Depression and fat

Hopethishelps

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Hi, depression is a tough subject to speak about.

Millennials like me struggle so hard to stay in the light. If you are like me, you grew up in an age where everyone told you anything was possible, you were special and unique and to follow your dreams. But then after school and colleges, reality hit and and you realized that the world didn't work like that.

You were shoved into the rat race, and very soon realized that the world didn't care about you. That you weren't Special. That you had to work incredibly hard, usually doing something meaningless, just to survive, and even if you worked twenty hour days, nobody noticed or cared.

I was heavily depressed in my early 20s and even tried to commit suicide. Luckily I was unsuccessful, and just ended up vomiting foam for 3 days. It was not a good time.

I joined a depression forum, and it actually made me feel worse. Why you ask? Well depressed people are sad at a very deep core level, and this sadness and numbness overshadows EVERYTHING else. I became very cynical and self absorbed. I didn't see anything beyond my own suffering and hardships. Many of the people on the forum were in the same space, and therefore, wanted to talk about themselves, and throw around advice but we all struggled with true compassion and seeing beyond our own black hole.

I took various antidepressants and anti anxiety meds, which threw me into a kind of numb space that helped me cope, but didn't fix me or help with my unhealthy lifestyle.

My weight yoyoed according to what I was feeling. I was incapable of helping myself. This lasted about 6 years and I had lost all hope.

But let me tell you something, there is a happy ending, and we are stronger than we think. It took a long time, but slowly I realized that the world was in fact pretty screwed up, but also that I was responsible for my life, my actions and my choices. The world was not to blame.

My dad always said, create your own bubble, so that is what I started doing. Very slowly, and with many setbacks, I started creating the space that I wanted to live in. It was hard work, but so is everything.

Find good people, they are out there. Even if it is your, mom, your Kat and the neighbor. Loneliness is very bad for the soul. Start something, millennial are very good at that. Don't give up.

Today, me and my amazing husband live in a tiny town with 2 kids, a dog and a cat. We have a wonderful group of friends that are not assholes :) I do freelance design work and he has the local mechanical workshop. We also have a foodtruck that we run on weekends just for that extra bit of adventure.

My weight has been constant for 5 yr now, even after kids. And I think it is because I am happy in my core. We still have bad days, but I can cope now. I see the light.

Please be brave and remember that it's a big world and a long life, that is yours to do with what you want. Never let anyone tell you any differently.
 
  • World is as happy as we do it for ourselves.
  • All the pills can't help to chanage it better.
  • It is inside us, the inner strength and will, that makes us change our life happy and enjoyable.
  • Enjoy every moment you have and be grateful for everything!
  • When you enjoy your life, then everything is going to be well.
  • All we are seeking confidence, love and support of our family. Support the weakest ones!
  • Our life is a reflection of our thoughts. We and only we are creating our life, changing it unhappyer or happyer.( Shakti Annand)
  • Irrespective of, what you dream about, start working with it! Then all kind of genuine miracles are coming to pass! (Johann Wolfgang von Goethe)
 
Hi, I am also a millennial but did not have the same experience you did. No one told me I could do anything I wanted or that I was special. But as I grew older, I realised you really can do anything you want. There are no rules or limits in life. Cheers ~ relax and take it easy. There is nothing wrong with you.
 
I like this. Depression and anxiety is a tough subject that I've personally struggled with, just like millions upon millions of others. We can let it control us, or we can fight it! Even though sometimes it seems helpless, it's something we can trump over. Like you said, you have to take responsibility for yourself. Thanks for the reflective post.
 
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