So this is it! Me finally getting back on track (wow, I really haven't said that before, have I...) But now for real. At least I'll try.
Starting off, I'm not overweight. However, I'm also not lean and fit. And I want to be.
So this is my plan for now:
Meal plan
I'm not gonna follow any weird diets (not mean to insult you if you are). I'm just gonna do it the way I was raised: Breakfast, lunch, snack (merienda actually, go hispanics!) and dinner. For each I'm going to have a source of healthy fat, a source of carbs and one of protein. Since I'm very flaky I'll decide what I eat on the go for now, and if I see that I need a stricter meal plan I'll try to stick to it. Not for now, though. I will also not count my calories, since that is super detrimental for my mental health, and I think that I won't achieve anything by triggering myself.
Workout plan
For now, the only workout plan I have is to work out every day. I'm gonna try to do 30 minutes workouts daily and mix HIIT with strength training. I'll also go on walks as often as I can. Once or twice a week I will attempt an one hour workout.
Anyways, how did this start?
Childhood
Ever since I was a child I remember looking at myself in the mirror and being like... wow, why am I the fattest one of my friends? I discovered years after, well into my teenage years, that what I actually had was body dysmorphia. Looking at pictures of myself, I was as skinny as a kid can get without being considered unhealthy.
Teenage years
I went vegan because of ethical reasons when I was 17, but I didn't do it properly and it was detrimental for my health. I was always bloated and wasn't taking any B12. I still had a lot of body issues, even though I remained skinny. However, when I turned 18, I started slowly gaining weight. I even got to an unhealthy weight of 66 kgs when being only 1.66 cm tall. I used to binge eat like crazy and then try to burn it off in the gym. I went to the gym quite frequently, tbh, and I was very strong even though I was also a bit overweight.
When I turned 19 everything changed. I stopped going to the gym as often and I also stopped eating. I had struggles with depression and anxiety, and I went from 66 kg to 48 kg in less than 5 months. No, I don't want to go back.
20s
I recovered part of my mental health thanks to therapy and a team of professionals helping me, also with the unconditional support of my loving family and friends. I kept a healthy weight and a healthy workout routine, 3 days a week for an hour, but I was still scared of food and terrified of gaining weight. For a while I could maintain it: I wasn't even the one preparing my meals most of the time and I didn't buy groceries, so my meal plan was basically the one my nutritionist had made for me a while ago when I had to get back on track. And then I moved to college, which meant a new country across the ocean.
In the beginning I could manage with food. I stopped working out though, and after a while I started having bad eating habits again.
Now I'm in a pretty bad place. I'm very lonely since almost all of my friends went back home and I'm staying on my own, I gained a significant amount of weight back, I eat more and worse than I need to and I haven't been working out enough. I have basically fallen off the wagon, but then again, I don't know if I was ever on it!
So now it starts.
Starting off, I'm not overweight. However, I'm also not lean and fit. And I want to be.
So this is my plan for now:
Meal plan
I'm not gonna follow any weird diets (not mean to insult you if you are). I'm just gonna do it the way I was raised: Breakfast, lunch, snack (merienda actually, go hispanics!) and dinner. For each I'm going to have a source of healthy fat, a source of carbs and one of protein. Since I'm very flaky I'll decide what I eat on the go for now, and if I see that I need a stricter meal plan I'll try to stick to it. Not for now, though. I will also not count my calories, since that is super detrimental for my mental health, and I think that I won't achieve anything by triggering myself.
Workout plan
For now, the only workout plan I have is to work out every day. I'm gonna try to do 30 minutes workouts daily and mix HIIT with strength training. I'll also go on walks as often as I can. Once or twice a week I will attempt an one hour workout.
Anyways, how did this start?
Childhood
Ever since I was a child I remember looking at myself in the mirror and being like... wow, why am I the fattest one of my friends? I discovered years after, well into my teenage years, that what I actually had was body dysmorphia. Looking at pictures of myself, I was as skinny as a kid can get without being considered unhealthy.
Teenage years
I went vegan because of ethical reasons when I was 17, but I didn't do it properly and it was detrimental for my health. I was always bloated and wasn't taking any B12. I still had a lot of body issues, even though I remained skinny. However, when I turned 18, I started slowly gaining weight. I even got to an unhealthy weight of 66 kgs when being only 1.66 cm tall. I used to binge eat like crazy and then try to burn it off in the gym. I went to the gym quite frequently, tbh, and I was very strong even though I was also a bit overweight.
When I turned 19 everything changed. I stopped going to the gym as often and I also stopped eating. I had struggles with depression and anxiety, and I went from 66 kg to 48 kg in less than 5 months. No, I don't want to go back.
20s
I recovered part of my mental health thanks to therapy and a team of professionals helping me, also with the unconditional support of my loving family and friends. I kept a healthy weight and a healthy workout routine, 3 days a week for an hour, but I was still scared of food and terrified of gaining weight. For a while I could maintain it: I wasn't even the one preparing my meals most of the time and I didn't buy groceries, so my meal plan was basically the one my nutritionist had made for me a while ago when I had to get back on track. And then I moved to college, which meant a new country across the ocean.
In the beginning I could manage with food. I stopped working out though, and after a while I started having bad eating habits again.
Now I'm in a pretty bad place. I'm very lonely since almost all of my friends went back home and I'm staying on my own, I gained a significant amount of weight back, I eat more and worse than I need to and I haven't been working out enough. I have basically fallen off the wagon, but then again, I don't know if I was ever on it!
So now it starts.
