ImakeitRAINES
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View attachment 22571 This WAS me at the start of 2013 i was in shape and doing well than i lost my girlfriend of 4 years and she took my daughter and moved to california...I hit a spot of depression and 8 months later.....
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Needless to say i need help...im a big guy but i cant do it anymore im strong and active i walk to work which takes me 40 minutes there and back I work as a freight handler so im always lifting carrying, moving around and sweating. Im also in school for CNC machining so im on my feet cutting steel and moving around also i dont have a vehicle so i walk and wait for the bus every where i go...The problem is im still gaining weight i went from 258 to 261 recently and i dont get it im always active there are days where i only have class but still thats a lot too...
Ever since my weight gain my right knee is ready to blow out it cracks pops and wobbles and sometimes i fall because it gives out Im ex military and have been to prison so i take in account that ive endured high impact and impact on cement as i worked out and trained on it non-stop i feel the weight gain (60lbs in 8 months) is making it worse...I cant run on a treadmill or do anything (ESPECIALLY SQUATS!) that uses my knee...I have a huge home gym (one where it has the seat, pull down bars butterfly press, chest press cables and rack)dumbbells, weighted bands, and i just got a gazelle edge because its easy on my knee.
I can lift erything i try and always impress my co-workers and classmates and my instructor tried to test me by having me hold my arm out straight and he tried to push it resulting in me using my one arm to push him back im proud of my strength and i feel menacing and indestructable but i cant stand the sight of me...I hate me the fat disgusting thing ive become and i cant lose the weight and i want to lose 50-60lbs in 5-8 months and need to know how so any suggestions or input? and am i really such a fatass? or am i just carrying a bit extra and could lose it?
This is me...View attachment 22572View attachment 22573View attachment 22574View attachment 22575
Needless to say i need help...im a big guy but i cant do it anymore im strong and active i walk to work which takes me 40 minutes there and back I work as a freight handler so im always lifting carrying, moving around and sweating. Im also in school for CNC machining so im on my feet cutting steel and moving around also i dont have a vehicle so i walk and wait for the bus every where i go...The problem is im still gaining weight i went from 258 to 261 recently and i dont get it im always active there are days where i only have class but still thats a lot too...
Ever since my weight gain my right knee is ready to blow out it cracks pops and wobbles and sometimes i fall because it gives out Im ex military and have been to prison so i take in account that ive endured high impact and impact on cement as i worked out and trained on it non-stop i feel the weight gain (60lbs in 8 months) is making it worse...I cant run on a treadmill or do anything (ESPECIALLY SQUATS!) that uses my knee...I have a huge home gym (one where it has the seat, pull down bars butterfly press, chest press cables and rack)dumbbells, weighted bands, and i just got a gazelle edge because its easy on my knee.
I can lift erything i try and always impress my co-workers and classmates and my instructor tried to test me by having me hold my arm out straight and he tried to push it resulting in me using my one arm to push him back im proud of my strength and i feel menacing and indestructable but i cant stand the sight of me...I hate me the fat disgusting thing ive become and i cant lose the weight and i want to lose 50-60lbs in 5-8 months and need to know how so any suggestions or input? and am i really such a fatass? or am i just carrying a bit extra and could lose it?