Feeling ****ed up right now

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theGOOCH

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I must have missed the news story, so I just found out a childhood friend of mine was beaten to death a little less than a year ago.

I hadn't seen him in over 10 years so I'm a little surprised it has affected me so much, but I knew him forever. I distinctly remember meeting him on the first day of kindergarten and going all the way through school with him. We were even in Boy Scouts together..camping trips, hiking, fishing and his dad would often volunteer to drive us kids around.

What probably makes me feel the worst is I didn't stay that close to him because in jr. high and high school he was considered sort of a nerd, or at least not exactly "cool". I was too weak to stay true to a friend for fear of being viewed as uncool by others...That's all such stupid ****
 
Thats too bad man.

But honestly dont beat yourself up about it
 
Everyone in Jr high and high school are so confused man. They are in sort of a culture shock, trying to figure out who they really are in life. My sincere apologies for what happened to your friend however that should have no bearing on what you felt during high school. I don't talk to one person I knew from high school. People part ways and that's life.

Try and bring some positivity to the situation and let this be a lessen learned that life is crazy short so when you rest your head on your pillow at night to fall asleep, make sure you know in your head that what you did that day brought you one step closer that whatever your goal is in life.
 
It takes time to get over things like this, but once you do get over it, you'll be stronger. Just like in weight training it takes time to get stronger.
 
LV is right. I was a completely different person in Jr High and HS than I am now. Hell, I probably changed every day. Point is, don't beat yourself up or feel anything undeserving on yourself. You were a good friend to him during your young years together, and your lives split paths, nothing more. I am sorry for the loss of your friend. You are a good person, and have no reason to turn on yourself.
 
**** happens. But to blame yourself is arrogance (defined here as taking responsibility for things that are not actually under your control).

Have you signed your kids up for Muay Thai and BJJ yet? ;)

Hmm. Maybe some weapons training, too.
 
I felt better after a little "iron therapy" yesterday afternoon. Thanks everyone.


..my kids already take Shorin Ryu...which is why I'm up so early on a Saturday
 
Outstanding. :D
 
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