my very patient boyfriend took me there and showed me round, showed me a few basic exercises calmly, and made me feel good about myself. That helped. Then I got my induction with a trainer. I got my fitness level assessed via a step test and I didn't even get below average - I got poor, and slightly under 30% body fat at 20 - that's after having lost most of the weight. I cried afterwards at home. I was so embarrassed during the whole thing, and self-conscious.

By the second session, I realised that no-one gave a shit about me; they're too absorbed into their workout. I then quickly realised that many of these slim girls who spend all their time on the treadmill that I was scared of (they made me insecure) had no muscle tone as they only did low intensity cardio and most definitely under-ate, and that many of the suposedly "fit" people couldn't even do basic things in good form. I took my time to learn how to do things in good form, to educated myself etc.

Now, even though I've only been there a few months, I've noticed that people do actually look at me now: some women seem to look at what I'm doing, and although it annoys me most of the time, men do stare (well the straight ones lol - many gays in my gym), because I am in good shape now, and when I think that less than a 6 months ago, I was so scared and mortified and embarrassed, it makes me smile.

There is no reason to be scared. Everyone's got to start somewhere. As I said I was mortified, but seriously there was no need. If you're going to start something, think about how good you'll look. My boyfriend is very slim and toned, with a low body%, six pack and all - he told me that during his all childhood he was obese until he decided at 15 that he didn't want to be the fat kid anymore, and that 6 months before I met him, he was completely out of shape and decided he'd have big abs by summer. He did it, and so can we!

Good luck and believe in yourself :D
 
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Thank you for all of your support!

UGH! I will let you know how tomorrow goes - that is if I even survive!:eek:

Wishes from my heart to yours,
"Storm Girl"
 
You'll do fine! If we were all in shape, we wouldn't need to go to the gym to make things better. (I'll be attending the gym for the first time in nearly 7 years tomorrow.... I'm a little nervous too).

I spoke to the manager of the gym I joined today and he said it makes him so happy to see overweight or under-fit people come in and turn their lives around. Thats what its all about, right?

I don't think you should worry too much about what other people think. If anything, check out NatalieJo's journal between yesterday and today's posts.. we've sort of been talking about the same thing and what its like to be on either side of who's self conscious and who's looking.

I hope all goes well for you.
 
Don't worry too much. Don't give up either. This is going to be really great for you. You might hate it at first but, now I love the days when I get to work with my PT... Today isn't one of them, :mad: LOL

-Sam
 


Hello... :)

Well, I survived my first workout and I am now TWO weeks into it! 3x's a week with my PT for an hour each session and 45-60 minutes on the "off" days by myself. UGH!

I am anxious to see more results. I wish I had a magic wand to shed my fluff more quickly!

Wishes to all of you!

Vanessa
 
keep up the hard work, and make sure ur drinking tons of water
 
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